day 8

[bamachic24]

still going at it, pushing thru!! no bad cravings til yesterday very stressed out and it was the 1st thing i wanted to do pop a pill but i DIDNT hardest day so far did get my xanax filled so im sleeping ok but i am so damn mean and i cant help it this seems to be my biggest wd problem that and i cant remember anything which makes it hard at work taking 2 days off starting 2moro, anyone else having trouble with temper? pain is tolerable with advil hoping the worst is over, never made it this far b4 never thought i could - would!!!!! oh yeah did i mention i ramble on & on & on

[jlannaa]

i understand that so well , i think that is my biggest trigger anger and stress but i'm going to start with a counselor and find ways to let the anger and stress go , congrats on day 8!

[WantMyLifeBack2010]

PS....
I also lost my faith in God while using!! I blamed him for everything even my addiction! Even though I am on Methadone for MY treatment It has given me my life back in so many ways!!!
I also found that God loves me Im not a failure...I also have found that my  faith in him has helped me tremendously!! I have fallen on my knees and begged him to forgive me and to get me through this H_LL I put myself in....I have had more prayers answered then I ever imagined...
just wanted to let you know how much he cares and is always with us!!! just ASK him to guide you .....His love his more powerful than those stupid pills!!!

Kim:-)

[WantMyLifeBack2010]

That was ALWAYS my trigger when i would try it cold turkey from the pain meds..ANGER=relapse for me. and I would make crap up just to get ANGRY so I could use it as an excuse.."WELL this happened to me today , or "How dare he say that to me(talkin about my husband) What EVER I wanted to turn into a fight or Argument I would just to use....so I not only took 1 but 4!!!
I too take Xanax and go figure I HAVE Never abused them?? 10 years being prescribed them & I still take 2 or  3 a day?? But Pain meds...DIFFERENT story!! totally abused them!!
even now that I am in a methadone treatment clinic, I see a psyciatrist, go to group meetings to deal with ALL my deep dark issues which caused me to CHECK OUT therefore my abuse of pain meds...
you have made it 8 days just remember how FREE you will be once you get thru these w/d's?? I commend EVERYONE that can do it, unlike me I failed so so many times I was so tired of trying...i couldn't take the symptoms that come with the Detoxing cold turkey..I COULDN'T!!! I had been sick so many times before that's why Im in a clinic...I am proud to say i never surpassed 40mgs of Methadone and I'm already in the detox phase kinda sorta...I began the detox phase at the beginning of my 5th month and by the middle of my 6th month i had tappered down to 20....I ended up going back up to 25mg ALL DUE to Our minds....It all plays tricks on our thought process even methadone does...
I can sit and write" Oh i had to have the nurse up my dose to 25 due to my husband going out of town on business for 13 days & Im just a wreck"??
Could be true or could be I'm just too weak when he's away at the same time I decided to come down?? Don't know...either way we play games with drugs in our minds..!!!!
I am so proud when I read a post like yours!! And TO ALL the addicts on here that HAVE beat the addiction by going cold turkey I commend you and I have the utmost respect for you and to all of them!!!
You Bamachic CAN DO this!!! I have had the best people on here give me some awesome advice even while detoxing from Methadone.....
Have you heard from Gnarly_1? He gave me the best vitamin regimen to take which has helped so much.....
Just keep pushing FORWARD its so worth it to be free of this crap!! your whole life will change for the better and all those negative people we hung out with while using you will look back and say "HOW the H___LL did I ever THINK they were a FRIEND???
Good luck God Bless I know this is hard- I DO-But Don't give up it DOES get better day by day.....
Take care I'm here just as all that have replied if you ever feel scared or  alone or wanna use...just log on to Med Help and you will find someone to chat with!!!!
all the BEST!!
Kim

[10356]

Congrats on day 8 !! Whoo Hooo :)) I'm glad your pain is tolerable. as for the irritation only you can change that our minds are very powerful and what we feed into them is what will come out in other words we have the ability to change our outlook.. when I felt myself getting grumpy with my family I would remove myself and give myself a bit of a attitude change go for a walk do something alone It is not them that got us into this position but ourselves. I wish you the very best on your journey.. lesa