107 days coean

[bama88]

Here I am. Over three months almost four months clean. I'm so proud of myself. Very proud. I've never imagined I would get here or feel this way. I am not the same person anymore. I am a better and improved bama. Lots of changes have happened. Lots.

For all the new people who are joining our family there is hope. I promise.

When I first came here I was a mess. I was a train wreck. Recovering from a knee replacement  with problems. A marriage on collapse. A family in turmoil. An addiction that was huge. I don't know how I survived taking that many pills. Some days 360mgs of oxy. Guess GOD wanted me around.

Withdrawals are a beast. But  that's really easy compared to relearning how to live your life without pills. Thats the challange. I didn't get  better over night. I'm still sick. But I'm healing.  Counseling has been a blessing. I can dump out all my frustrations there. I look forward to my hour.  Sorry if I haven't been around much. But I never forget you all.  

You can do this if you really want to

[kyle505]

Hadn't seen you on the forum for a while...was a bit concerned.
Many, many congratulations. Enjoy your clean life; be proud - you deserve it.

Kyle

[dominosarah]

Congrats bama on your clean time!!  You sound good.  Hold your clean time sacred as your life depends on it. Keep up the counseling and keep dumping!

[Bkitty]

Bama! I was just thinking about you the other day! God, we went thru so much at the same time! Congrats on 107days!!! Sometimes I myself cant believe that over 200 days has past and this is how my life is now. I swear if I was asked where I saw my life in 6 months at the beginning of detox that I prob woulda puched ya in the face. I ttoo am still healing and was recently reminded of that around my 1st year wedding anniversary. I came so close to throwing "it" all away and that scared me straight. Im only reminded that being sober and living a sober life requires work each and everyday and that has got to be the center of your being at all times. I think I had got to "comfortablle" and shifted my focus it took and shook me off guard. Luckily, I had a divine intervention that day and remain >225 days sober. Therapy and NA has been my life saver, my floatation device and my safety net as well. Now I get why aftercare and NA is "preached" around this forum. We have come so far girl! Its amazing isnt it. This new life that was waiting around the corner? It wasnt easy for either of us at all to get here,that I know. I wanted it so bad I could taste it. Congrats again!! Miss you!! ((hugs))~Bkitty

[bama88]

Gotta love my phone it spells what it wants.