What has your addiction cost you? Job? Family?

[Brokenbutglued]

Just what the title says, What has your addiction cost you? Have you lost your job? Family? Home? Through your loss, what good have you made of the situation? Did you and your family get closer? Did you find a better job? Did you discover new things to bring you happiness?

[Greatgreebo]

no sleep stinks. don't get too wrapped up in it though.... find something constructive to do with your time rather than having a pity party because it's late and it totally suxs to be up all night! I've been there-trust me.
Get a good book. Maybe learn to knit. If sitting still isn't your thing then get up and do the dishes or clean the bathroom or something. I try to be productive when sweet slumber refuses to enshroud me in it's purple cloak........
good luck
greebs

[violet29]

So much money its sickening (and this will take many years to recover the debts of drug use), job, friendships, health, sense of self, peace, happiness, really i could go on and on and on... benefits? can't think of any right now.

I am up and can't sleep either!! ugh...

[catmagnet]

I lost my health, my self-respect, hopefully I won't lose my husband due to all of my recent moodiness...my sanity, my ability to RELAX and SLEEP...what else am I doing up at 4 a.m.? I've been like this every night!!! =(

[Beccabeccalynn]

Omg Lad, I hear your cry I have been sitting here today missing my mistress( hey wait does that make me gay)(jk) I lost every thing important to me and when it was gone I figured f- it I have already lost everything anyway so why not. Counting up the cost of my use is impossible. I go one day at a time now ! I love being clean so much less work, I also love being able to rely on myself.
Peace
Becca

[LADNORTHERN172]

DRUGS COST ME MY FUTURE...I STARTED USING AT THE SAME TIME I SHOULDA BEEN MAKING A LIFE FOR MYSELF AND YOUNG FAMILY...INSTEAD I DISCOVERED DRUGS AS AN ESCAPE AND IT COST ME EVERYTHING..WIFE KIDS JOB HOUSE FAMILY...WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO LOSE?...OH I ALSO LOST MY SANITY...AND ON NUMEROUS OCCASIONS ALSO MY LIFE WAS IN SERIOUS JEAPORDY...AND FOR WHAT????? I STILL COULDNT SAY FOR SURE...THERE WERE ONLY BAD SIDES TO IT ALL....NO POSITIVES...NO UP SIDE.....SO I GUESS I MUSTA BEEN A BEER SHORT OF A SIX PACK OR SOMETHING....LIFES TOO SHORT FOR REGRETS..AND ITS REALLY NEVER TO LATE TO START MAKING THINGS BETTER...I JUST NEED TO GET OVER THE FRUSTRATION OF WASTING THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE ....DEDICATING THEM TO A MISTRESS WHO WAS CRUEL AND UNFORGIVING..AND NEVER LOVED ME...BUT AS CRAZY AS THAT WAS...THE CRAZIEST THING IS THERE AINT A DAY GOES BY WHEN I DONT SIT AND CONSIDER GOING BACK THERE...I JUST HOPE I NEVER ACTUALLY DO IT.

[JohnnyDanger]

I took  pills to numb the pAin.  Mostly emotional pain.  The problem was that it numbed everything emotional  including love.   Now clean, I can love again.  What a great feeling!

[NorcoQueenoftheUniverse]

Both wonderful posts...

I lost my SELF but...after being clean.. found it again... I love being clean!  (except for all the DRAMA!)

Much love and happiness

NorcoQueen and Mister Ed

[narla]

I lost me.I didn't know who I was,I was living in a fog of tangled and tragic memories.Since I've been clean I'm in counselling for a lot of different reasons,but I am finding out who I am,and who I was,and who I want to be.