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Hi all,
hope this is appropriate to post in this community.
I just got home from 4 days in Hawaii (on vacation with my dad,) where I was able to kick my heroin habit and switch to suboxone. My dad knows about my addiction but not the extent or immediacy of it; he was under the impression that I had gotten clean the previous weekend in preparation for the trip, when in reality, I was using up until a few hours before boarding the plane.
Now that I'm home, every hour feels risky. I'm short on confidence that I can maintain this sobriety, even though the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone, and it's only a commitment of willpower that I'd need. Somehow it feels too easy, and yet it's ALWAYS on my mind.
Any advice/support/distraction would be much appreciated. Ask me questions, tell me anecdotes, be my friend. Thank you.
hope this is appropriate to post in this community.
I just got home from 4 days in Hawaii (on vacation with my dad,) where I was able to kick my heroin habit and switch to suboxone. My dad knows about my addiction but not the extent or immediacy of it; he was under the impression that I had gotten clean the previous weekend in preparation for the trip, when in reality, I was using up until a few hours before boarding the plane.
Now that I'm home, every hour feels risky. I'm short on confidence that I can maintain this sobriety, even though the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone, and it's only a commitment of willpower that I'd need. Somehow it feels too easy, and yet it's ALWAYS on my mind.
Any advice/support/distraction would be much appreciated. Ask me questions, tell me anecdotes, be my friend. Thank you.
My entire family knows that was one of the first things I did was to tell them even my children! My only support besides my family is this site! The people on here have all kinds of support! I gave it all to God to help me threw this! I told my doctor and she is in total support also!
If it was not for this site and all the support I have on here I do not know if I could of made it this far! Every time I have a concern or question there is always someone on here that knows what I am going threw and has help for me! We are here for you and when you feel you can not go another step post your heart out! there is no judgement and most have gone threw what you are going threw and can help you!
The most important thing is to have a good attitude for your new life!
If it was not for this site and all the support I have on here I do not know if I could of made it this far! Every time I have a concern or question there is always someone on here that knows what I am going threw and has help for me! We are here for you and when you feel you can not go another step post your heart out! there is no judgement and most have gone threw what you are going threw and can help you!
The most important thing is to have a good attitude for your new life!
I didn't use heroin on vacation. I've been on suboxone for 4 years, except for the most recent 3 months, when my doctor disappeared because he got charged by the DEA, at which point I got scared about the finite amount of suboxone I had left and switched to heroin. Now I've switched back to suboxone, and have less than a month left.
Glad to hear you have cut your sources, that's a big step! I'm sorry you lost your BF, don't let this be a trigger, I hope you don't! I would suggest finding a new Dr to continue your Subs, it sounds like you need them right now! To keep you from relapsing back to H, if nothing else! You'll know when is time to jump, when enough's enough so to speak! How much are you taking daily at the moment, and how long you got till you run out?
I'm sorry hun, I am confused. You have been on Suboxone for 4 years but you used Heroin on vacation? Or were you back and forth all these years?
I don't know what to say about your relationship. I am sorry for you. I know how painful it is. I have been there and it stinks. Right now you need to concentrate on YOU. You have a lifetime ahead of you and you need to get your life together before thinking of a relationship.
First I think counseling would really help you. As addicts we run and hide and use drugs to cover our pain from whatever it is we are running from. Sometimes we know what it is, sometimes we don't. A proper therapist can help you get to the root of the problem and help you find ways to avoid using as a means of escape. Is this something you would be willing to do?
I don't know what to say about your relationship. I am sorry for you. I know how painful it is. I have been there and it stinks. Right now you need to concentrate on YOU. You have a lifetime ahead of you and you need to get your life together before thinking of a relationship.
First I think counseling would really help you. As addicts we run and hide and use drugs to cover our pain from whatever it is we are running from. Sometimes we know what it is, sometimes we don't. A proper therapist can help you get to the root of the problem and help you find ways to avoid using as a means of escape. Is this something you would be willing to do?
Hey welcome to the forum, there's lots of people here who will give you great advice and support so stick around. I too was addicted to Heroin, 14 years of my life was stolen because of it! I swapped to Subs, jumped 6 1/2 month back from 4mgs, so I can tell you it's doable, you just have to want it enough. Surrender yourself to it and break free, your worth the effort my friend. Don't stress it and don't give yourself an out, cut all sources and find as much support/counselling/help as you can. I wish you nothing but happiness in the future, ;)
I have cut off all my sources. Deleted them from my phone, changed my number. One of them, though, I have (accidentally) memorized, so it's really a tantalizing option to call him and relapse, and has taken every ounce of concentration and will for me not to do just that.
Over 10 years, wow. Congrats on your CT! Does your family fully accept you back, and trust you? What resources have you used for support, and why would you call this platform one of the best? Which should I seek out, and which should I avoid... & why?
Over 10 years, wow. Congrats on your CT! Does your family fully accept you back, and trust you? What resources have you used for support, and why would you call this platform one of the best? Which should I seek out, and which should I avoid... & why?
How would you suggest I go about getting off suboxone? Don't you think that trying to get off of suboxone (after years, in this case) without supervision is just as dangerous, if not more, than being on it..? What kind of aftercare options would you suggest?
