201 days no methadone, 174 days no subutex

[weaver71]

I realized I hadn't posted for myself since almost 3 months ago, when I was losing my mind. Well, today I was called for an interview for a job I've wanted for years. I knew I couldn't do it on pills, so I waited till last week to apply. I can say that I'm feeling great for the first time in a long, long time. My wife even noticed my thinking clearing up and I'm more motivated. Thanks all, you saved this guys life, and now it's turning into the life I dreamed of 2 1/2 years ago, when I started trying to get off the pills. I just hope I can find the time to hang out enough you all once I'm no longer self-employed. I think I'll always come here for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, I need all the soul food you guys share.

For those early on, don't stop trying, no matter what. If I, role model addict, can get off 200mg of methadone, anyone who is constitutionally able to be honest with themselves can too. I found that the key for me was making all sacrifices to make it through what was about a 3 month detox and healing, while working a program of recovery. Then I have had to adjust my program constantly to deal with all the crap I started feeling. At 120 days I thought my whole world was caving in, at day 121 I started to feel better, thanks to reaching out here. Addiction is a very self-centered I thing, recovery is a very support-centered we thing. Humility, willingness, open-mindedness, and patience, that is what is slowly making me the person I truly want to be. Slow and steady wins the race, Progress over perfection. I can finally shout it out loud, "It's worth it."

[SunnysideUP27]

Congrats weaver! aND YES, slow and steady wins the race. Motivation, determination and time are key.... Sunny

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time weaver!  You did all the hard work and it is paying off.  You have become a great asset to this community.

Congrats on feeling again~

[Norco1947]

No matter how you do it , the only thing that works is you choseing every day not to  take pills . Not to live the no life addicted life.

Weaver , You have shown us all careing support & advise  , learned by you  the hard way i am sure . I thank you ... Congrat's on your clean time ... Good luck job with your hunting . Ron

[gnarly_1]

Hey Dude Congrats....you made it out of the methadone trap where in the low percentile but it is doable if you seek out recovery may you have a lifetime of clean years....never drop your guard go to meetings and you will be fine..........Gnarly

[Deana1970]

Congrats to you....I know its a long hard road. I had 1yr clean Jan4th 2013 and that very same day I got my dream job. I know if I was still using I never would have gotten this postion. It will double my income and my daughter and I can finally start to have the life I always wanted to give her. She told me the other day I already had...just because I was clean!!!! She is only 10 and is so much smarter than me...I love her and she is my driving force when things get bad to stay clean. I have had to learn how to live a life clean and that was very lonely. But everyday I seem the old me coming back and I luagh a little more each day. I have been addicted to alcohol, meth, pills, and bulimia and was a cutter. You name it and I did it. Anything to not feel like ME...I hated ME!!!! Today I look in the mirror and am proud of myself. I never want to jeopordize that again. Im so happy for you. I use to think people were full of BS...all those affirmations, and saying about being happy and God not giving you more than you can handle....I thought God was a mean cruel myth....I wanted nothing to do with any of it. The day I finally surrender I cried for several days and spent alot of time on my knees praying for help..I was at my breaking point....God was there....and he can be there for all who asks.....Thank you for sharing, and good luck with the job!

[Jenelle2020]

Hey weaver, congrats on your clean time, I know you have had a rough go at it, you are doing so awesome! I want to personally thank you for all the help you provide on this forum,  you have always responded to me when I post anything about my methadone taper, and I really appreciate that lots!  I know first hand how hard it is to get off methadone, I can't wait to be free of it, I drop to 5mgs next Monday, so there is light at the end of the tunnel, FINALLY! It sounds like you are getting better all the time and you really do deserve a lot of credit for what you have done, I can't wait until I am there, it has been  LONG road, but like you say, slow and steady wins the race. I look forward to reading any and all of your posts, keep up the great work!

[toothfairie]

congrats weaver on your clean time! that is so awesome and inspiring!  i will be 60 days clean tmrw...never thought i would have made it this far!  this site and people like you on here are a true inspiration to me and have helped me get to where i am today...it's still a rough road but i'm still going!  thanks for everything!  

[selfinduced]

You are such a wise and centered soul. So very happy for all you've accomplished in getting clean, climbing the career ladder, raising a family and giving back. Your advice is always spot on in relatable ways that I so appreciate. May your good fortune and gifts keep multiplying with each clean day. Thanks for all you do for all of us. Time to treat yourself to something special.

[kyle505]

It's been an honor and a privilege being on this forum with you.  I'll say congrats, and you deserve every ounce of happiness and contentment that you've worked so hard for. And to be able to help others along the way - amazing. Thank you.

[clean_in_ks]

Yeah you, Weaver!!  And good on ya for your 201 days/174 days!!  You have worked very hard......your aftercare devotion is stellar!!!  The sacrifices you mentioned above look REALLY good on you.  I've always followed you around on this board.....your posts, your wisdom, your advice has always touched me.  Even tho my doc (200-300 mg/day hydros) was diff from your high dose methadone.....we both lived thru about the same amount of time on the subs after getting clean of our doc.  My days are so close to  yours....206/178....so that has endeared you to me, I guess LOL
I'm very excited to hear about this longed-for job interview.  Will you be sure to share how that goes?? Please and thank you?? haha!

