I loved my relationship with my Father and Brother..............I hate this isolation
I miss being around people sober and not having to sneak away or wait till no ones looking to pull a little pill out of my pocket . I miss my natural ability to have ambition and be self motivated. I miss fishing with my little brother. I miss not worrying about when I was gonna run out of pills or seeing my phone bill going over limit with text messages trying to find pills. Sorry to write so much i coulda just said i missed real life.
okay...but what's on third.
NO I THINK WHOS ON SECOND!!
who's on first? lol...i get it now...
U didn't get my joke I am sure you know who I am as wev'e talked a bit. Hijack.. Get it??LOL That was my small attempt at humor today. Oh geeze I give up!!!!! LOL
are you serious????????
That was a play on words....!!! I thought you would get it...it's me Newgirl...Helloo????
I know who you are...go back to the top of the post...you guys were acting like you couldn't remember anything...geeeezzz...Jacks 3rd post down...
Jack even p.m.d me to introduce himself..(*thanks jack ;) anyhow...geeez o'pete!
Try to make a joke....
mike down in the south of the u.s and jack you did not say hello to Jack. Hijack......
I miss being able to go somewhere or do anything w/o wondering if I have enough pills to get through. I want my old self back! I feel her coming back even as I taper. I would also like to remember stuff again! I used to have the best memory in the world....now? Not so much!
I miss just being happy really happy, not happy cause I took a couple of pills, and I have well 2 things that I absolutely hate Laundry and bills! Hope everyone is well!
who's jack? ;)
Hi Mike!
Mike who?
I AM VERY NEW..JUST FOUND THIS SITE A COUPLE OF HOURS AGO,, NOT VERY GOOD WITH THE COMPUTER EITHER..BUT I WOULD LIKE TO GET OF PAIN MEDS.BUT EVERY MORNING WHEN I WAKE, IFEEL HORRIBLE,,ESPECIALLY A SINCE OF DOOM, UNTIL I TAKE 2 OR 3 LORTABS...WHATS A GIRL TO DO? PLESE SOMEONE ANSWER..THANKS DEE
You'll get your freedom back too Hop. As it is, at least you don't have to carry fifty pills to make a five day run. That's progress, man!
why the hell did they move this post...doesn't make sense..i see some they leave that shouldn't be there while others get moved right away..what a trip..You will have your freedom back Mike..have you tried going to meetings etc..counseling
I am like Jack. I want my freedon back. Even though I'm taking the sub I still have to know where it is at all times. I still feel tied down to something. I have only had these feelings since yesterday and I still have them today. I am worried about that. I feel good physically but mentally I'm still having the can't go anywhere without my pills. I take other medicines everyday but don't feel that way about them. This is really bothering me. I want to be free. I want to be able to jump in a car and drive for 5 days and not have to worry if I have the sub or any pills with me.
I miss being able to travel without making sure that I have plenty of medication be I go. It used to be good just to spontaneously take a trip. I want that freedom back. I like least simply becoming disinterested in others, and the anti-social attitude that follows. I miss being able to perform complex problems, in a timely manner. I hate having to keep notes to remind myself of things that I should remember easily. Like birthdays, anniversaries and such. Now, what was that I was saying?
I least liked the feeling of being alone, lying to my family about different things and walking with black clouds over my shadow..........................................................
i now enjoy walking with the sun on my back and enjoy having back some things i lost, including myself!!!!
i miss, the way i loved had to get that first fresh cup of coffee the second i woke, i also miss hating and cup of coffee over two hrs old, thats the worst. see i got into the habit of making the coffee, then crushin a couple up, snorting a couple, usually pass back out and when i wake in a couple hrs, hense missing that first fresh cup.
I hope this isn't to cheezy. LOL