When I was 14 I had just moved back to United States (1976-81) from living overseas with my family in Saudi Arabia ( where are I was going to an American embassy school, we were constantly told by the teachers at school that all sexual offenses were taboo and if something were to happen they wouldn't be able to shield us from harm). Back to the United States three months later my father passed away from a massive heart attack. I was totally devastated we were close family my father my mother my sister and I! My sister got married quickly and got out of the house it was just my mother and I and I was sinking more and more into depression ( I can never thank my Bournemouth for all the love that she gave me to make up for my father not being there!), after I attempted suicide and came out of the hospital my mom found me the "best" child psychologist in our area! When we first started out it was looking back now, like a normal typical psychologist would help a child through grief. We started discussing my life overseas and how I only had limited TV and afterschool I would come home and basically did nothing since all my friends lived compounds and we did not ( meaning I was unable to have friends come over or make meaningful male/ female relationships). This is the part that haunts me to this day; somehow, . we got on the subject of sex being very innocent and naïve I didn't think anything when he asked if I was interested in.sex and I told him I was curious but I wanted remain a virgin until I married. He then tells me he has an informative video tape that will help me through the years of situations and relationships I missed when I lived overseas, proceeds to put the video in and it was the Kama Sutra!! Kama Sutra style there were other tapes so many that I just shut down and forgot everything I saw at that point to, this day I can remember the, horror embarrassment, and shame watching that with him and watching me! I never told my mother of this nightmare she passed away without reliving that horror with me. Unbelievably he still practicing a 70 year-old man and I can't help but think how many children did he do that same thing too? I wish I would've had the courage to report him, but I was too ashamed the nightmares still come to me, and I will never forget the look on his face as he watched me with that disgusting smirk on his face!!