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Step Two
After admitting the powerlessness over our addictions and the unmanageability it has brought into our lives, now what do we do? How do we get turned around and pointed in the right direction? That brings us to step two.
"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."
Taken from The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions pg 25
Before I got into a recovery program I never believed in God. I was raised going to sunday school and got confirmed and all but that was basically going through the motions so I wouldn't get in trouble from my parents. In general I wasn't one to give it the God I will never drink again speach when puking my guts out or dealing with the room spinning with the killer headache. A Power greater than myself was just not something I turned to in times of trouble or need. I could always see my way through it. Well, my addiction had other plans. My addiction brought me to my knees. One night I had this hallucination that I thought was real and it scared me like I had never been scared before. That was the night I cried out "God please help me" and I really meant it. I had left my house and drove down to my parents. It was real early in the morning when I got there. Nobody was awake. I had calmed down a bit and dozed off on the couch. When I woke up my parents asked me what was going on. I just started spilling my guts and filled them in on all the boozing and drugging that I was doing and that I scared myself pretty good the night before. Later that day a friend of theirs who was in recovery stopped by and we talked. He asked if I was willing to go to a mtg and I said yes. We stopped and picked up another guy and the three of us went to my first mtg. After a pretty good nudge in the ribs I raised my hand and said I was an alcoholic and that I was new. They all welcomed me. I was in a pretty thick fog and didn't understand a lot of what happened but what I saw really struck me. There were people there that were just like me and they were clean, sober, happy and peaceful. Something clicked in my head and I knew this was the help I had asked for.
This had been my first taste of asking for help from a Power greater than myself and receiving the help I so desperately needed. This planted a seed of faith which when nurished has grown beyond my expectations. One day I asked my sponsor about what a Power great than myself is. He told me "the only thing you need to know about a Higher Power is that it's not you." I laughed because he was right. I'm still not a religious person, however I do believe there is a Power out there that grants me sobriety, peace and happiness one day at a time so long as I follow the suggestions He has laid out before me. Thanks for letting me share.
"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."
Taken from The Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions pg 25
Before I got into a recovery program I never believed in God. I was raised going to sunday school and got confirmed and all but that was basically going through the motions so I wouldn't get in trouble from my parents. In general I wasn't one to give it the God I will never drink again speach when puking my guts out or dealing with the room spinning with the killer headache. A Power greater than myself was just not something I turned to in times of trouble or need. I could always see my way through it. Well, my addiction had other plans. My addiction brought me to my knees. One night I had this hallucination that I thought was real and it scared me like I had never been scared before. That was the night I cried out "God please help me" and I really meant it. I had left my house and drove down to my parents. It was real early in the morning when I got there. Nobody was awake. I had calmed down a bit and dozed off on the couch. When I woke up my parents asked me what was going on. I just started spilling my guts and filled them in on all the boozing and drugging that I was doing and that I scared myself pretty good the night before. Later that day a friend of theirs who was in recovery stopped by and we talked. He asked if I was willing to go to a mtg and I said yes. We stopped and picked up another guy and the three of us went to my first mtg. After a pretty good nudge in the ribs I raised my hand and said I was an alcoholic and that I was new. They all welcomed me. I was in a pretty thick fog and didn't understand a lot of what happened but what I saw really struck me. There were people there that were just like me and they were clean, sober, happy and peaceful. Something clicked in my head and I knew this was the help I had asked for.
This had been my first taste of asking for help from a Power greater than myself and receiving the help I so desperately needed. This planted a seed of faith which when nurished has grown beyond my expectations. One day I asked my sponsor about what a Power great than myself is. He told me "the only thing you need to know about a Higher Power is that it's not you." I laughed because he was right. I'm still not a religious person, however I do believe there is a Power out there that grants me sobriety, peace and happiness one day at a time so long as I follow the suggestions He has laid out before me. Thanks for letting me share.
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Word. God is such a big word and means so much for so many. Three little words. I do have to say that the best I ever did and will do will be with the help of God or higher power. Its all the same in my book. Is it me or when I went to my first mtg is was shaken like a leaf. For no reason. It felt like walked into a room of angels for real! When I relapsed I did NOT want to answer to my angels. They were just as welcome this time. They dont care. They are there for you always and its just such an awesome feeling. We are never alone even when It REALLY seems like we are. I look forward to being around such good people.
Great post Punkinhead. You have a good way of putting things on your posts and they are very helpful to me as I am sure they are to lots of people here. I still come here to learn as well as try to help people. You do alot of helping.. Thanks, Andrew
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So what is your purpose for being here then? This forum is for those who want to get off drugs and stay clean. This isnt a social gathering. This is about life and death. I hope you will open up those eyes of yours and really think about where you are headed cuz it isnt a pretty place.
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No one is jealous of you Claudia, trust me. If you truely want support you are more than welcome here. What is not welcome is the bragging about your intake and being "blissfully" pain free. Many of us came close to dying. This is not a joke to us. You may think you are in control but your actions here speak otherwise........sara
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