Now see, everyone is on a completely other track than I am. So I am going to repeat myself to be heard. LOL I think what you need to do is actually look into taking care of you. You have a lot of internal struggle and outside drama with ex's and fiance's ex's and etc. that I almost get the impression you can't think straight about it all. I think you need to see a therapist solo and do some work. You need to know why you stayed with a man that had significant issues, why you are having issues in your relationship now and what you can do to move forward. This is what is within your control. The rest isn't and will hold you back from doing what really needs to be done which is address what is going on with YOU. good luck
Oya, my fiance ex-wife ...the reason they got a divorce was because she cheated on him all the time and was always clubbing. He wanted to settle down and be serious and she didnt want to. So they divorced. My fiance had his daughter all the time, his ex wife was always gone messing with alot of men and drinking. My fiance payed child support, plus daycare, bought all her clothes and anything else she needed plus had his daughter the majority of the time even though he wasnt the custodial parent. His ex wife didnt really care, she would stay gone for days at a time. Then she finds out that he is in a relationship she acts like mom of the year. He never really dated since their divorce only a few times. So when she realized he was with sumone she knew she wasnt the main focus anymore. She has even tried to get him back. She is nuts!
we did fight for his daughter and all the courts did was change his vistation days to his off days and make him pay double the child support. we fought for her the whole year she was gone. cost me my whole savings(13000) plus i was paying for my lawyer still. Court system is slow and dont always work. About his ex-wife... she didnt not know me from adam... she didnt knwo my pat or anything. She hated me because i was a white lady with a mexican man, and to her thats not allowed. She seen me and my step daughter out one day and flipped because my step daughter told her she really liked me. I did make a mistake jumping from one relationship to another but i am not a bad person. Ive worked since i was 15 and have always supported my self and dont have to have a man, i want one. I love the family life, i didnt have that when i grew up. His ex-wife is horrible and im not saying this because she is his ex. She tells my step daughter horrible things that is not true. She makes her call my fiance and say mean things (u can hear his ex in the back ground) my step daughter calls back crying saying she wants to leave and her mom made her say that...which we already knew. We never speak ill of her mom, and tell her sometimes people get mad and say mean things but that doesnt mean she is a bad person. In reality she is 38 years old and should know better to act like that, how could a mom treat a child like that. My step daughter know the truth but cant say what she feels because her mom either grounds her, breaks her phone, or keep her away form us... Or sometimes all the above. We fought and fought for her...the courts just gave her a slap on the hand and she doesnt care. She thinks she cant be touched.
I second teko. As far as his daughter is concerned...look at it from a mothers perspective (not the using her but the end, taking her away) I sat back last night and thought, if I were the girls mother and her father gets another woman who just left her husband pregnant after 5 weeks and essentially, if only emotionally, helped her have an affair, do I want my child around that. My answer was absolutely not. I would have taken the child away and fought for sole custody.
When I said "once you are married, he should fight for custody," I meant he should fight for custody of his daughter. I know you have custody of your kid, I was concerned about his sadness at the loss of his daughter. Why did he just let his ex take her? Is it because he thinks he cannot get her back if he is living with you? I would certainly encourage him to make definite plans to try to get her back.
Hi, I'm sorry you are suffering. Life is full of regrets and things we'd like to take back. We all have that but to different degrees.
Here is what I'd like to see you do. I'd like to see you see a therapist for yourself. Not couples counseling at this point but for you. I think it would help you to examine your previous marriage-------- what was wrong, why you stayed as long as you did, why you acted out by having an affair when you are clearly suffering about that choice. As many reasons as you give for the bad marriage, you still feel terrible for the infidelity. I think you were pacifying feelings and that is why you are having difficulty with your current boyfriend. Sometimes when something starts for the wrong reason (a band aid to an unhappy life) it never gets a strong foundation. I just think going to a professional to work on you is your best course of action that will benefit your whole life and that of your child's. I'd talk to the therapist about depression and anxiety as I guess you have some of this as well.
Whether things work out with your current boyfriend or not, I don't know. But I would put the breaks on any further steps in the relationship until you can work out your emotions. And I think a therapist would be excellent for helping you do that.
I wish you peace of spirit. We all make mistakes------- all of us. good luck