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16 days sober of norco abuse.. Fighting demons!!
Hello yes I've been quiet. Kind of going through the motions with things. Yesterday out of the blue a demon past of mine hit me square in the face!!! I wasn't sure how to react with this issue.... So I contacted my great friend sonrissa and freaked out to her!!! Lol love u girl. She kept me sane open minded. And much to my amazement I confronted this person I had issue with in a very cool manner. Someone who hurt me terribly. And better yet I was the bigger person and said sorry first.... It's amazing what those words can do. It made that person let down his guard and apologize for everything... All I could do was cry!!! I did it. With no pills no where to run and hide. I faced my problem full on and got the closure I needed. One down and a few more to go. But truly a weight has been lifted from me and I feel Fing sooooo happy!!! So so good!!! Sonrissa u were more help then you'll ever know sweet girl. Thank u!! And to all u others... We will get through this. One day at a time. Life is good!!!
Hey Jc. Sounds like ur doing great!! I'm glad u like reading my post. I always think I'm boring people with it!!! But I'm glad ur doing great!!! Keep up the good work ok!!!! Are u seeing the light now?? ;)
Awe Waz!!!! There's my buddy!!! So good to hear from u. Sorry to hear about ur lost friendship ... But so very proud u dealt with it...that would have been a hard situation to deal with... But I really feel like there's a time and place for everything. Who knows what ur future will bring. But I'm glad u had ur inner strength to deal with it.... We never really saw how badly we abused until ur sober... Then u think of all the times u would have run to ur stash... Scary isnt it!!! I can't believe how much I hide behind the pills. This person/demon I closed the door on use to give me severe anxiety. It was so so bad...the conversation didn't start good either but right now I have no tolerance for bs... So after all the fingers were pointed... I just laid it all out. I told that person we can point fingers all day long... That isn't what I wanted. I'm here for closure...so I apologized first and got way more back from that person. It blew me away. I was finally able to let go of it. Close the door on it.... And a huge burden was lifted. It was a great great feeling. I hope ur still doing ok with all this. I think of u all the time!!! Good job with yesterday!!! Mad love darling
Great job Dixie. Its awesome to be able to do what you did without leaning on the pills. I love reading your posts! A week ago if I felt down or stressed I would have reached for a pill. This is good stuff to read about the new found strength! You are awesome!
jc
jc
Ahhhh Dixie and Sonrissa... My heroes and inspiration. With each new hurdle we are challenged with where we reached for a pill or 3 to make the problem "disappear" we find now, we are strong enough to deal with them head-on. I had a very upsetting experience yesterday with a long-time friend who has dismissed me. 50 years of friendship and she's sick of my isolated behavior. Of course, I'm a secret detoxer, so she is unaware of my past, present and future journeys however all I could so was agree she was right and apologize. A month ago? I would have popped a handful of pills. It's very freeing to know we are capable of actually meeting AND dealing with the issues life presents us with every day instead of running and hiding behind a pill bottle. They are the same problems that we were faced with when we were using but now..ahhhhh now.... the solutions make sense. I adore and love both of you. It is all about teamwork. I always know, Dixie, you are on this shoulder of mine. Detox gun loaded. Ear being tugged. You are SOOOOO bad a$$.
so I was thinking of taking the Happy Gilmore approach???? lol,,,,I've got a mean swing..just suck at putting... my boys are good... usually score in the low 40's on good days no winds.... high 30's... i need to get the lingo down... boggie... par... birdie... yeah yeah whatever... i'll just hit the ball lol!!!!
Golf is a fantastic sport. I love it, hate it, love it, hate it. It can be very spiritual to be out there in the fresh air, and actually taking notice of the nature around you. I used to pop a pill before I teed off, another at the turn and sometimes another if the back nine was going bad. OMG, frigging ridiculous.
Don't worry about the softball swing, it will come around. Just have fun, and never take yourself to serious out there.
Enjoy the family and laughs.
GRIP IT AND RIP BABY!
Don't worry about the softball swing, it will come around. Just have fun, and never take yourself to serious out there.
Enjoy the family and laughs.
GRIP IT AND RIP BABY!
LOL I am a BAD @ss!!!!! its a great feeling really.....you know Im finding a lot of peace in my music as well as working out... but really today was a big deal for me...youre right we never realize how much we ran to our stash til its not there anymore!!!! This demon today needed to be laid to rest for 3 years... and its now laid to rest and I can smile about it.....I'm moving and liking it... not dreading it.. at least today... my boys are trying to get me to take up golf.... interesting sport... I like it but I swing like Im slugging a softball... but it might be nice to take up some of their interest now... now that I'm not so self absorbed.....keep up the good work too...BAD @SS!!!
Doing well, plugging away and never looking back. Im so encouraged to see your number of days increasing so fast. You are 16 FRIGGING DAYS SOBER! You are a bad a$$ dixiechick. Say it out loud, I AM A BAD A$$.
so proud of u.
so proud of u.
Wow 16 days is great :) I am at 7 almost 8 :) lol and I am so much happier as well. I have my emotions back and most important my health! You inspire me to keep on track thanks for your update :)
exactly this forum here is all about team work!!!! We all carry and pull each other here.... how are you hanging in there???
Great job Dixie.!!!!!!!!, way to be strong, and not be to bold to still ask for help. It shows how far you have come.
It's shocking to hear or be reminded of how quickly we always turned to pills. Oh my gosh, I do not miss the the clock watching.
Thanks Sonrissa for always being there, u rock.
Team work everybody, it works!!!!
I will someday pay it forward just like that.
Bones
It's shocking to hear or be reminded of how quickly we always turned to pills. Oh my gosh, I do not miss the the clock watching.
Thanks Sonrissa for always being there, u rock.
Team work everybody, it works!!!!
I will someday pay it forward just like that.
Bones
Oh please. U kept me sane... It's ok take a bow... Lol no one can get sick of hearing about a good friend. Yes u did help me. Yes I did do this as well but my mind was focused cause u kept me focus. Instead of losing myself crying to anxiety like I use to..... So it's ok sonrissa. Take some credit love!!!! Big hugs
Hey! Stop talking about me! People will get sick of it!! LOL listen, YOU did this yourself! I did nothing but do what any good friend and sister in Secret Detox would do!! I listened, offered an opinion, and let YOU work it out! You, are the bomb! Love & kisses!!
Yup sonrissa is my girl!! She helped keep me sane!!! I just spent the last hour walking in the wind with my country music playing.. Yes including dixiechicks.... I'm on the best natural high ever. I'm really happy right now. I can't even explain it... I wish everyday was this good!!! I mean really I'm so happy I feel like crying... Good tears... Thank u god for giving me life.... Breath..... One day at a time.... Today is a good day to always remember!!!! Love u guys!!! Hang in there all of u. Ur not too far behind me !!! My daddy asked me to play golf with him!!! I said sure... I'll hit the ball the way I did playing softball so don't expect anymore. We laughed together. Life is really good at this moment....
Yeah right. How cool was that. I got scared then got balls to say screw u. It's an amazing accomplishment for me. This was one of my reasons for abusing to start with. So it was a really big accomplishment for me. It's emotional for me. I'm walking with the wind soaring through me... I'm really happy to be sober!!!! Thank u guys
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