Day 4 off oxy - when will my energy come back? HELP!

[moonshyne]

I am on day 4 and this morning wasn't too bad but now for the last few hours I have NO ENERGY. This is really awful because I have 2 babies to take care of. My grandmother came up to help me but she is leaving tommorow and I have no idea how to get through the no energy thing. I feel so guilty because I can barely function right now and I'm terrified of how I'll survive once grandma goes home. I have 2 babies under 2 and they are a handful, neverminf the housework, cooking etc. When will I ever get energy back. This must be why so many people relapse.. I don't want to go back to oxys but this is hell. I'm having lots of cravings and my thoughts are racing even though I'm so wiped. Please help. Give me hope that I won't feel like this forever!

[broknbck]

someone once told me a long time ago.
God will never give you something that you cannot handle.
there was a verse and i cannot remember it word for word but went something like this
He enables me to do the impossible
and i have stood on that time and time again. and it is true. it is like law.

i do remember how it was thinking how can this mess possibly be fixed? but it did get fixed for me! i did get off the drugs. all the symptoms disappeared. the cravings went away. and feel like i never took a pill ever. the energy came back too. and i am not the only one here. there are lots of us.
and if it can happen for us , it can happen for you too!

[moonshyne]

I've had a crazy life. Growing up my mom was an alcoholic and pill addict and my dad was very abusive. he didn't drink but took his frustrations out on all of us. To this day I refuse to let him watch my kids because the memories of having the **** kicked out of me will never go away. He comes to visit and is a good grandfather when he's here but I would never trust him alone with my kids. He's hinted around at letting my little girl go to his house but I finally said ''I have issues'' and left it at that. I think he got the point. My mom who I was really close with is gone. Addiction caught up to her a few years ago and she died. It was horrible. She was only 47 years old and never got to meet the grandkids she wanted me to have so badly. That kills me. Her death was like something out of a horror movie. for the days they tried to save her I watched blood come out of her mouth and she never came consious. She died and I never got to say goodbye, well I did and I can only hope she heard me even though she was not concious :( It haunts me. I began smoking lots of pot in my young teens. I also have anxiety attacks and had them my whole life. I remember as a kid when the fighting at home would start I would get so sick I'd throw up and felt like I was having a heart attack. It wasn't until years later I was diagnosed with Anxiety disorder. During my teens I mostly stuck to pot but did drink (although my prayers to God when I was a kid to never become an alcoholic must have been heard because the severe hangovers I got just from a few drinks steered me away from alcohol) In my early 20's i began taking antidepressants and xanax. I got badly hooked on xanax and only gave them up a few years ago before I had my daughter. 6 months before I got pregnant with my daughter my husband got into an altercation at a bar and the police ended up breaking his ankle. They gave him percocet and it was the beginning of misery for both of us. In the beginning we'd both take his script for a good buzz and yep, no problem when they ran out. Then I got pregnant with my daughter and did not take percs but I did smoke the odd joint. Then after my daughter was born I started popping them again but not too bad..didn't getthe chance to get that bad, i got pregnant with my son when she was only 3 months old!! Unlike my first pregnancy I didn't enjoy this one at all. It was very hard on me physically (my body had barely began to recover from baby #1) and I started popping the odd perc here and there for energy. I am ashamed of that like you wouldn't believe. The real problems started after my son was born. He had colic really bad and I started taking quite a few for the energy. Then about 6 months ago I started taking oxys. Sharp downward spiral from there. They are much more efficient at getting you energetic but also much, much more addictive in my experience. It got to where I HAD to have them just to function and I panicked if I ran out and got really cranky. And I did more and more. Money down the drain. My husband also did it too but I think I was worse. He is quitting too and we've had a helluva week both coming off these stupid things at once. He'll have a few beers to take the edge off. I don't like to drink so I've had a much harder time with the withdrawals. I'm worried he's going to start drinking more now..he had slowed right down on the drinking after our kids were born but has had a few benders. I threatened to leave him and he has slowed down again, a few beers after work. But like I said, it remains to be seen what happens now. I just know that I MUST stay clean no matter what he does. Someone has to be responsible for these kids having a good childhood and I know in order to give them the life they deserve I have to stay off pills. He is a good man and he loves our kids so I hope that will keep him from getting bad with drinking. there is so much uncertainty right now and all i can do is take it a step at a time and concentrate on staying clean and being a good mom without pills. I also have to be realistic and realize I'm not going to be supermom. The house won't sparkle, the dishes will pile up some days but as long as it's kept relatively clean and my kids are happy and well cared for who cares if i can't "do it all''. I have no very little help and two kids under 2. There's no way it will be easy but I can live without the pills I'm sure. I have to! I've been thinking a lot about you and how I'm not the only mom going through this hell. We will do this though!! And our kids will be so much better off for it. I never want my kids to have to bury me like I had to bury my mom. I'm determined to break the cycle that's destroyed generations of my family. It has to stop here, now. Hang in there, we're doing this together!! :) Today is day 5 and I feel better then I have in days. I'm not fooling myself into thinking I'm ''cured'' but it's going to be a process but everyone keeps saying it will get better and for the first time I really believe it will. Stay strong and God bless!  Sorry for the looong post

