Mine did the same thing. I could call anytime and get what I wanted
My doctor told me to go in the streets and buy more drugs. I almost died. The next doctor just handed me subutex and said go home and good luck. There are no good doctors concerning addiction in this mountain area. I really relate to taking recovery into my own hands. I deal with this by remembering that greedy and addicted doctors are as sick as I was. I don't have to like it, but I have to accept it, for me. Every time I get frustrated with something or someone I can't change, I just hope they heal the way I am healing. It helps for now. There are a lot of sick people in the world and they are living in the same level of insanity that I was. I believe in justice and all will reach a point that they must choose life or death. Time will tell.
It wasn't your Dr's fault you took the pills was it? Wouldn't you have gotten them somewhere else, or used something else if he wasn't available?
My Dr. would give me anything I asked him for and in just about any amount. I thought he was great! He died on the operating table during a procedure that was supposed to be little or no risk, he self medicated prior to the surgeryand no body knew.........
Anger can make you relapse.
Take care of you right now. That is a big job just by it's self and in many cases more all we can handle.
I wish you well, Keep your Guard up!
Alot of times you can post your comments on a site about a doctor, check it out, It helped me a little to give my opinion about my hack doctor, it also felt good to know that others were posting about this hack. You would not get into any trouble complaining about him though, so if you do, don't worry about it. t would be good of you to do so, if you feel like it. I wish more people would think about the next addict and try to rat out on their dealers. I don't think there would be any repercussions, so don't worry about that. I agree with the others, don't let this stage of recovery consume you too much, you have good reason to be angry, but, there are better days ahead, prayers that you get there quickly and can enjoy your freedom from drug abuse asap. Best wishes, and God Bless. Are you using the 12 step program of NA? What stage are you on? Soon , if not now, you will be 12 stepping. I look forward to it.
yes, karma will get him, for sure, I felt the same way, but I had to let it go, put it in God's hands and move on.
Hugs,
Lily
Thank you, you both are right! I need to try and let go of this anger. It's not doing me any good. But it is so hard! I do believe karma will get him. He is destroying so many lives. Ugh! Deep sigh....
probably won't do any good to turn him in and just create drama for you that you certainly don't need right now. You are correct when you say you are at the anger stage. I am still angry, but I am moving forward, living on the moment, planning for the future and not looking back. It has helped me to think in this way. TO be angry does us no good and only makes us harbor negativity.
Karma will bite him.her on the @$$ eventually, so leave it up to God, or the universe, and concentrate on being well and happy, that would be my advise to you.
Congrats on your recovery!
Hugs,
Lily
It's certainly not right...but the accountability lies with the person abusing the meds, not the suppliers...whether it's a doctor in a lab coat, or a dealer on the street corner.