. I'd like to be honest and air what my real/primary/main concern is right now: My boyfriend (of over 3 years) just dumped me, last night; he found and watched an... incriminating (to say the VERY least) DVD that I had left in my computer, on the first night of my vacation.. and yet he waited until after I got home to discuss it - calmly - FAR more calmly than I would have been able. In fact, had the roles been reversed, I would have been in a fit of rage to say the least, I'm not sure how I would have handled it. Not well, for sure. (I can't even begin to describe the DVD, for shame.)
He, however, patiently house-sat, dog-sat, and when the topic finally arose, was compassionate and thoughtful, presented it in a way that made it feel like separation was a mutual decision, outwardly expressed his concern that I may use the event as an excuse to relapse. I told him that that wouldn't happen, after all I've put him through, I wouldn't blame him for yet another of my f**k-ups... and yet...
HUGE potential trigger. Lots of pain. Can't even look at the damage without squinting my mind's eye. Need help, please.
He, however, patiently house-sat, dog-sat, and when the topic finally arose, was compassionate and thoughtful, presented it in a way that made it feel like separation was a mutual decision, outwardly expressed his concern that I may use the event as an excuse to relapse. I told him that that wouldn't happen, after all I've put him through, I wouldn't blame him for yet another of my f**k-ups... and yet...
HUGE potential trigger. Lots of pain. Can't even look at the damage without squinting my mind's eye. Need help, please.
Just wanted to welcome you!
Yes, psychologically for sure. I am so glad to hear you were going through a doctor. If you wish to continue you can find a doctor on the internet.
BUT, if you want to quit this would be a great time. And again, I strongly suggest aftercare. If you decide to go to meetings then stay away from the people who are not serious about their recovery. You know who they are. Stick with the winners.
Glad to see you came back and posted.
BUT, if you want to quit this would be a great time. And again, I strongly suggest aftercare. If you decide to go to meetings then stay away from the people who are not serious about their recovery. You know who they are. Stick with the winners.
Glad to see you came back and posted.
Welcome to the best support forum ever! Have you cut off all your sources? very, very important to cut them so you have no way to get any! I am not familiar with heroin but was addicted to Norcos and tramadols for over 10 years and CT 91 days ago! Best thing I ever did! I now have a life again and am now here for my family! I wish you the best of luck and keep a positive attitude!
Hi,
What do you mean by dangerous? Psychologically? Why do you say that it is not a pill to get you through withdrawal...?
I am still taking suboxone, and it is prescribed, although no more; I don't have any more scripts to fill, because my doctor is being charged for overprescribing by the DEA. This might be one of the factors that contributed to my relapse, as I'm very nervous and uncertain about where to go from here. I'm supposed to find a new sub doctor, but part of me wants to get off everything, for good...
I've been on suboxone for a good 4 years, had been using prior to ever knowing about subs for 3 years prior to that, and even before that, had an opiate (pill) addiction, that brought me into the rooms of AA when I was about 15. At 17, I met an IV H user, who introduced me, shot me up, and let me take it from there... I dated him for a bit under 2 years, before it finally crashed and burned. My romantic life right now is a fresh sore spot... not even sure if/how to discuss it.
What do you mean by dangerous? Psychologically? Why do you say that it is not a pill to get you through withdrawal...?
I am still taking suboxone, and it is prescribed, although no more; I don't have any more scripts to fill, because my doctor is being charged for overprescribing by the DEA. This might be one of the factors that contributed to my relapse, as I'm very nervous and uncertain about where to go from here. I'm supposed to find a new sub doctor, but part of me wants to get off everything, for good...
I've been on suboxone for a good 4 years, had been using prior to ever knowing about subs for 3 years prior to that, and even before that, had an opiate (pill) addiction, that brought me into the rooms of AA when I was about 15. At 17, I met an IV H user, who introduced me, shot me up, and let me take it from there... I dated him for a bit under 2 years, before it finally crashed and burned. My romantic life right now is a fresh sore spot... not even sure if/how to discuss it.
Hi & Welcome to the community!
Are you still taking the Suboxone? If so, was it prescribed? It can be so dangerous to take it unsupervised. It is NOT a pill to get you through withdrawal. It is used to help addicts who can't stay clean and should always be used in conjunction with counseling, meetings, etc.
It may have got you clean but it won't keep you clean. That's the hard part.
The only thing that worked for me was getting counseling and joining the fellowships of NA and AA. My DOC is Heroin and it is a bear to stay off of. Through the support I mentioned I was able to get to the root of my problems and learn new skills so I could live my life.
My heart goes out to you honey. I am glad you are here and hope you take the advise of the members here. this is a great support group and whenever some gives it advice it is from their experience.
Stick around and keep talking. Ask any questions. Good luck.
Are you still taking the Suboxone? If so, was it prescribed? It can be so dangerous to take it unsupervised. It is NOT a pill to get you through withdrawal. It is used to help addicts who can't stay clean and should always be used in conjunction with counseling, meetings, etc.
It may have got you clean but it won't keep you clean. That's the hard part.
The only thing that worked for me was getting counseling and joining the fellowships of NA and AA. My DOC is Heroin and it is a bear to stay off of. Through the support I mentioned I was able to get to the root of my problems and learn new skills so I could live my life.
My heart goes out to you honey. I am glad you are here and hope you take the advise of the members here. this is a great support group and whenever some gives it advice it is from their experience.
Stick around and keep talking. Ask any questions. Good luck.
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