Alone and day 1.

[jibi07]

The hardest thing is fighting an addiction alone.... I have been taking perks... about 40 a day, for almost 2 years, and hiding it from everyone... I gave it up last summer for 17 days... the withdrawl was hell, pure hell, i swore i'd never go through that again... that was 5 months ago, yup been taking them pretty steady for the last 5 months again.... when i stopped for my 17 days i treated myself to a skydive, a celebration, something i wanted to do for a long time..... cravings got too much to deal with after that... here i am again... today is day 1.... the withdrawl is not as bad this time, no sweats, yet, not as lathargic, but having some pain in what feels like the kidney area... feeling really sorry for myself.... dont know what to do, dont know who to talk to..... wow, am i even making any sense??? Dont want to tell my husband, afraid of the consequences..... sister knows, dad knows, but they are addicts too so a lot of good that does me, haha... just dont know what to do, have already lost so much!! So sad!!!

[jibi07]

its funny how dogs know... i had surgery dec 13, my female stuck by my side till she knew i was feeling better.. and she is by me again, i guess she knows how i'm feeling, my male, not so much lol he's his own dog!

[jibi07]

D.. you are right on the money.. wish they never did either! ugh

[luvmy3girls]

not crazy at all!!!! it feels good to say it out loud period. whether its to yourself, or your dog. saying it out loud makes it real and is a great step in fighting this. dogs have a great sense in knowing when someone needs comfort. i know im a stranger but im proud of you. you dont get to hear that when going through something like this. im a 29 year old mom of 3. getting remarried in april. pills ruined my marriage. my ex husband choose them over us. in a moment of weakness and hurt i took one. he always seemed happy on them so why not try it out. well i fell in love with them. about 10 7.5s a day. im weaning myself off of them now slowly so i can try to avoid wds again. my fiance doesnt know. he sees me as the glue that holds our family together. super mom. so i understand where you come from 100%

[PorVida]

Not losing it at all my friend.  My dogs know my emotions better than any person!  When I was in detox they stuck close, were extra sweet and made it alot easier.

Just hang tough, every moment, minute and day that pass you never have to do this again.

[D713]

Hang in there bud..I know it's hard...wish they never made this devil pill...or pills regardless.

[jibi07]

ohhh my friend speech, ok i get it, i will try that, but i think i already know what he's going to say... my legs feel pretty good right now, but i'm still going to do the epsom salt bath tonight, then ice/heating pad, see how that helps... i normally take gravol to help me sleep, last night i took 5 and nothing... ok, so this may sound stupid but here goes... i went home for lunch today i have 2 shih tzus, my female gets up in my lap and snuggles in, i told her i was sick, and was not feelng well, told my dog i was fighting an addiction, she looked up at me and licked my face like she understood, actually felt good to tell my dog, LOL is that crazy??? Am i losing it? Thanks for the advice Luv!!