Weaver the incredible has 1 year clean!!

[selfinduced]

Tony you know how I feel about your old soul wisdom and tireless efforts helping us all. Congratulations your year milestone. You can feel your experience and warmth come thru in each post. Treat yourself to something special today and thanks for all you are.

[ImDONENoMore]

Congratulations from me too!

[limodan73]

Congrats on the YEAR! That's quite the amazing milestone. Hope your doing well and can celebrate with a friend. A scoop of Rocky Road is in your future my friend. Thanks for all the support you have given to me and to all the rest on here who have had the pleasure of your guidance.
Dan

[vicki595]

I remember when you first arrived at MH; your story and recent night trying to keep yourself alive was painful to read...you had stepped into hell and it was a step up...I remember feeling scared and worried for you...
I think you've been amazing here and I've loved watching the evolution of you; brighter, stronger, clearer, more positive, and then hopeful...And I've learned from you...
Congratulations!

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations Weaver! A great accomplishment!! May you have many more years clean and serene!

[meegWpaw]

weaver we can always count on you for the erudite and well-thought out response.  I appreciate that.  congratulations on a tremendous accomplishment!

[kyle505]

When we first begin our time in detox hell, "one year clean" seems as realistic as sprouting wings and flying. Add the additional hell you went through and, well all I can say is you've done a truly amazing thing. I admire you...
People come and go on this forum; you've stuck around and I respect you for that, and for the great advice and support you give.
So, many congratulations. Now go fly somewhere - enjoy yourself.
K

[Andie015]

Weaver, you have come so far and you are a true inspiration. Keep up that attitude of positivity and helping those here, you really have earned all the peace in the world......

[akitagurl12]

HUGE accomplishment!  You have worked so hard on yourself & still found the time, wisdom and willingness to help others....you are an amazing person & I know you will just continue to be a blessing to all those who cross your path. Congratulations!!! :)

[ActingBrandNew]

Congrats my fellow Californian!

I always enjoy reading what you have to say and I appreciate all the great advice you give on this forum.

You help ~MANY~

[atthebeach]

Congratulations tony, you are a blessed man. You have walked the recovery road for a year and have learned about yourself and are discovering who you are.  You are a smart, compassionate, kind and loving man.
Your family is blessed to have you and we are too.
Keep on keepin on. You have lots of living to do.
Very proud of you and very happy that you are in recovery.
Continued blessings,
Debbie

[conhall]

Tony Congrats to you my friend! You have always been so honest and supportive. I am so proud of you as you have worked very hard to take your life back!  We have traveled this road together and I am honored to call you my friend as you are truly a GEM!
Do something nice for yourself! you deserve it .
God bless you always!

[ariley13]

Congratulations on your big year!! You are an amazingly inspirational person. Your story is a very good cautionary tale for people just starting down the path of addiction. Thank you for all of your wisdom and support. Keep on fighting the good fight! Here's to many more years clean and sober!! :)

[weaver71]

Thank you all, every one!!! I am a work in progress. Coming off methadone was the hardest thing I've ever done. One year ago, I could not sleep, eat, think, nothing. 360 days ago, I was 5 days into detox and walked the streets while waiting to induce subutex. Unable to defend myself, I was jumped by two young guys and left with a broken nose, covered in blood, and unconscious. The cops found me and took me home. I got blood, vomit, and diarrhea all over my wife and bed. I was not sure I could heal, was not sure I wanted to live, I don't think one could go lower and live to tell about it. You guys kept telling me it would get better, that I could do it. This required a leap of faith in YOU, I no longer believed in myself. You know, you where right, I am healing. You saved this man's life, my family thanks you too. It takes a long time and lots of practice to be as big a screw up as me, and even I am healing. That is a miracle. I have many specific examples of breakthroughs in recovery. Today reminds me of something my wife said at 19 days after my last sub dose. "Why don't you follow through for a change," That rang through my being, considering the emph *****. Follow through for a change or Follow through, for a change. Subtle, but different, both applied to me. I chose to detox the hard way, but I followed through, and I am still changing. That is why I always say it is important to have a plan and follow through, there is no wrong way to get and stay clean. I wanted to change my plan 100 times a day, but my strong support system held me accountable to my own decisions. It has gptten better and better. I like me okay now. I'm pretty good at expressing myself, I have a big heart, I am fairly intelligent. I am not good at maintaining long term friendships, I tend to be overly blunt, I push myself and judge myself too much. All things considered, I am a work in progress owning my actions and thoughts. I have barely scratched the surface in this recovery process. The last year has given me knowledge and skills, I'm excited to see what comes next. Do not give up, no matter how bad it seems. I believe in balance, I call it justice. All the suffering I've experienced and seen has me excited, I can only imagine the flip side of my life,. I must have serious blessings coming my way,  That gives me hope, everything happens for a reason. I really desire to learn to connect with people, I'm still really bad about keeping contact and maintaining relations. I grew up fast and learned to rely on myself from about age 10 or so. So, the work continues, I love that about recovery, it never ends. It really does get better and better and so do I. Thanks again, I wish I could say I'm speechless, but I'm a talker, I know myself that much. God bless you Every One!!!

