Is this just going to kill me?

[2sandy]

I am in a bad situation & it keeps getting worse. I cry myself to sleep & wake up crying. The only way I get any sleep in taking ambien & xanxax. I been abusing norco for a long time. Everytime I try to decrease the next day im in more pain some physical ,mostly psycological.It just helps blunt some of the pain & when its unbearable sometimes all I think of is ending it but I dont get that choice God does & i wouldnt want to ever hurt the people I love.Does this mean I am not ready to quit or will never be ready so 0ne day I will just die from it? I just have been under an unbeleivable amount of stress these past few years. Please dont think Im just feeling sorry for myself . I am just trying to cope & reach out for help!

[kim715]

Honey listen we've all been where you're at.I only have 5 months clean,although I don't feel like that at all anymore,I can remember what that felt like.I'm going to share something with you.When I was going through w/ds I used to lay in bed and pray for the good Lord to just take me.I was so sick and so depressed I just couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel.I thought if this is how I'm going to feel everyday for the rest of my life,I can't do this.Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.Instead he gave me what I needed not what I asked for.He gave me the strength to hold on and the wisdom in knowing He will never lead me to something that He will not help to lead me through.These feelings you are having are normal right now,but in time it will get easier and you will find comfort and happiness again.Trust me I never thought I would feel happy again.I had forgotten what true happiness really felt like,but now I know.Now everyday,even on the really rough days I still feel a little bit of happiness,and now I know for certain that even when things look their darkest and I let myself get caught up in thinking that theres no way out of this mess I give it a little time where theres a will theres a way.Hang in there honey and keep posting.We're all here to help..............Peace...........Kim

[Downey]

You reached out to the right place. Yes, it does sound like you are ready to quit. Remember none of us have quit overnight. It takes time. How much time depends on you.

Downey

[liscamdave]

Not too many people seem to be on right now, so you may not get too many responses, but I am here to help, so please let me.....again, you can PM me or we can talk through here. But let me help you, I have been there. Trust me...

[liscamdave]

Ok, first, are you new here? If so, welcome. Please listen to me..you are not alone. Millions of addicts go through the very same emotions you are going through. This forum he extremely helpful in so many ways. It was a godsend for me. It introduced me to people who were just like me, struggling with their addiction and feeling as though there is no way out.

How long have you been addicted? How much do you take? Are you under a dr's supervision? There are so many things you can do to try to get clean. And we are all here to help. I remember when I felt exactly as you do right now. I just felt I was drowning and would rather just let go then try to help myself. But the people on here talked me out of it, and now I am clean, and have been since January. You too can get clean. We all have the power to do it, its just that you have to want to do it. Then, and only then will you get clean. What can I help you with, please talk to me. You can Private message me if you want....

Lisa