for all the read my post yesterday about my 8 year old cousins death here is a update

[plymouthgirl]

They ruled today that Robert my 8 year old cousins death a murder.They pulled him from a canal 2 days ago. They finished the autopy and he did not drown. They said he was murdered. They also said that there was no kiddnapping involed.I know in my heart who did it, so does my family. Lets hope the police who would not protect him when he was alive will do him justice now and put that person in prison forever or the death sentence will do just fine in my book.I hope I don't offend anybody about the death sentence comment,but he was like my own son. I am trying to hold it together and not take the pain pills I want so bad right now.It would be so easy to take one and forget about it for a while.I know it would not do no good,but damn it is so hard right now.I just want to stop crying for awhile but I can't seem to stop.I have a whole bottle of norco in the safe it would be so easy to take a couple. I know I have to stay strong for Robert now.I and my family is his voice now to let everyone know what happened to him.I hope the police and child welfare feels like we do now.They knew  what he went through and they keep giving him back.damn do I want a pain pill.God give me the strengh to not open that safe. Plymouthgirl

[freebird227]

You and yours are in my prayers, I shall light a white candle in honor of Robert's life here and for justice to be served up with a BIG BELT.
  Be still and listen,
I have a journal entry.. " yesterday I Cried" by; Iyanla Vanzant...and some others you may find conforting.
My heart breaks for your tragic lost, and yet my belief is that Robert is now in the presence of God and he shall suffer no more. Blessed Be....Debra

[Cherie762]

we all feel for you, pray pray hard and flush those pills.

[PfizerFighter]

At the risk of receiving backlash over this, I am gonna suggest you go ahead and take when you feel is necessary and sufficient. However, this is WHY I am recommending this, you might consider it, then decide, nah, I can handle this on my own, thanks for your concern/suggesstions. I hope this does not come off as ignorant, of course I always want to help.

[jimi1822]

So let it be in GOD's own might. We gird us for the coming fight, And, Strong in Him whose causes are ours in conflict with unholy powers, we grasp the weapons He has given---The light.... Truth, and Love of heaven," and yes plymouthgirl GOD is the judge!!!!  


                                                          ~ John Geenleaf Whittler, American Quaker poet,
                                                                                           (1807 - 1892)

[dominosarah]

I agree the pills need to be flushed too......PG do you have anyone that can do that for you??  I didnt want you getting with 2 miles of that safe the last couple nights.  Hope work went well and i will be on again tonight.....Stay strong today and keep your head up girl.........sara

[whitie]

I am with  wildwoodone on this, since you are craving them for obvious reasons, would not it be best to ditch the pills?  they will continue to call you like" sirens from the island !!!!!"

[wildwoodone]

plymouth girl, since you are going through a terrible time and have so many emotions to deal with, have you thought about flushing the pills so you won't be tempted.  I know if they were there they would be on my mind constantly.  Just a thought and my prayers go out to you and your family.

[plymouthgirl]

we  can shop together.LOL

[dominosarah]

Im just waiting to go grocery shopping and getting that big 5% discount!!!!!  LOL

[plymouthgirl]

LOL I'm just  waiting so I can collect my SSI.

[dominosarah]

Im less than 2 years away from AARP and i can give you a good run for your money too........I think!!!!  LOL

[plymouthgirl]

I  might be almost 40 but I can keep up with all you young ones! LOL

[dominosarah]

40 is still young to this old girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[plymouthgirl]

The police have not said much. all that has been said is that there investagating. They did say that they know he was not kiddnapped.So what does that tell everyone? Hummm lets think about that one.Plymouthgirl

[mo2000]

Oops... sorry for calling you young when you are a wise mature woman!! It doesn't make a difference whether he was your cousin, nephew, brother, uncle etc, the only thing that matters is that you loved him so very much, and he was viciously taken from you and your family :(

Please stay strong for Robert, it is something that you can do for his memory and spirit that will mean SO much.  He is sitting in Jesus' lap looking down at you, and he just wants you and your whole family to be happy and healthy. If you could hear him, he would be telling you not to cry, that his days are so happy now. That little boy doesn't have to go through any more of the terrible pain he has had to endure in his short life.  Do the best you can to use this tragedy to make your recovery stronger instead of letting it tear you down.  Don't let whoever killed your beautiful baby cousin kill you as well.  Fulfill that wish for Robert, stay strong lady!! I know you can do this!  I will be praying for all of you!

