33 weeks and 5 days and im takeing opiates(scared need help)

[melissa347]

I dont Know what to do I know i am wrong for takeing pain meds while im pregnant. I been takeing oxycodone (percocet),oxycotine,some vicoden the whole time. I did manage to just stick with oxycodone and cut down to where i can cut a 30mg into 4pieces and be ok with that for the day.I used to be up to 12 plus pills a day.Now i am very worried about this cus i have bipolar and severe depression and anxiety. I go to a shrink perscriber and now there doing mandatory drug screening. I peed in a cup today but only a lil so i dont even know if they can use it i did take a 5mg and 20mg of percocet yesterday. I dont know if it was enough urine if it will show up and i am worried about it.This perscriber I have is really rude and miseriable she is new and this is only the 2nd time i have seen her.Anyway my OB has no idea I been takeing percocet or others i mentioned. I am scared to say anything because I dont want my baby taken but i know it will probably show in her system when she is born. I have had a past of useing drugs crack cocaine 13yrs i been clean off that. I have 3 childeren i do not have that the state took custody of not because of drugs but becase i was not on meds at the time and i was unstable.I am thinking they will take my baby cus of my past and use this against me im so worried and scared I have no clue how to deal with this. I have till between dec 30 - jan 3. I also live in MA and dont know there laws about it here. Someone please help and give me some advice if you can.

[melissa347]

Thank you both..... :) I printed out the NA meeting list so when they have them i will be going to all open meetings.  Monday I will make all my phone calls to early intervention for the baby and rehab therapy for me and start my NA meetings this weekend if i can find one open to public and if not i start everything monday. Thank you guys for all the support. I hope everyone else is doing well and hangin in there whatever they are going threw. xoxoxo lots of luv and prayers to all.....

[Kendraerika]

You are doing the right thing. It is not easy, I know, and im happy for you making the right choices for your baby... And you! Follow through with your plan, and you are on the road to a better life!

[Ashelen]

good girl! showing how much of an effort you're making is going to work in your favor..keep your head up and keep at the hard work.

[melissa347]

Ok so its 4:41 I have gone allday with nothing but have not been well at all. I just took half of 15mg pill I couldnt go to the sub dr today there not open on fridays so i guess have to wait the weekend and hope for the best. I already thought of my plan to be one step ahead of DCF I am goin to join Early Intervention for the baby,go to NA meetings and drug  abuse counseling. Im ready to have a new life and start right. again thank you all

[Bkitty]

Yeah you are all "babyfied" that makes me smile! Iknow one day I will be blessed with a baby,,in Gods time Im sure. I was just writing on my journal that I didnt hit a bottom or lose a lot to my addiction but I just realized a huge thing I did lose and that was time. Im older now and the chances for me to have a baby are harder and harder. But I also know for me and the situation i am in now isnt the time. The one thing I can do this time though is get my life and me back.
You my friend took a huge courageous step today. I admire you for that. Rest well and have some peace in your heart and know that you have a lot of others on here that are praying and care about you. Sending love and hugs~

[melissa347]

I am so ready for this baby more then anyone knows.... :) Have lots of diapers cloths room is ready but she will be in her bassinett in room with me for a lil bit. I cant wait to hold  her.I do feel uch better then yesterday and its because of all you ladies that helped me threw this. you have no clue how much you all helped me. I am so appriciative i cant thank you enough. Hugs to all... Im going to get some sleep now but will be on tomorrow xoxoxo to all nite.