[britt459]

I think about you daily, hourly actually; its such a terrible feeling to want to do things with your children and your body won't allow you. I have gotten to the point that I am having the regular anxiety attacks I have suffered from since 16yrs old. But it is a strange thing, they make me want to get up, do something, anything other other than sit on the couch, which is what I have done for years. In the beginning after numerous surgeries, I would enjoy the pills, always feeling energetic, not a big deal when I ran out, until it was a big deal! When I became pregnant, not expected, terrible man I was with that stole thousands from me, long story for another time. However, he stole so much to open a bar that I invented, details later. Point is, I was alone. I am not strong when it comes to anything alcohol, pills, caffeine, etc...  I was not able to quit smoking while pregnant, and I drank, not a lot, but more than I should. One thing I quit without a thought was the pills. I had been taking them daily,but not for long, maybe 6months, 4 a day. I didn't suffer wd symptoms, of course you have so many wd like symptoms in the early months of pregnancy who would know the diffrence. Once my daughter was born I begged for pain meds; didn't need them, just wanted that energy, I was alone, I didn't have a single person to help, her father was out every night and day, he said he would start helping when she could talk. I don't know where I am going with this. I just want to put my story out there and hear yours, as it really does help.

[moonshyne]

Thanks for the encouragement. I'm feeling kinda so-so this morning, My grandmother is leaving today and I am scared of how I'll manage without her and without oxys but I know I have to find the strength in me to stay clean. I wish I could go back in time and never taken a pill, well don't we all.

[123456m]

I reall feel for you be strong the 4th day is great because each day will get a little better.
You are stronger than you think. I know this sounds a bit crazy but do not think about having no energy just do it. Do what needs to be done . Get the idea out of your mind that you have no energy uou have plently of energy if a fire just came up in your house you would see what you have, its the mind telling you and really all of us here when we go through this we have no energy but you do. Beleive it with your whole heart. Make yourself move your not going to fall always push a little more than you feel you can. Do not think about taking another pill that is not energy its a copy of energy and will hurt you . Be strong push like you never had before you wil find with each little puch even it its getting up and doing the dishes and it seems like you cannot but do it. This is the way through its only for a few more days and each day gets better.
Peace

[LongerDays]

Read the thread right above yours (Hydrocodone withdrawal NO energy).  The responses could just as well be in response to your situation.  I think you'll get a lot of good information and reinforcement.

And the short answer is YES absolutely your energy will return, but it does take a little time.

Hang in there.

[ImGettingClean]

Britt459 posted a similar question; in fact, I believe she is also on day 3-4...

Energy will come back, PROMISE!! I'm on day 11 and compared to day 3-4, i feel a ZILLION times better...

Day 3-4, according to most, are the worst days and by day 5, you start feeling better. I, like you, begin the day feeling great and as I explained to my wife, around 4-5pm, I feel like my "energy fell of a cliff or hit a brick wall"...but, now that I think about it, it keeps getting less and less and more in-frequent as the days go by...

I know the cravings and the WDs are horrible, but you're doing GREAT!!! hang in there, not only for yourself, but your 2 little kids. You will get through this and your energy will come...it wont happen overnight, but it will come back..are you taking any supplements? They seem to be helping me...L-Tyrosine, Mutli-Vitamin, etc,,,,

Congrats on your 4th day...hang in there, the rough parts are almost over!