A couple of quotes from your posts over the last months that really stuck with me:
"We are feeling the birthing pains of a new life"

"I really believe doors open for those who knock"

After that last one above, I was funnin w/you about the Stones song "Can't Ya Hear Me Knockin;" Hahaha.....and you "sang"/replied back to me with this......so I'm gonna sing it right back atcha....in celebration of your new life!
"You can't always get what you want....no, ya can't always get what you want.....but if you try some time, you just might find, you get what you NEED".

Blessings my friend~
Connie

[SmilingBright]

I can't even explain what a true inspiration this is to me.  Thank u so much for giving of your time to help all of us in need!!!  Congrats and praying you get that job!!!

[weaver71]

I want to feel pride, but all your responses make me feel humbled and deep appreciation, even better. I would have drown had nobody reach out and taken my hand when my head was under water. So many helped drag me up on solid ground and continue to help me learn how to swim up this never ending river. I tried it on my own, for years. I just went further down river. You people, local people, and a Power Greater than myself get all the credit on this one. Congrats everyone, you deserve my success.

Just a few quotes that helped me keep going:

Cut those sources
Tell that secret
Get some aftercare
You're not a bad person, you're an addict
Nobody gets out for free
Keep your guard up, your life depends on it
Congratulations on feeling again
You can't unstuff feelings alone
Keep a positive attitude
Give into the process
Constantly check/ adjust your expectations
You know where I'm at if you need to talk

[Brightfutureahead]

Hi Weaver...what an awesome post...you have really dug your heels in deep and all of your hard work is paying off...you're an inspiration to so many on here, including myself :)  I'm sure you know I've been a huge 'weaver' fan from the start! Happy to have your support here on MH.

[atthebeach]

What a beautiful post!! You brought tears of joy to my eyes, because I can hear your happiness and the peace you now have. I know you will be a dynomo at your new job. All good things come to those who wait.
You have remained true to yourself and now you are reaping the benefits.
I pray for continued blessings in your life.
Debbie

[atthebeach]

And a very big congratulations on your hard work, patience and your clean time.  You are awesome. Thanks for sticking around, sharing yourself and inspiring others.

[Fireby29]

Congrats man, you deserve it.  Good luck with the job!

Bryan

[conhall]

Your post have always Stuck out to me even on your day 1 I Knew you would become a Friend to me. I knew you were struggling and your post just stood out and I Knew you needed help.  You Have made such amazing progress and never gave up I am so proud of you and so happy Life is being good to you New Job Thats great! so GREAT!
Never give up is what your post have shown me  NEVER Give up! and never stop believing anything can be done! You are a Good Person Tony with a Kind heart! and a STRONG SOUL> Your post really touched me because I Know you have worked hard I know you will continue to work hard! God Will always bless you my friend :)

[conhall]

How did it Go My Friend?

[weaver71]

The interview was a hit. I'm waiting for that call. Medical, dental, vision, stock, employee owned, vacation pay, and really cool people. They said they they don't tolerate drugs or alcohol. I lifted my chin up high, looked them in the eye, and said, "No problem." It just keeps getting better. I can't believe how the doors are opening and everyone is really helping lift me up. Good things happen for those who wait. Time heals all things. So much I've learned and so much more to look forward to. I'll let you know when they call about the job. Yep, this is why I wanted to quit. I believed you, and my faith in all of your advice is setting me free, one day at a time.

Thank you all so much, you are all heroes to me, those with one minute and those with decades, we are blessed to have each other.

[atthebeach]

I love it. you lifted your chin up high, looked them in the eye, and said,
"no problem". my husband experienced this earlier last year when he got a new job. he said, first time in a long, long time that he knew the urine test would be clean. what a sense of accomplishment and freedom.
you rock. that call is on its way.
hold that head high, you can be very proud of yourself.
I am.
hugs and blessings,
debbie

[conhall]

what was it that you said " If You Knock at Doors" They will be answered :))))
So happy for you my friend You have worked so hard and it shows! In the way your life is just getting better and better.....
Be Proud of yourself!   Doing HAAPPPYYY Dance for you!
Goodnight sweet dreams They would be Lucky to have you ;-)

[clean_in_ks]

"Zip-A-Dee-Doo-Dah, Zip-A-Dee-Ay,

My, oh my what a wonderful day!

Plenty of sunshine heading my way....

Zip-a-dee-doo-dah, zip-a-dee-ay

Wonderful feeling, wonderful day!!!"

[ponco]

hi how r you? i never ask you how you got off the methadone in 3 months. let me know how you did it thank you ponco

[ponco]

hi how r you? i never ask you how you got off the methadone in 3 months. let me know how you did it thank you ponco