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[dede2121]

last night i had to put my english bulldog to sleep. he had been sick for about 3 weeks, not eating or drinking. they did an xray and he had a large tumor in his abdomen. that was THE HARDEST thing i have ever done. i had him for 9 years and loved him dearly.
but the good news is that i didnt go out and find a pill.
i am doing pretty good this time and starting to feel better. so i made it thru that without anything and if i made it thru last night i think i can do this.

i will miss my baby Noah. he is now in heaven because we all know that ALL DOGS GO TO HEAVEN. they do nothing but love you.

[Samber]

Wow, so sweet of you,

I know your dog loves you so much. 9 years having him was not easy to let go if he has gone that way.

What do you think?... Seeing your dog died like that or seeing your dog died because someone intentionally killed him?

My dog was killed.

[ImDONENoMore]

Hi dede,

Just wanted to say Hi and see how you were holding up.  Please know I'm thinking of you today.  :)

[ImDONENoMore]

Oh my, I remember the day we lost my baby - and I was in the room with him too when he left this world and it was awful.  But you know what?  You were there WITH him and that was the most important thing you could do it really was.  The only thing I can say is try with all of your heart to only think of the happy times with him and remember how much joy he brought to you and how much joy and love you brought to him.  I know that seems impossible now, but please dede, try.  It took a long time for me to not think about that moment and to only remember the good times with my baby.  And it will take time for you too.  And as hard as this is, I think you will feel better if you bring him home.  I know I did.  I had to have him with me in my home.  And I think you do too.

I wish there was something more I could say to help ease this pain, so please just know you're in my heart and my prayers tonight.  And I will say a prayer for Noah and for Max tonight.  They will always be with us dede because they are in our hearts.  That will never change.  Please just go slow tonight and call someone, maybe your ex, if you need to.  Reach out to someone close to you if possible.  And cry if you need to because it will help, it's healthy and it's a release.  

Please just go slow tonight and rest if you can.  I'll be thinking about you.

[dede2121]

i am still struggling today with the loss of Noah.
the vet and my ex talked me into staying in the room when he was put to sleep. i wished i had not of done that. they told me he just goes to sleep but after they administered the medicine he jerked twice and i screamed at the vet saying he was hurting my dog. i will never get that image out of my head. this is too sad for me too handle.
they told me it would be 2 weeks for him to be cremated. well they called yesterday and said he was back and ready to be picked up. not sure i am ready to do that but i need to go get him and bring him home.

[ImDONENoMore]

You don't have to move his bed now.  In fact, you can take all the time you need to do that kind of stuff.  Don't rush this dede - I know how hard this is.  We lost our dog (actually in my eyes, he was our "son") Max years ago and I still have a special place where I keep his bed, and his toys.  And it will stay there too.  Just take all the time you need and go slow and allow yourself to mourn this loss.  I'll be keeping you in my prayers.

[dede2121]

thanks guys.  i am still so sad today. i dont even have the heart to move his bed. it is still in the same place.

[ImDONENoMore]

I'm sorry.

[dominosarah]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss.  I know how hard that is as i had to put down my best friend in the whole wide world a month and a half ago.  The beagle was 13 and had cancer.  There will be a void in your life for awhile.  Let yourself feel your emotions~~~sara

[Tired_of_this]

I am sooo sorry to hear about your loss. I'm a big time animal lover. It is truley like losing a family member. It's awesome that you stayed strong. I hope I have that much will power. I am just starting out.

[eyeofhorus2010]

Awww Dede, that's so sad.  I love english bulldogs and they're just one of the coolest dogs ever. I hope you'll be okay.
Bob,

[sudie58]

i am so very sorry for the loss of your dog. bless you, i lost my collie last year and it broke my heart. they show us so much love! i totally agree, all dogs go to heaven!
YOU HAVE DONE SO WELL, you didnt take anything, im glad you are starting to feel physically better, look after yourself, god bless you .  sudie