[dominosarah]

I will keep this short and sweet......Thank you for your honesty and being just who you are.  I have mad respect for you weaver~

Congrats on 1 yr clean and congrats on feeling again!

[waterLilly7]

What wonderful news!!!
Congrats!! It's so awesome to see!
You did it! what doesn't kill ya makes ya stronger!!
hugs and blessings,
Lily

[clean_in_ks]

A WHOLE YEAR......365 HARD WON, HARD WORKED-FOR DAYS!!!!!

You are one amazin man, my friend. I am so glad we have been traveling this road of recovery together.  What and how you share with others ALWAYS resonates with me.  A couple of things you've said during this journey:

"I really believe that doors open for those that knock."

"Sunflowers always remind me to look for the light." (my avatar..lol)

"You can't always get what ya want, no you can't always get what ya want, but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need." (Stones for sure!) But how TRUE!!

I've never really confirmed with you that your sign-on handle originated from the song Dream Weaver.....but in "my head".....I think of you EVERY
SINGLE time I hear it.  (And) the little girl in me remembers a quote from Walt Disney, "If you can dream it, you can do it."  You have shown me that is possible.  So, Ima gonna leave you with the lyrics to Dream Weaver...and just know, when my satellite radio plays this old song....I'm singin it for you!  (not to be a copy cat or anything...hahaha)

Dream Weaver, I believe you can get me through the night
Dream Weaver, I believer we can reach the morning light

Fly me high through the starry skies
Or maybe to an astral plane
Cross the highways of fantasy
Help me to forget today's pain

Though the dawn may be coming soon
There still may be some time
Fly me away to the bright side of the moon
And meet me on the other side

Blessings abound for you today on your special day and always~
Connie

[BelleFemme]

Congrats! That is an amazing accomplishment! I wish you MANY more years of awesome, clean living!

[1sorryperson]

A snow shovel! OMG!  That is like the year I bought my wife a Dyson Animal vaccume cleaner, the world's best vaccume.   She loves it but i run it. LOL!!!   I could say so much more about you as a little brother but this is a public forum.  

Weaver, You walk with Thunder!  

[ricart70]

Hey Weaver !  Great job friend !!!  You are such a help around here and  congratulations on the Year !!      Celebrate my friend .  Awesome  ;)

[nursegirl6572]

You are super awesome!  I hope you're doing something super nice for yourself, you deserve it!  What a huge milestone.

Keep doing what you're doing!  You're an inspiration to so many here!

:0)

[VICourageous]

Tony my Good Ol Friend!!! I am so proud of you. Well it looks like you have helped many on here. You have been my Guiding Light too! Even if I already had over a couple of months in before I joined, I still was so scared to death on my detox stages I was going through off those 3 meds. Methadone being one is why we connected. This was not like the flu this time. It was all these unbelievable bad stages I could not understand. From the High ash Anxiety forever to the Drop of bad Weakness, Sleep, Emotional Waves, No Interest, On & On as you know. You were there for me and would give me the understanding that you experienced the same stages as we processed on. This gave me so much comfort and helped me to except each stage as they did come.And as you know it was no walk in the park. I sure do hope the best corner yet will be at the Year Mark. Yes Tony we connected in many ways. Remember the "Snow Shovel" Gift we laughed about. That one was to funny. You men need to be a bit more sentimental toward your wifes gifts..Ha!!!
You Touch my Heart Always!
And I will be so ever Grateful Toward You!
Vickie

[SmilingBright]

Congrats tony!!!!  1 whole year clean. That's truly something to be proud of!!!!  You have been there for me since the very beginning.   You have so much wisdom and your willingness to help is such a quality to be admired!!   Big hugs to you on your 1st birthday!!!  
Your friend Chris

[1sorryperson]

I think of you everyday Tony.   You've laid some awesome perspectives on me.  This last week i started finding CBT videos on the net.  It is about changing the way we think to effect our future, rather than therapy for our past.  

Anyways, Weaver.  You are one of the truely GREAT ones here on mh and in your town.  Thanks for being so so helpful!  If you can come from your lowest point, we all should be able to do it.

CONGRATULATIONS!  Tornado Tony!