WD are easy????

[jstntime]

NOT!!!!!

Just needed to post an update at the start of day 12.  As with most, days 3 and 4 were bad.  I got a bit of a break around the day 5 or 6 mark but night sweats and chills and leg thing back with a vengeance on day 9 or so and continue still.

I went 4 days with barely several hours sleep in no more than 10 min intervals.  I think I now know why they use sleep depravation for torture!!!

Yes it's been tough, quite frankly, the hardest ting I have ever done------bar none!!

That's the bad news, the good news is, my resolve is strong.  I understand my body's reaction to not having this drug is "normal".  I have never made it even close to this long without in almost 20 years and am going to see this through.

Who is the boss right?  I have decided to get off the ride.  Short term pain for long term gain.

Wishing you the best and thanking ALL who have helped me through this.  I could not have done this without you.

Thank-you, thank-you, thank-you,
AN EX-Oxy user!!!!!

bob

bob

[jstntime]

Thanks guys,

Glad to see you are sounding MUCH better Cassie.  

Congrats to you to Cassie on your impending day 12.  I think we may both have had a few "moments" where the outlook was not looking too good ha ha. It truly makes my day to hear you're getting through this still.

Yes I AM actually feeling pretty good today.  I ate like a horse yesterday and slept for 6 UNINTERUPTED hours.  Damn, did I need that!!!!

I am very happy to hear also that the physical part for you guys got better around this time because quite frankly, I'm a little sick and tired of being sick and tired!!!  I finally was able to find a few items from the Thomas recipe and the L-tyrisone (sp?) stuff had a noticeable impact on the crazy legs and night sweats and sleep.  Probably should have listened to a few of you and got that for day 1.  Always was a stubborn SOB !!!

Have a great w/k all, and thanks for the support, without which I could not have come CLOSE to getting this far.

Peace,

bob

[bmdad]

I know my doc was different in that being hydro's, but once I hit 2 weeks, I felt great and was 90% back to my old self. My sleep pattern was pretty much back to normal also and that seems to be the last symptom. Both of you just keep moving forward and never look back! Congrats!
Brian

[Cassie415]

Hey congrats on 12 days! it's funny how you said on day 6ish it got a little better but then came back a few days later. That always happens to me! On day 6 I start to think things are going to get better, and I am feeling so good and then my symptoms come back around day 8ish. Today is day 11 for me, almost day 12, and it's good to know things are getting better for you. Thank you for the help you've given me, I think after about 2ish weeks things will start to get better. That's what i've experienced the other times I have tried to stop. Congrats on 12 days!

[avisg]

You sound like you are standing strong it is very hard but being clean will be worth it and honselty its the staying clean that becomes the hard part.Have you looked into recovery care is sooo important .support groups, therapists just something to help when it gets rough.Keep it up!!!!!

[bmdad]

How are you doing tonight Bob? Hopefully it will be a restful night! Keep up the great work!

[Some_life1976]

good for you!!! its nice to hear you strong will ! you will make it keep it up

[jstntime]

Hey worried,

Started with codeine many years ago, moved to oxy 5 years ago.  Controlled chaos for first few years of oxy use but built to minimum of 400mg/day oxycontin for the last 1.5 years As my habit grew and my will power dissolved, I was no longer myself.

The only time I ever tried, it was a half hearted attempt which got me to 5 days clean.  Those 5 days were a mistake for me because they REALLY let me know what WD's were like and made me fear them even more.

I AM doing this alone, well not quite alone, I have these wonderful people here who have encouraged, motivated and most importantly, held my hand through this as I was in some of my darkest hours.

I may consider aftercare when the physical symptoms subside but truth be told, I've never wanted anything as bad as I want this and I am taking it.  I have not had depression, as a matter of fact, quite the opposite, I'm feeling empowered and feel like my future has never been more positive.  If anything, going through this has been an anti-depressant for me.

I know that it's probably 1000 to 1 odds that I can "control" this, but I am determined to be that ONE.

Yes I'm a DUDE ha ha

bob

[worried878]

20 yrs is a long time...for some reason i am sensing u r ale but could be wrong...was gonna say dude and thought twice cos u may be a girl?

who cares...addiction f-ing sux...and unlike some illnesses it never goes away///like the plague or sumpin...and u r right...99% of this is upstairs...I am not sure of ur DOC nor ur daily dose..but i would think now u r in the mental aftermath...and it almost took me down...this part of wd can linger...and it is/or was the hardest part for me...i can feel sick and have the runs for weeks and not cave...this mental stuff//the depression etc...is a real doomer

What r u doing different this time?  or have u tried before?  do u go to any type of aftercare?  or are u a loner as are most addicts?  most of us think we can control this...and we can not

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