A question about my situation.

[BQ77]

In a previous post I shared my story about my 2 year long, 20 10/325mg hydrocodone a day drug habit.  With the help of Suboxone I have succeeded  in going the longest without taking any hydrocodone...21 days thus far.  To make my long story short, here was my pattern....6 days of 20 hyrdocodone....started suboxone, but was abusing it....7 days of 4 8mg Suboxone a day.  Then again....another 6 days of 20 hydrocodone....then once again 4 suboxone for 7 days. Then absolutely nothing for 7 days.  Now it's been 7 days of taking 1 suboxone a day.  So with that said, I consider what I have done RIGHT NOW is a success.  Going from 20 hydros to 1 Suboxone in a matter of 2 weeks really. So, the natrual next step is to get off of the Suboxone ASAP.  My doctor says to go slow and I agree.  My prescription calls for 2 8mg pills a day, but the 1 pill a day has been completely fine.  I haven't felt this great in over 2 years.  My energy has sky rocketed.  I'm working all my hours at work and have done so for over 4 weeks.  I can't remember the last time I have done that.  And on March 16th I start a week long vacation in Las Vegas with my best friend.  So here's the question.  In my journal I have posted my road to recovery starting with the first days I was off hydrocodone and started suboxone and I have mentioned this trip and how I have hoped to taper off the Suboxone just in time to be 100% off medication when the vacation starts.  Some posted a comment that they weren't experienced with Suboxone, but was worried that I would be sick on my vacation, but that maybe I should post the goal on here to get some feedback.

Personally, when it comes to Suboxone, I really think that it can react differently to everyone.  I think some people can take it for a bit and quit it no problem, but at the same time, someone can take the 2mg pills at let's say 1 a day, quit and have horrible withdrawls for a month or 2.  I think I am somewhere in the middle of that, and actually I think I fall more towards being less sick.  

Ok, so I have 13 days left before the trip.  I would like to start my tapering this Thursday.  Here's my plan.  I am fine at 1 a day.  On Thursday I would like to go to 3/4 of a pill for 2 days.  Then 1/2 of a pill for 3 days.  Then 1/4 of a pill for 3 days, then as little as 1/8 of a pill for 2 days.  That will take me through the `15th, meaning on the 16th I will be on zero.  What do you think of that plan?  

Here's my theory.  I quit cold turkey for 7 days from having 4 a day and overall felt fine.  I went back on because of how edgy I was and the hot flashes were annoying, so I felt that I honestly did too much too soon.  It has only been a week now but I can honestly say that I'm taking them 100% responsibly (wow that is so great to say), even taking only half of what is prescribed.  I feel after the taper that once I'm in Vegas on the 16th that the very worst I will feel is basically how I felt for that week that I took absolutely nothing and to be honest with you it was overall VERY tolerable.  Not to mention being in Vegas will be full of a million more distractions for me, haha.  Especially so much more distractions compaired to when I took nothing for a week.  What is everyone's opinion.  I will say this much.....I will do my plan and stick to it.  Tell me your honest opinion, even if negative, as I won't change my mind anyway.  And more importantly, since I'm positive that the worst I will feel will be perfectly tolerable, how do you think I will feel a week later when I return home?  Do you think I will feel the same or even better or maybe worse?  

Thanks for those who have given me positive and even negative feedback.  The negative feedback has been great "constructve critisism" so to speak.  And thanks for taking the time to read this and giving your input.  May God Bless you all on your own personal battles.  Thank you.

BQ

[refusingbondage]

I think -hey man mind over matter.  If you are confident in this plan then GOOD FOR YOU..You sound very determined, positive and you totally seem to be in the right frame of mind.  One suggestion - try to save some of those shavings/crumbs to take to vegas with you - just in case...if you are strong enough to taper, cut down and not take, then having some crumbs - just in case - would probably be a smart move. Good luck!

[cathy5841]

hey BQ, i have not been able to read your post cuz i read them at work and they are very long.  i think if you condensed then down you would get more responses...as addicts we have a very short attention span...LOL...