72 hours and fighting

[Tina6444]

Still fighting!! Physically I am feeling far better…really can't complain too much with exception of occasional crawling in arm. You are all right when you mention how hard it is mentally. I feel lunacy is slowly creeping in. I am so angry and moody today!! I am so angry I started taking these stupid pills and even angrier I am in this position. I must use this as ammunition to continue this dreadful battle.
I am even more frustrated because I can't even do my laundry, dishes, clean house and have minimal assistance with this. I know it is a common complaint as we all were once superhuman in energy.
Please please please keep comments coming as I feel I am hanging by a thread. Any advice is appreciated!! Much love to you all and thank you for your support. It is pretty special strangers can bond together like this to make someone's life better that you don't even know.

[Nomore2]

Good luck with your new job! I'm sure it will help to have something new to focus on. I am on day 4 today! I'm feeling so happy to be off those pills! Physically feeling better every day, but mentally it will take longer. I'm still riding the waves. I like that analogy! Surfing the withdrawals. :)

[Tina6444]

Also Charlie… Do you like music? I have a playlist that I go through when I need a boost of motivation. Not sure if you like rap however Eminem has this song called Beautiful Pain. It hits the mark every time.

[Tina6444]

Hi Charlie!! This is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do but from what I hear so worthwhile:) Deep down I knew the right decision for years however it took me awhile to admit and take action. I am so happy you have also came to this decision. You probably have researched and read just as I however the most helpful things are vitamins and light physical activity.  I swear I have read about every single post on this forum…keep reading if it helps.
The thing that set me back the most is counting the minutes…seconds… on the clock. Time trickles the first few days but eventually we will go through a whole day without thinking about it. Have I hit this mark yet? No, but it IS getting easier.
One last piece of advice. Channel all of your frustration, anger, and sadness into focusing on the enemy here…PILLS. Get angry and fight this battle!!!

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

You are doing great. Keep posting. You are actually helping others including me. Computer is on these posts 24/7 now as I just hit 41 hour mark. Fuzzy head, tired, and Extreme craving for a pill. No Way!!! Has had control for 15 years. Time to live. Planning on using all my doctor and pill money for a long vacation. Keep the good fight. You are not alone.

[Tina6444]

Thank you all. Tonight has been really good! I begin my new job tomorrow and it will be intense but I welcome that with open arms.  Definitely will get my mind off another day:))) This process is a roller coaster!!!!!! I am going to try to embrace the waves , ride them (as per advised by a wise individual on forum) ,and accept them as there is utterly nothing I can do. I think that is a big thing for me to not have control over my emotions . Frankly I suppose it could be said I have not had control over myself the past 2 years.
Sorry for the rambling post but long story short I am not looking back:))) I know that now:)  FINALLY have realized!  I will check in tomorrow am

[Ballgame]

Awesome!! 72 hrs is huge. Nice job. Hang in there.  Keep posting

[chig1130]

Tina it has been 85 days today. I just cant get a lot of energy back. Of course the anxiety and depression are still out there. You will make it, my friend you will

[pillguy]

Stay in the battle.  Victory is in sight.  72 hours might not sound like much to the uninitiated but I know how long an hour can be.  You're doing great.

[Tina6444]

Hi ! How long has it been for you chig1130?   I am sitting out in the sunshine and nice weather and feeling a little more positive.  Keep staying strong as well !! This forum is my lifeline

[chig1130]

I know those feelings too well myself, I haven't pushed myself, it is very hard to get out of the depression state. Just hang on it will pass, you just gotta believe it will. Stay Strong just for Today!!!

[TikkiTT]

How well I know those feelings and there are a few times when I think, if I had a pill....just one....I would take it.    Anything to push myself to get more done, but I know I can't and I won't.   Keep going.    Don't look back.   Focus on the future.    Stay strong.    Got it?   Yes, I think you do!

[Langer413]

Congrats on 3 days!! I know how tough that first week can be. You're about at the point where you'll turn a corner and start feeling better bit by bit. The best thing you can do to get the natural endorphins going is to get out and take a walk. You can start with a short walk and build up from there. It helps not only your mood/anxiety but also your energy too! Be sure to keep hydrated too. Aftercare will also help you learn to deal with the mental side of this disease. Keep pushing and post often to let us kin how you're doing!