Out of Pills... and TERRIFIED

[sammie02]

Well, I finished the script I picked up on 9/22 last night... all 120 pills. Gone. Now I am realizing that it is going to be a whole 3 days without my evil little friends... and I am beginning to panic. Anxiety is setting in. My head is spinning, and I want to cry. What am I going to do for 3 days without pills? I know that the Benadryl, sleepytime tea, and Kava will only go so far... God, I am scared...what do I do?  I NEED my tramadol....              Please help...

[callalily]

Oh sweetie, I wouldn't just stop.  You've been on such a large amount for so long.  Talk to your doctor and let him know you want off. I'm sure he'll help you slowly decrease to where you won't go through such violent withdrawal.  Don't get me wrong, there will be withdrawal but with the help of your doc it could lessen the symptoms.  It's not easy, I went through the cold sweats, the muscle spasms, lack of sleep and then the depression but as we all have, you can make it through this. Just remember it really is only temporary, not easy, but only temporary.  You're in my prayers.  Just keep posting this is a great support group.

[trying23]

I was reading your posts, And started crying.... I know the feelings that go  dancing in your head, and wow, you are a strong lady for sure!!  As my day to refill comes closer and closer I secretly imagine myself bouncing on up to the pharmacy, with that guilty excitment (everybody knows what im talking about, trying to keep your cool, acting like you are not in dire straights waiting for them to staple that d**n bag closed, anxiously waiting to get to the car so you can hurry and bust down four or five of em.  Sometimes Id even sit in the parking lot till they kicked in) I avoid pharmacies now even, cause it brings back cravings sometimes just driving by.  Thank you for doing what your doing and being so strong.  You give me confidence that I was lacking.  Soon I will be posting that today was the day I was to get my refill, and just let it sit!!!!  Thank you for sharing, please know that you have helped me.  And that I am so proud of you.  And you are a beautiful inspiration to everybody.  Good Luck to you sweet pea, you deserve it!!!!

XOXO Trying

[SICKANDTIREDOFBEINSICKANDTIRED]

I have read your posts and am extremely proud of you!  You are indeed a HUGE inspiration to me!  Thank you so much! I will be praying for you to continue on and getting better and better everyday.  I'm SO encouraged by the other posts as well.  Today is (as sammie02 has said) D Day2 for me and I'm not feelin too hot.  My tummy hurts, I only slept one hour last nite and I'm kinda dizzy.  I hate feelin like this!  Neway- stay strong sammie02!

[leeisgettingclean]

WOW woman you are strong...very much so..cancelled meds, going to work, helping others....you are doing it! Keep it up and in a few days you are actully going to be well over the hump.keep going!

[flmagi]

Wow! You did really great and were sooo strong to cancel that script! Keep going and keep posting. Some times the weekend is a little slow but there's usually someone around. Now I hate to say this but you really need to know.....Once you get passed the physical withdrawals, then comes the hard part....the mental stuff. BE PREPARED !!!!! Your mind is gonna start playing tricks on you to get you to use again. It will say things like, "Oh, just a few, I won't get like I was before", "Fill the script, just in case", or "Oh I'm having such a bad day, I need them".
Don't fall for the tricks. The really hard part is coming, when your mind battles itself.
Stay strong and post, post, post.
Congrats to you!!!!

[sammie02]

Well, here it is... Friday. Went to the pharmacy yesterday after work, and only picked up my Seasonique... left without asking for my tramadol refill to be reinstated. I do have to say that I am pretty darn proud of myself! Had a little bit of a rough night last night, but took some Tylenol Simply Sleep, and was able to get a little more rest than I have gotten for the past few nights. Feeling better this morning, too. Just a little nauseous, and a little creepy crawly skin (which is the WORST!), but that's about it. My mind feels kinda cloudy, but being here at work kinda helps with that. At least I am busy all day! :)

Just wanted to say thank you all again, Ga Guy, troubleinohio, Mikeinthesouth, NautyOne, Beargizmo, leeisgettingclean, izzy_b, avisg, NorcoQueen, and flmagi. You all have been a great inspiration to me... And hopefully by posting to others, letting them know that they are not alone, I can follow in you footsteps and help others as well!

Thank you... from the bottom of my heart.