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[martindl]

I am failing badly with my addiction right now I strongly believe that the only way for me getting off the drugs is to leave husband. He is making it so worse constantly telling me that I am evil, a black widow that I am fat useless, poor excuse for a house wife,he also says that is he could turn back the clock he would never have gone with me. I tried to kill myself 4 yrs ago just to get away from him and get some help I thought he would have taken me to the hospital nope he shoved bis sick in my mouth so deep that I threw up all of the sleeping pills. I wish someone would just take me away from here and help me. The worst part is that I have no money to go anywhere and if I did how would I get away he never sleeps more than 30 mind at a time. His mom died and he is getting an inheritance I do not know how much and with my luck he will keep it in his bank where I haven't access. I keep thinking of taking somewhere between 3 and 4 thousand so I would ok until I get clean and get a job I know that this is wrong but I am getting desperate. Then I look at him and feel sorry for him and I chicken out. I am not useless or any of those horrible things he says to me. I do not know what to do.

[overopiates]

kyle is absolutely right.Get out of the toxic relationship with the B A S T A R D then u can  focus on ur other unhealthy relationship with pills.This is neither fun nor easy but its definitely worth it.U will get out of TWO toxic relationships&lose a lot of dead weight.I will tell u that u need to look n2&GET AFTERCARE ASAP.U will need2have someone(s)2talk2about both of these situations.Like me&all the other posters said u have lots of options as far as"safe havens"u can get n2easily&quickly and those places have immediate resources for assisting u w/ur addiction&healthy,happy recovery while ur there.Please listen to us we only want the best for u(u deserve2b happy,healthy&confident).PLEASE KEEP POSTING!!!!

[kyle505]

It sounds like relationship with your husband is more toxic than your addiction at the moment. I agree with the above - talk to an attorney. Get yourself out of the house somehow. Once you've dealt with the relationship, then you can deal with the addiction. Good luck.

[Blackwolfsgirl]

Where do you live? There.are.safe houses all over the place. Message me and I will give you the info. I dont want to make the info public in case he checks here. You need to leave him, then worry about a lawyer and getting half.

[samari]

Wow, crazy, well like all the others said talk to a lawyer, do u guys have kids together? Irregardless get out, do u have family that would help u? Use all ur resources, f***  him! Take care of you!.

[overopiates]

sry spelling errors.take ur necccesities,money,go2the lawyer etc.

[overopiates]

I wouldnt feel bad AT ALL for taking the money.He is very abusive2u&u know it will only get worse.U need2get the money1st.Take ir clprhs etc.the neccesary items.Make calls2detox centers i dnt have a job.u can get help4free&u could easily go to an abuse shelter.they can get u m2a safe detox place/rwhab4free.Dnt say a word about the money&1st go c a lawyer.U have a lof of options.I know a lot about  this from family n these situations.We can private message im more than happy2help.
Sabrina

[Pat1956100]

Google "Ask a Canadian Lawyer"  or Free legal advice Edmonton Alberta.
There are several that may give you good advice over the phone or online and it's free.  The main thing you want to find out is what you are entitled to financially so try and find out how much your husband is making.

[Pat1956100]

You need to get advice from a lawyer and fast.  Check online for the free advice lawyers in your area.  Find out what would you would be entitled to from your husband if you left him.  Then contact a women's shelter in your area and they will help you until you get your head together.
You would probably be better off financially if you left him because he may have to pay you since you haven't been working.  Find all this out and then run as fast as you can away from him.