you had a good answer but it shold have went to the list goes on jo
I'm sorry 'I'm not sure how a mother can hurt her child we should protect and love and love should not hurt MY husband also lived with a beast when he was little everyone around him knew what was going on and they all kept quiet.When he was 4 his step/dad burned his little hands on the stove (he was eating a tomato) in the middle of the night. MOM let this happen a did nothing to help him.Now he can't even look at a tomato. He could not even get out of bed not even to go to the bathroom so he would go to the bathroom in the bed , his mother then would make them lie face down in the wet bed till morning (she would tie him to the bed) . So many beating he can't count One day he came home from school a found her passed out with no clothes on, he thought she was dead and called the police. After they left she beat him.Just like you he could not count on any one . I'm going on and on this is not my story it is yours I think you should talk to your mother let her know how you fill. My husbands mother passed a way years ago and the only thing he is sad about is that he did not ask the question WHY. He still wakes up at night yelling (I fill so sorry for him )no one should be able to treat children like this but people get away with it every day.Be strong I know you are you have to be. Tell her how she hurt you and tell your ( family )how they hurt you and how they let you down .Good Luck :) Be STRONG
Sorry, I should have been more specific, I was referring to my original post, which was filled with typos, double words and not making any sense. I was not judging you.
Ally, your right. The day i turned 18 i was outta there and had put it all out of my head. None of what happened really bothers me but it has played a role in my development. I got into alot fights because i acted the same way, when other guys disrespect me i would immediatly get physical. I still do sometimes but since i know why im getting better at controlling it. My problem is letting all this anger, rage, disgust and mistrust go as it drives me crazy and has ruined plenty of my relationships with girls and women.
i guess you have figured out by my posts that i never have typed before 2 years ago when i started using the computer, i see lots of my mistakes i can spell but my finger hits the wrong key anyway alleymarbles has a good ans Fly away and time will heal luck jo never feel bad about posting
Just get up and leave. Children can't defend themselves from such abuse, but you are 23. Leave. Forget obligation, forget guilt, Go. When you are gone long enough you will even dismiss the beatings, because they will have been of the past, and not of your new life. Fly away like a bird.
First let me thank you for reading that novel. Seeing all those grammer mistakes i believe typing late is as good as dialing drunk. I felt weird after i posted it and actually tried to find the delete button, ha. Thankfully there is no such thing. I woke up feeling naked but also, not to be cliche, but also weight off my shoulders. I red your posts and i like and appreciate all the ideas and opinions you have. Especially about dusting it off and getting on.. G-D willing i can have the strength to beat this anger, disgust and guilt. Thanks again for the help.
I know that many people will not agree with my comments about not forgiving, but that is your decision to make and this is just my own personal opinion and not a proffesional one jo
First let me say that i am sorry that you have had to live such a life, no one should have to put up with this, but you have, and now you are 23, do not feel bad about hating your mother was sick, but i do not ecuse her for what she has done, anyone should no better than to treat a child this way, as far as not being able to stand the rest who did not help tell them how you feel,, do not ask why just tell them they have no excuse, and they will have to live with their miseable selves, when and if you get ready to forgive you can, as far as your mom there should be no guilt, it was her fault not yours, and i think that you should stand up and get it off of your mind, i think that geting it out of your systym will help also you may need counseling, but just thank God you do not have to live with this bunch of warprd people you are ready to start on the brink of life, and if there is anyway that you can see to put this behind you go for ir, you have a whole new world out there, and leave this muserable past behind, as you are not to blame, and let no one tell you that you are you are the victim. they are the abusers plese do not let them win show them that you are strong enough to overcome this and they did nor win never never feel guilty, also it would seem that this is thew way mom got her kicks tell her, but do not take anything from her you are now your own boss