James,poem

[stilltrying1965]

You made me beleive that you were the cure for every kind of pain, i had you wrapped around me while i let you take control of my veins. at this point in time i didint know who or what you turned me into but you made it inpposible to get through days without you. you had control of my body now and if i didint choose you you made me so feel sick not knowing what to do. by now i started doing things i swore i would never do, lieing and stealing of ppl who ment nothing to you. you had me convinced that through out my life you were determind to stay that i didint have that option of turning and walking away before you know it everyone i loved seen the side of me that was hurting. them inside every time they questioned. i did what you tought me to do lie. i wanted to let you go and get you out my way so scared to tell someone. imagening what they would say.dont want to be judged it was a desision i would have to make, but iv wasted so much time its a little to late.put in jail i knew it would come down to. but it mademefree of releif knowing i could not get you,it was a struggle but a worth while fight,because now im in control and you are out my life.being sober turned me into the person i wanted to be and that was the one day you were praying i would never see.now im doing the good things i never imagened myself to do and proudly i can say im doing them without you ,,,,,,JAMES

[vicki595]

Okay James...I think you need to get all your poems together and publish them!!!

Love you,Handsome~