Hello, im here trying to get some advise honest one. Okay I been dating my BF for 10years we live together, 4years ago I made a mistake that ruined my life my future and took my happiness away. I cheated on my bf, it was one time thing I was 24years old young and confused on what I really wanted in life. At that moment I try to break up with my bf but he refuse to split. I wanted to be wild and free to go out and enjoy life with friends. Me getting out of control lasted 5months and in that time I cheated (one time). when my bf found out my world changed I changed, I wish I knew then what I know now, I wish I was more wiser and my life would of turn out different. We got back together but he never really forgave me, now we are back to square one. He goes in to this dark mentality that he needs to get away from me to be happy, (its easier said than done) now im here lost in words not knowing what to do. I been thinking just breaking up but my heart hurts so much. I wish he was sure of his love for me like before, he wont marry me or kids don’t even come in the subject. I guess im the only one holding tight and don’t want to let go.