8 days clean up need help!

[td188]

I have been eight days clean from oxys, physical w/d's are gone but mentally I am not doing so good. I have a huge feeling of emptyness. It is hard for me to keep busy and my mind just keeps racing about being depressed. Any suggestions?

[td188]

i do have the blues but not extremely. Can you tell me if this gets better in weeks or months, or years? Like i said its not too bad but it is there.

[guv338]

Keep up the good work.  I personally did not try the anti-D's, but definitely had the blues.
They do get better with time.  Does not happen over night though, so keep the faith and
you will see small inprovements day by day.  We did not get here in a day and it will not
take a day to get over it.  You have a great start to a process that will challenge you but
in the end you will have the satisfaction of knowing whose in charge.  Best of Luck.

[LADYDI4185]

So glad to hear you feel better!  remember stay strong you can and will do this!!  Ladydi4185

[td188]

thanks guys, I just cried and I feel better, I got that one out. waiting for the next. You guys are the best. Encouragement helps so much. I don't know if I could have done 8 days without everyone here. Thank you so so so very much. I can't explain how much my mh family means to me. Means everything to me!!!

[candothis247]

B- strong! 8 days is GREAT! i would agree with the person who sugessted using an antidepressant for a while. Good Luck

[LADYDI4185]

I read on this site something that really stuck with me, every minute that goes by is one minute closer to being healthy.  Please try to remember that!  You are awsome - 8 days clean!!!!!  If crying is where you are at right now, cry.  Cry out all those bad feelings and I am telling you, you will feel better.  Again this is all part of the wd's.  

[td188]

Thanks for the encouragement. I know that I wont give in and use again, but this mental breakdown is crazy. I hope it does not last very long. I want my life back.

[LADYDI4185]

I really think this is the mental part of wd's.  The busier you can keep yourself the better.  I quit pills a couple of years ago and could not handle the overwhelming sadness and started to use again.  I wish back then I was a part of this site because then I would have know that yes this will pass it takes time.  It is ok to cry and feel sad, that is a normal feeling.  Your body is healing and you are feeling emotions that were pushed down by your DOC.  I am certainly not an expert on this but from other posts it sounds like what you are experiencing is just part of the whole process.  ladydi4185

[refusingbondage]

Hey there.  First - Congrats on 8 days.. its a good amount of time but you still need more time to heal.  The emptyness and shakiness is most def anxiety and depression.. it comes with the territory and I think of it as the addiction's last line of defense.. dont give in to it and dont let it beat you.  Lots of people advocate going on an antidepressant while detoxing..only you can make that decision.  Its hard to say how long it will be with you.. all I can say is that it does go away and it does get better... you have to give yourself time to heal physically, and mentally.  In the meantime try deep breathing techniques, exercise (exercise is SOOOOOOO helpful for lethargy and depression) and keep posting and talking.  Its ok to cry.  Its ok to complain.  We are listening and we have all been there and will give you lots of support.  Good luck.  

[td188]

I have no idea why but i just feel like crying today. Yesterday I was fine. I am wondering how long this will last. I used roughly 100 mg of oxycodone a day for a year. Anybody now if this will be with me for a long time cause I do not want to go on an anti depressant if it will pass with time.

[LADYDI4185]

Congrats!!!  What a great job - 8 days clean!!!  I am tapering off hydro's or at least trying to and I understand the "emptyness" you feel.  I really think that is the part of wd"s that is the hardest for me.  One minute i am fine, positive, feel i can beat this, then this overwhelming feeling of sadness or emptyness overxcomes me that i can't shake.  It is so hard to explain to someone but boy it s**ks!  I know I am trying to keep busy.  I went out and bought flowers to plant and I listen to books on tape to keep my mind off pills and everything that goes with it.  Have you tried exercising?  I know that is a huge help to combat depresssion.  I am here if you want to talk!  Hang in there,  ladydi4185