About To Come Clean

[JCGetClean]

So I have been taking Percocet 10mg/30mg for the past 3 years. I need to quit because it has taken over me both physically and mentally. I started using beginning 2010 by taking a perc 10 every day and I felt more productive/happier than ever before. Before I knew it 2-2 1/2 yrs passed and things spiraled out of control. I am now blowing anywhere from 1-3 30s each day just to get by. As many other posts state - I am thinking about how I am going to get my next fix and worried about being able to spend time around my family for the holidays without being high. The w/d is what scares me most and I know I need to quit to get back to the fit, happy, out going guy that I used to be. I plan on starting to get clean the day after Christmas so I can enter the new year with a clear mind and move forward with my life/career. So I purchased 4 suboxen pills off the street and want to use them during the withdrawal time by tapering off them within a week. I plan on breaking the pills into 5 pieces and taking a piece every day depending how bad my symptoms are. I am not going to get anymore subs bc I hear withdrawing from them is even worse. I really could use any support/advice during this rough time and admire all the people on this site and the struggled they have been through or are going through. I also plan on getting everything the Thomas Recipe calls for to assist along the way, does this help?? I will be certain to post my progress once it begins if I am up to it. I thank everyone for knowing I am not alone!
Joey

[JCGetClean]

Yes, I do not want to stop one addiction to start another (percs to subs). I just do not want to be reliant on pills everyday in order to make it by. I need to face the everyday struggles and stresses that people have like a man, and I know I can do this. But like I said in my initial post, I am super nervous and scared bc I know withdraw is no walk in the park as I've had my days here and there without being able to score due to things being dry or just flat broke. I am fortunate that I can take a week off to get better.  As far as Louise's comment - I plan on speaking to my father about this so I have the support. He has been in and out of rehab multiple times and I know can relate and help me through this. I thank god the sober person he has become and how great he is to our family. I will def make sure to keep everyone in the loop along the way and appreciate all the comments and support. It is reassuring. Day 1 will be on the 26th. Why the wait? I have percs on me that I know I will use and I am being honest. My addiction has just got out of hand and I get down on myself but I need to bring in 2013 the right way and be the person my family and friends know I am. Thanks again everyone!

[worried878]

Picking a quit day and sticking to it is so important!  I also told a few that were close to me.  I told my mom and it was a mistake as she did not understand.  What is done is done tho and i made it.  Like u, i was afraid..but when sai and done, it really wasnt too bad.  u will be ok..find support and seek it when u need it and even if u do not (:...make sure u cut off all supply and that there r no pills anywhere in ur reach...make it easier on urself...when u r done..u r done!

Merry Christmas

[littlebit667]

Glad you found this forum!  I just want to say that the fear of withdrawals is often worse than the actual act.  We can come up with all sorts of reasons to stay on the pills because of it.  The one thing (among many) that helped me was to think of it as having the flu.  In many ways withdrawal symptoms are the same.  Check out the Thomas Recipe here:  
http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Addiction/Thomas-Recipe-Re-Posted/show/16?cid=66

I found it very helpful as has many others who are detoxing.  

When you have the flu...you just have to treat the symptoms as they occur.  You can't stop the flu..you just have to get thru it.  3-5 days of feeling sucky and anxious and you will start to feel better.

The hard part is after.  Staying off the pills is the hard part..harder than the withdrawals.  But it can be done.  Getting help here and in the real world is a must.  I hid it all and failed miserably every time.  For me it took telling my two adult children and husband.  Once I got the secret out..it made all the difference.  I discovered the secret made me sicker.   Everyone is different in that respect.  What really helped the most was telling my doctor.  Maybe I was lucky, but she helped me so much.  

If you can't do any of the telling...you can still do it...depends on your situation and level of need.  I needed them to help me..others have done it alone.  Either way, it is possible.

Keep coming here as you detox..many have found it makes a bi difference getting help as you go thru the process.  

[KMK523]

Hello Joey and welcome!! I was also a Percocet abuser for 16 years! I was taking about 16 10/325's each day...just to keep me straight. It is the best choice you are making to come clean!! I won't lie and tell you it's easy. I went cold turkey. The first week is the hardest, but not impossible. This site helped me through my darkest times. Post often....trust me it will help more than you know. As of today I am 215 days clean. My life is so much better sober. I never thought any of this would be possible. Remember "pain is temporary pride is forever!!" good luck to you!! Keep posting!! :)

[VICourageous]

HI MY NAME IS VICKIE I am going on 4 months clean off of the worst drug in the world methedone. I did oxy and hydros before this. I WENT COLD TRUKEY from 30mg and above I was snorting with adderral and taking cloazepam at night. SOOO The withdraws was the hardest thing I experienced but a blessing in the long run. My head came out of a 16yr fog the transmitter in the brain stated to work because as you know the drugs suppress all of this. I watched lots of viedos of the disese of addiction. (Pleasures Unwoolven, betty ford tapes or some on the internet) This explains alot and helped me stay striaght. I am to lod for this **** I would of died soon. The withdraws for me was 1. High *** anxiety and no sleep for about over 30 days, then 2. was starting to sleep and cat nap but got weak as never ever before.3 I now just have lower spine pain and slight weak. But now I was a long term user and am 56yrs old female. I go to NA & AA and they all say it takes a good year to get it all back to a good way, however I beg to differ some because I get good Vit & Min over the internet from a good source. I am trying to take baby steps to work out. My HUSBAND went cold truky from a long use of Hydros and He is comming around alot quicker because those opiates are short term and do not live in the body like methedone. Anyway all of us go through stages of symtoms and there is no easyway out. It DOES GET BETTER. You took the first step in recovery and admitted you are or becoming a addict. Go to meeting I swear the support is saving my *** too......You find people with the same story as yours. My whole family and frieds know all about my addiction and recovery I do have SUPPORT that way too! So besides ltting my self down if I do any kind od brain addiction drug I will be letting them all down too!!!!! It works if you really want it get more support please. Vickie God Bless

[JCGetClean]

I wish this forum was similar to Facebook and allowed you to "Like" people's comments because every post makes me feel happy that there are others that can relate to my situation and the support is incredible.  1st clean day starts on the 26th. Look out for my comments and progress updates. I am certain I will need support most during the w/d stages. I thank you all for your time and input.