at my wits end

[witsend0603]

My husband and I have both been taking Lortab 10/500 for the last 2 years... it all started when he found a doc 2 yrs ago that gave them to him for a previous back surgery he had and has nerve damage due to that surgery... anyway, in Sept his doc left and now he has found a new one that is continuing his meds.  So it's a never ending cycle, get the pills, take them like crazy, run out, find someone to buy them from, try to ease us til the next refill is due... you know how it goes.. so on Sunday he went and got a few and we haven't had any for 3 days now... he seems to be functioning rather well but I am a mess.... earlier he got angry and yelled that he was done with giving me anything... Don't ever ask me for anything else and I am never going through this **** with you again.. but yet he's gonna keep getting them filled for himself anyway... I don't know what to do here... I know that this needs to stop but the urge is just too strong to call someone and see if they have any... none of my family or his knows about this problem and we don't want them to so we are just gonna have to stick it out with the 2 of us I guess...

[kona2009]

I feel your pain and know what it's like.  You have got to do this for you and the kids no matter what!!  I have a 5 and 8 year old and had to put an end to the pills because I don't want to lose my job, house, and everything I've worked for.  You have got to get thru this nightmare cause it will only get worse if you continue to use.  I hope your hubby wises up and figures out himself this drug makes us insane.  I will be pulling for you and hope things work for you.

Good Luck
Kona

[witsend0603]

Thanks so much for the post... it is nice to know you don't have to go through this alone.  I totally understand what you mean about the money.  My husband and I have also spend thousands.  We just refinanced our hous to try to get out of some of the credit card debt we were in and when income tax refund came in that money was supposed to be put back to take kids on a vacation.  Well here we are a couple weeks later and we've started dipping into that money now.  We keep telling ourselves we'll just work some overtime and put the money back but that never happens.. what is wrong with us that we can let a little pill control every aspect of our lives... I don't understand how I got here.....

[greeneyes1]

Hi.  Your story sounds similiar to mine.  I started getting my lorcet (and soma) from docs, then started buying on the streets because I would run out before it was time for a refill.  I've spent thousands of dollars in the last year.  I can't believe the money I've spent.  I have started weaning myself off today (I was taking up to 20 lorcet a day) and have stayed home from work because I feel like I've been hit by a train.  I just couldn't continue to use, and wasn't even feeling good from it anymore.  I had to take it just to feel normal...just to get through each day.  I hate that I let myself get so out of control.  I am battling this alone, because I can't tell my husband what I've done.  I can't tell him that I've wiped out the savings...I can only clean up my act and try to get some money back into the bank.  I know it will be a struggle, but at this point, I really see no other choice.  Anyway, it's nice to meet you, even under these unfortunate circumstances.  I hope we can both do this, my friend.  I think we deserve better than being prisoner to these pills.  Good luck to you, and please write anytime.  I will be here to listen.