please talk to me im at my wits end and you sound like someone who has walked in my footsteps not insane not onndrugs would be happy to share your experiences with this cursed disease, misunderstood5
I have been plagued by this for 15 years it has consumed my life I have been told everything from IM on drugs IM mentally ill I live and smell clean MY breath is fine I challenge anyone to sit next to me in a closed room for less than a minute and I Will bet my life my bank account that they will either cough ,sneeze or rub their eyes from irritation im in my 40's and just avoid people as much as i can ive had every blood,urine and medical test I was convinced i might of cursed myself through involvement in black magic as a young person but that just puts me in the CRAZY bucket, so it might one day become to much and end my life prematurely but i will mask it in medication until then im educated but can not hold a job because of this fkn SAD,Lm.
Same here. Im 16 and this problem started about 2 years ago. I did start smoking weed at a young age probably around 5th grade but just a few times but really started around 6th grade, I would smoke more but never constantly, I would stop smoking for long periods of time. Since I would hang out with my brother everywhere he would go, I would smoke along the way. Currently I have smoked a couple of times, just because I like when I'm high, I don't think negative just feel good but do get paranoid, and time goes by faster. I hate that all this has me thinking negative. It's very hard to control my face muscles and my body twitches quite a lot. Everytime I'm in a room and people cough or get near me, it distracts me, and I can't control people getting watery eyes or itching/running nose when I look at them. I know I'm the cause because it never used to be like this. I used to have a clear mind, I used to be happy. Everytime I'm in a room I feel like I get everybody depressed. I'm depressed, I try to just ignore it but it's destroying my joy and I'm 16, this shouldn't be the case. I have bad eye sight, I wear glasses now constantly but used to wear them off and on throughout my time. I used to have watery eyes at the end of middle school, I used to get watery eyes a lot. My face been through a lot, red rashes around face, bad skin on chin all hard and red skin being torn all slimey. I have little white dots around eyes. I'm not sure if it's because I smoked weed or started masturbating around high school or because I masturbate constantly for a certain amount of time (1 week) and stop for a month or two. Right now I'm trying to stop masturbating and leave it. Sometimes I think I look good or decent but people look at me amazed or like I'm weird. I just want to have a clear mind, think positive, and control my life by being "normal" I just want to be happy again. Please if anyone can help, I've considered suicide, please help me and other people like me.
Hey don't think your alone.
I've been kicked out of university for the same reason, with over £20K debt, Shortly being kicked out of my home with nowhere to go.
Lost a job and business to this, so i'm currently living on loans.
I looked down to people all my life, and to have something knock me down destroys you. The little things in life such as spending time with family is difficult.
Hugs & Kisses to all suffering from this, it's excruciating. Growing up, I suffered a lot of physical injuries from sports as well as results of my mischievous shenanigans, some were really bad however I would wish PATM on my worst enemy.
Seize every moment and live it as if you are not suffering. It's clearly not in our heads but until you can find a solution, don't let it make you crazy or destroy your life.
our pain comes when we do not give love
care to know less and know to care more
pure love is the answer