Stella & Applecore ...

[ChitChatNine]

How are you two ladies doing?

C~

[Applecore]

I made the decision and felt good about it.  I have a spongy head right now and am tired of sayng I'm scared about everything I am doing.  I'm scared about taking more medicine but don't know what else to do and I scared about the theopostic prayer that I am doing as it is messing with my subconscious and memories and some of it has helped probably all of it will eventually but either I am so dope that can't get her act together or this is normal and I will come out the other end ok.  Your mind is something some people seem to have ore problems with than others and at this moment I am one of the ones that is runnng scared even with the Lord helping me.  This is not a good confession but it is the truth.  I have a couple more days before I see the psychiratrist and then what , is that going to be a good thing for me.  Is. 41:ll,12 says I will hunt for my tormentors and I will not find them.  That hasn't happened all the way yet.  Keep thinking about me and praying for me . I don't want to even take any medicine tonight , I am just sick of it.  I have done everything the doctors have told me to do except today I ate something that I think is giving me the spongy head .  I forgot I can't have peanuts and the fish was fried in peanut oil so now my head is suffering.   I think I'd betterstop now for Ive complained enough.  I am happy that I made the decision I made but It is like a fish with teeth on both sides  and I'm on the hook, either way the decision isn't easy and the result uncertain except depending on God even when I don't feel like it is the better decision to make.   Love you guys and thanks for being there and listening to me.   linda

[ChitChatNine]

Tater Tot gives a "HAT'S OFF" Chicken style to both of you ..

Stella~you will see more of the "feel good" days closer together .. they come and shine thru here and there and suddenly come day after day!!!

Apple~YOU are amazing .. what great positive steps you are taking for yourself and your health right now .. I am so PROUD of you ... your faith may have guided you, but, ultimately YOU made the decision and are following thru with it!

C~

[stella5349]

Linda- nice to hear amd I hope my early morning post was not to harsh so early in the morning. If there is one thing I value about myself is honestly and kindness and I hope I gave both to you.

OK Tater Tot!!!! - I doing very well today - no sore throat - no pain - great day at work and feel pretty good - actually better than I have in weeks again. I remember these days weel when I was normal and I love them!! To bad when we are in good health we don't appreciate it.

The only thing is that ENT surgeon I met with Tuesday still has NOT contacted me to follow through on his "so called" FNA protocal. That ticks me off - I am positive if a family member of any of these specialists were in mine (our) shoes) things would be quicker. Otherwise I appreciate the day today very much

Hope everone is well here too! I LUV ya guys.

To- shay   ----

me

[Applecore]

Thanks for asking.  I made a big decision today and that is to change doctors from the holistic doctor to a Christian psychiatrist that will work with my therapist.  It took quite a lot but the Lord showed me the truth and I know I need a antidepressant to help me get through this.  I don't know what it will do for me but I do know I need it.  I need a break from the stress of the roller coaster ride I have been on for several weeks.  I do on Tues. I don't know what he will give me but I trust it will help me.  I am going to make some other doctor changes in the future but not right now.  I want to find another doctor that will help me with the celiac and food allergies that I can get in touch with more and one that has a nicer personality.  It would be nice if they would take medicare.  None of my doctors take it and I have to pay the full bill all the time.  The only one that takes it is my endo. I am waiting for the results of my last thyroid blood test.  I thought it would come today but maybe tomorrow.  I hope it is ok.     I hope stella is getting more peace about her situation.  She did help me with mine and was part of the answer.  You all are  such good people.  Let you know what they put me on and what he says.   Love to all linda