This is a great place for support especially in the beginning. Often those (including me) find this site and immediately feel comfortable because in the beginning a lot of factors are against us. One of the biggest factors is having lost respect and faith from most people we know. We ask for one more chance as many times as we can get forgiven but there is always that last time and eventually noone believes in us. They can seem cold but they are just protecting themselves.
Then we find Medhelp and this is a chance to communicate with people who do not know our whole history. They have not lost faith in us becuase they know as I do what brings people here and have learned to be patient and kind with newcomers who are desperate for someone to be patient and kind to them. Don't worry about not being able to express yourself fully yet. That will come in time when you have had a clear mind for a bit.
Apologize I didn't know it posted my comment, I wrote the answer thinking it didn't go through. I'm sorry about that
I'm looking for happiness and peace. It may be a while before I get that on my own. I'm asking for support. I'm going to meetings in surrounding areas tonight, will find a sponsor. But I've been to 4 rehabs, 2 strictly detox centers. I'm no stranger to this, I watched my dad try and try and try.. Then I tried and tried. I know willpower isn't enough. Meetings last an hour, that leaves me with 23 alone. I don't know if your comment was intended to be rude or not, I assume not, but if your asking truly, then I'll tell you, happiness, peace, and extra support to strengthen my confidence and keep my reminded and a place to celebrate little things till I can achieve both on my own.. Thanks
I'm going to assume that you've just gotten out of a detox center. Did they NOT stress to you how important aftercare was going to be? This isn't a joke....it's real. This is where you get live, one on one support from people that understand exactly where you are? Are you attempting to do this only on willpower? Because if so, IMO your setting yourself up for possible failure. I understand you don't respond back, so I guess I wonder what your looking for? Now that the drugs(for the most part b/c I think it takes months if not years to truly get all of that **** out of our systems) are out of your system.....what are you looking for? Honestly, not being sarcastic, what do you want?
Hey Cj, I'm sorry you've had such a tough time. Many of the people here have been in the same place as far as the addiction part goes, myself included. You're making the right choice wanting to get clean. You're young and have your whole life ahead of you. You just have to keep pushing. Things will be better.