Will the tears ever stop?

[yucky11]

Hi everyone..  I'm not sure but maybe 4-5 days clean now.  Still not sleeping well even with one xanax.  Manage to get up and do that hygiene thing and go to work like I have no cares in the world.  Crazy!  Came home today and the smaller dog had wasted the house and I thought maybe that warranted the death penalty.  But not to worry, she is alive and I presume will stay that way.  I have no physical strength at all and well the household hygiene is not being done.  The physical pain is getting just a tiny bit better.  Also I feel like I should now perhaps join another forum.  The one for anorexia.  Just kidding right now..  But I am not eating. The smell, taste and look of food repulse me greatly.  Any suggestions for that one?  Also, the forum for depression might have another member as well.  I cry everyday and feel totally hopeless. This 2 will also pass.  I keep fighting and struggling as I hope all of you do as well.  It is amazing that people tell me over and over that getting straight is good, but it is so hard to fight. Also, I have no desire for meds at the moment and just say over and over "Do U want to ever do this again" The Answer is "NO"!

[stubby226]

how are you doing?  I JUST POSTED IN MY JOURNAL THE WORDS TO A SONG i REALY CONNECTED WITH.i HOPE YOU MAY FIND IT COMFORTING.  oops i kept cap on.  sorry abouut that.  hang in there.

[stubby226]

Tears help wash away my sorrow, regrets, and pain.  I have found that by holding onto my teddy bear or monkey and allow myself to cry I actually felt better.  August was 22 years sober for me.  I spent one day earlier this week crying.  I have learned several things that helped me thru the rough times. I will share just a couple hoping they will help. The first one is, I would tell myself things will be different tomorrow.  I hated people telling me things would get better.  I found freq things appearred worse before I would feel better.  By telling myself tomorrow would be different I made it easier for me to accept whatever the day held for me. Another thing I did was make a list of items I would enjoy or wanted to to.  When feeling emotionally fragil I would look at that list and pick just one item to do.  (I made the list as when emotionally drained I hard a hard time thinking of anything.)  On my list I would put things like take a walk, hot bath, clean closet, write a poem or short stort, write a real letter to someone, GO TO MEETING, pray, read positive book, etc.  I hope things will improve and that as each day not only is different they will be more positive.  stubby226

[NautyOne]

Yes, it will pass.  Just remember, when we do things and have things in life that bring us happiness and it ends abruptly......We Miss It.  Even the things like dope that bring us a false happiness.  If you stay clean.  I promise you, it will pass.  With pills they are so easy and quick.  We live in a society of Instant Gratification and pills are certainly that.

Stay strong.  Your just missing one of your friends.  You know what I mean?

luv,
Nauty............

[yucky11]

Ty so much for the words of encouragement.  Finally a week off of vics and do feel better today.  I have not cried today, but it is still early.  More energy today and where that comes from only God knows.  Going to store to get a little food and try to eat again.  I find I handle Slim Fast well but only drink a can or so a day.  But this 2 will pass.  Good luck and Fight the hard battle Totsie59.  Yucky11

[Totsie59]

This will pass...the tears, the pain, the not wanting to eat...not taking care of yourself and house..this is all a part of the process...called getting clean...the wds are horrible...just take it one day at a time...you will come out of the fog...I KNOW it feels hopeless right now...I promise it does get better with each day. This is not just a fight...its a war...but we can win..

We didnt become a addict in a day...and we cant get clean in a day....give yourself plenty of time...try to pamper yourself with long hot baths with bath salts...please try to eat good foods...take vitamins...drink lots of water or green tea...You HAVE to take care of yourself...

The tears will stop...the sadness will go away...life it good clean...