And he's the one not wanting sex as much at all from going every other to every couple days to a week and a half etc etc all he wanted was a rare no nothing to do with sex..
He's embarrassed that he got caught. I would imagine many men use porn and are ashamed that they do and that's why they lie, even when caught red handed. The fact is that if he has a "ton of porn" he would be considered a sexual addict. and there's help with that should he not cease and desist once you and he start to resume your earlier intimacy (if you want to work on yourself to get to that point). Do you like having sex with your partner as you are right now? If not, and you would like to feel more comfortable, you can work out, perhaps change your diet and get your figure back. It's quite possible if you have the passion to do so. You've said that you and he are not having sex as much because of the body issues you feel you have. Not that he has with your body. So if it were me, and i wanted to stay in the marriage (which i'm not sure i would) but if you do, then make the time to look after yourself, so that YOU feel better about your figure, and try to work on the marriage by getting back to your former intimacy. It might be that the porn is simply Plan B for him, because he knows you're not that interested in being intimate with him. Once you feel good about you, revisit his need for outside stimulation. I found an amazing women on Youtube to start a daily work out plan, her name is Miranda Esmond White. She's an older ballerina that has low impact excises that can help you get back your earlier fitness. Eat to Live is an excellent book to help you get yourself on a diet that will ensure you are your healthiest nutritionally while losing excess body fat. I wish you every success. Marriage is about compromise. I think your husband loves you but cannot fathom why you are not as interested in sex as you once were. He may find you just as beautiful as ever with no change. Change for you, not for anyone else.
I'd suggest you stop looking in his phone. Don't you have any other electronics in the house to look up three ways to soothe a crying baby? What do you do for that kind of reference when he is not home with his phone?
Women write in a lot on MedHelp about feeling put down when their husband or boyfriend looks at porn, but it never really sounds like that's what the fight is really about. For one thing, it never seems to happen in relationships where everything else is going great, only where there are more subtle issues. I was not being flip when saying to stop looking in his phone, I was saying don't blame the fight on what you dig up on him on his phone. Don't try to manipulate him with guilt over a porn site. It sounds more like what is bothering you (if you were to discuss it directly) is whether you are as attractive to him as you were. Ask him. Talk to him about that. Then fights over something as trivial as him looking at raunchy websites should die down.
Tilly, first, you need to be honest with yourself that you DO care about the porn, it isn't just the lying. And he knows you care about the porn and not just the lying, and that's why he's not telling you the truth.
Otherwise, besides finding this porn on his phone, is he a good partner and father?