[dominosarah]

Like i said last night, you and your family didnt fail him....the system did.  I hope some of the CPS workers will be held accountable for this.  Its time for the court system to start cracking down on this organization.  Have the police said how close they are to an arrest?

[plymouthgirl]

Can't say much more the police is still investagating I might of said to much already.I hope not for who did this needs to be punished to the ful exsint of the law. Boy, I can't spell for anything.

[plymouthgirl]

Hey Hun, I am almost 40. My uncle married Roberts mom when she was pregent with him.My uncle rised him for 6 years. He would have divorced Roberts mom years before but stayed and tried to protect him.He did everything in his power to stop the beatings my cousin with through.So did the rest of the family. My uncle called the police and child welfare so many time it is inpossiable to count.But they kept giving him back. When they divorced my uncle tried to get custody of him but lost for he was not blood related although he rised him  from birth.My uncle went so far while being married to her that when he went to work he dropped the child at my house or other family members homes.Where he was loved and not hurt.I can remeber dipering his little butt to putting a band-aid on a scrap.I always could kiss it better after the band-aid.He would tell me Auntie now it don't hurt anymore.I always thought of him has a nepew and son.although we were only 1st cousins by marrige. The last time I saw him he through his arms around my neck and would not let go.I should not have let go and picked him up and ran.Plymouthgirl

[plymouthgirl]

Thank you for the words. I will not go to the safe!!! I could not save Robert then but I will be his voice now.Plymouthgirl

[mo2000]

I'm so sorry about what you are going through :( !  It's absolutely terrible when people hurt children, and regardless of whether our criminal justice system does it's job (which i SURE hope it does!) the person responsible for this WILL have to face the ultimate judge in the end... God! God doesn't look kindly on those who hurt his most precious gift. More importantly, you can't lie to God, he knows EVERYTHING.

I am just curious, because I know you have been having a rough time with the pills and I'm sure this is a REAL test for you.  If he is your cousin, that means you are also very young??? I sure hope that you are able to get off these things, especially if you are only a teenager or very young! (I'm just guessing this since, correct me if I'm wrong, doing the math, your cousin was only 8) You have to stay strong here, resist this urge, and keep reminding yourself that the pill will only do HARM to you and your family, especially your father! Your father has just lost a child, do you want him to lose another?  That will happen one way or another if you continue with these pills. If you take a pill under these conditions, it will surely swirl into uncontrollable addiction unlike none you have ever experienced.  This will happen because no matter how many pills you take, the pain of this tragic loss will STILL be there.  You could take 1000000 pills, this is one of those things that even OPIATES can't block out.  It will result in you taking more and more and more, to achieve the unachievable.

I am so sorry you are going through this, and if you don't resist this urge for yourself, resist it for your father.  He doesn't need any more heartbreak, and neither does the rest of your family.  My prayers will be with all of you, know you have friends here who care about you and want to see you succeed, just as much as I want to succeed myself.

Robert was not given a chance at his life, so give him yours.  Replace that devil on your shoulder with Robert's spirit.  Maybe this can be your saving grace, do it for yourself, do it for your father, and do it for Robert!

R.I.P Robert... a life lost to young

[dominosarah]

Stay away from that safe.....those pills are not the answer.  They WILL NOT take your pain away.....they will add to it.  We dont run and hide behind those pills anymore.  We face our heartaches head on.....You have to keep it together now more than ever.  You want to have a clear head for you and Robert and your family.  Justice will be served on this monster....You want to be clear headed for the upcoming events that your family will have to endure.  Be a clean and healthy spokesperson for the children who have been silenced by abuse......You have it in you PG......dig deep and keep fighting.    sara