ok so last night

[kellygirll]

i shared at my meeting and it went very well the girl i want to ask to be my sponsor wasn't there =( but another girl gave me her # and said CALL anytime so I'm feeling better then today my friend texts me and says her and her granddaughter are going out to lunch after her doctors appt  and invited me to go now that was right after my meeting this morning and i was so proud of myself i politely said no thank you tho i would of loved to go to spend time with them but not get any pills its waaaaaay to dangerous and to early in the game for that do not trust myself at all  so i think i did well very well tho i had a total physical reaction to that text my stomach got all twisted up and my heart started beating fast and my throat got tight its amazing what this addiction crap can do to you but i had and have no desire to use not like the weekend and i could of easily gotten what i wanted but i didn't want ANYTHING guard always up 1000 stories high and always on alert for that little girl in me who is looking to feel better that is something I'm working very hard on in therapy my inner child so kelly 1 addiction 0 today

[gnarly_1]

Hi Kelly great to see you great to see you clean.....your off to a great start  the Na meetings are ecential to long term sobriety im am so happy you took our advise  it it works for a old dope fiend like me it will work for anyone you broke the ice by sharing it will come ezer with time you will make new clean friend that truly care about you ''with a addict to my left and a addict to my right we rarely fall'' keep dong what your doing  it may seem strange at first but if you push past it the program will set you free...''you never have to use again''
........................................Gnarly.....................................

[meegWpaw]

really glad you are staying so strong in your attitude and your resolve, Kelly.  hang in there for the one you want to ask to be your sponsor.  xox