Ambien, Alcohol, Eating Disorder

[rpmcat]

I haven't taken Ambien for exactly 14 days.  I have also not had a drink for 14 days.  The problem is, they are the only two things I think about every waking minute.  I know I have an addiction - I have for five years now.  I've been really proud of myself for making it 14 days, but I feel like I'm going insane.  I also have an eating disorder, which only becomes more intense during these times.  I feel so alone.  So very, completely, utterly alone.  My husband doesn't understand and only gets upset when I'm depressed, which in turn worsens my depression.  I know this is something I have to do on my own, but God why does it have to be so hard?  I don't know what to do.  I can't even explain the aggravation and despair.  Any advice would be deeply appreciated ...

[kim715]

Hey hon,I just want to congratulate you on 14 days,thats great!!!!!!!!! I know what it feels like to feel alone,but you're not,you have us here.Mtgoat is right,find yourself some meetings,aftercare is so very important.The people here on this forum have helped me tremendously,by being here whenever I need them,but by also suggesting that I have some one on one contact with others who are going through and feeling the same things I am feeling,by attending meetings.Going to meetings make me feel so connected,so empowered.I highly suggest you get yourself to a meeting,and keep posting.We're all pulling for you.All the best....Peace...Kim

[njshar]

Hello rmpcat and boy does your post hit home.  I too have suffered from an eating disorder (buliminia) for a good four years, ending in 2006.  Yes the disorder is now dormant, I do not throw up after every meal.  What a great change.  I am writing this to you to let you know that someday you may recover from your ED.  I truly wanted to make a change, I was losing alot of my top teeth due to acid from vomiting.  At the time I was vomiting I didnt care one iota about my teeth.  They were in my mouth and doing just fine.  It wasnt until they started having to be pulled that I put the brakes on vomiting.  

I still have relapses on my other addictions, but I can honestly say that the ED was an easier behavior to change.  

I wish you the best.  I had to chime in when I read your post.  

njshar

[mtgoat911]

i am in recovery for addiction and eating disorder, i do na and oea
i am doing good with the addiction, havent relasped in 4yrs
but horrible with the eating disorder
but i havent given up,
dont worry about explaining all this to your husband, find some people who support you and want to help you in recovery
google an aa, na, or oea meeting to find one in your area
please dont feel alone in your pain, there are so many of us, just have to search for help
xo