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Approaching 24 hours!
Can everyone please tell me which hours were worst for them? I know I need to concentrate on the moment, but I definitely want to mentally prepare.
Thanks, and trust me I'll keep posting. This is the only thing keeping me going right now. I will be careful with what I take. The good thing is that I've never liked benzos at all. Tonight I am just going to try Zquil which has worked for me in the past. I'll keep you all posted.
Hello there! Congrats for embarking on your journey to freedom from the pills!
Be very careful overdoing it with sleep meds. Even OTC stuff mixed together can be dangerous, and actually, if you take a bunch of stuff like zquil (as per your other thread) and benadryl, especially mixed with a benzo, you very well may end up feeling worse. It's so very hard for people not to want to self medicate away all of the symptoms, but people get themselves in trouble that way. Sleep is one of the more troublesome symptom from what most report....most here say that it's best to just accept that sleep will be hard to come by for a while, and to try to let it come back naturally. The less mind altering substances (including alcohol) you take, the better.
We're all here cheering you on...keep posting, and start thinking about the plan you're going to put in place to guard your sobriety. Going through detox is bad enough as it is, but it's even worse if you're not doing the necessary things to KEEP yourself sober, making yourself have to face it over and over again. That's overwhelming and will kill your morale and desire to keep trying...that wears on you.
When you feel better, you can hit meetings, maybe find an addiction counselor (aftercare)...and for now, your top priority should be eliminating your sources. THAT HAS TPO BE NUMBER ONE! You just experienced first hand how that will blow up in your face if you don't do that.
The "friend" who gave you the vicodin, and everyone else who is a source should be told NO MORE by you. Lose their numbers if you have to. The early part of detox people are so very vulnerable, and they know that with just a couple of pills, all the discomfort goes away...even if they know they are relapsing and don't want to take them. You have to put as many roadblocks in place as you can. If you don't, having easy access will lead you to relapse time and time again.
Also, many (most) people are resistant to the idea of telling people they know about their addiction. While not an addict myself, I could totally understand that. I would probably feel the exact same way. I can tell you from working in the sub clinic, that the people who kept their secret had more issues. For one, they always felt more vulnerable, and when they were having a rough time, they felt alone and isolated. Also, the accountability factor is HUGE! People know deep down that the more people they tell, the more people they will have to answer to, which equates to them not being able to use when they want to and keep their secret. Many of them told stories of how that was one thing that, once they DID tell a person or two made a HUGE difference, as they had to be accountable to someone, had to be reminded that others knew, and couldn't use in secret (not as easily anyway). You don't have to shout it from the rooftops, but telling one or two trusted people will make such a difference for you...both in support and accountability.
Best to you...looking forward to watching your progress.
Be very careful overdoing it with sleep meds. Even OTC stuff mixed together can be dangerous, and actually, if you take a bunch of stuff like zquil (as per your other thread) and benadryl, especially mixed with a benzo, you very well may end up feeling worse. It's so very hard for people not to want to self medicate away all of the symptoms, but people get themselves in trouble that way. Sleep is one of the more troublesome symptom from what most report....most here say that it's best to just accept that sleep will be hard to come by for a while, and to try to let it come back naturally. The less mind altering substances (including alcohol) you take, the better.
We're all here cheering you on...keep posting, and start thinking about the plan you're going to put in place to guard your sobriety. Going through detox is bad enough as it is, but it's even worse if you're not doing the necessary things to KEEP yourself sober, making yourself have to face it over and over again. That's overwhelming and will kill your morale and desire to keep trying...that wears on you.
When you feel better, you can hit meetings, maybe find an addiction counselor (aftercare)...and for now, your top priority should be eliminating your sources. THAT HAS TPO BE NUMBER ONE! You just experienced first hand how that will blow up in your face if you don't do that.
The "friend" who gave you the vicodin, and everyone else who is a source should be told NO MORE by you. Lose their numbers if you have to. The early part of detox people are so very vulnerable, and they know that with just a couple of pills, all the discomfort goes away...even if they know they are relapsing and don't want to take them. You have to put as many roadblocks in place as you can. If you don't, having easy access will lead you to relapse time and time again.
Also, many (most) people are resistant to the idea of telling people they know about their addiction. While not an addict myself, I could totally understand that. I would probably feel the exact same way. I can tell you from working in the sub clinic, that the people who kept their secret had more issues. For one, they always felt more vulnerable, and when they were having a rough time, they felt alone and isolated. Also, the accountability factor is HUGE! People know deep down that the more people they tell, the more people they will have to answer to, which equates to them not being able to use when they want to and keep their secret. Many of them told stories of how that was one thing that, once they DID tell a person or two made a HUGE difference, as they had to be accountable to someone, had to be reminded that others knew, and couldn't use in secret (not as easily anyway). You don't have to shout it from the rooftops, but telling one or two trusted people will make such a difference for you...both in support and accountability.
Best to you...looking forward to watching your progress.
yea the anxiety su*ked for sure!! i never had it before either....i would have it at work (cuz my boss is crazy) and i'd be fine when i got home....now it's evened out and pretty much gone....i go to work now and say "no wonder i self medicated all these years working here" LOL hope you are feeling better....and you get some good rest tonight....i'm sure we will be here
Haha, I've never been in anxious person in the past. But who knows now, I've been using for years as well. Maybe I have developed anxiety? I've always been easy going, but the unknown is scary...you all are helping me tremendously with this. Otherwise I would've bought more already.
You guys the anxiety and the dang restless leg were the worst for me. I hated the night time because I knew I wasn't going to sleep, and the restless leg would set in, and my anxiety would go sky high. I was anxious all day but it was like at 7pm someone would flip a switch and it would be a thousand times worse. I think I kinda psyched myself into feeling that way.
Pablo, my friend. You and I are so similar it's amazing. You have the exact level of anxiety as I do. OMG, I just thought of something. As you know, I have like, what 98 hrs now, and still feeling lethargic. And I'm so anxious and pissed: I want to feel perfect NOW. Right the F NOW!!! Isn't that the same damn mindset as using pills: I need them RIGHT NOW!!! What is it w/ us and anxiety? Why can't we (everyone) just chill and realize that life comes w/ discomfort? Why? Right now this has just hit me like a ton of bricks. We've all been using for God knows how long (at least 5 years for me) and I want to be skipping down the street after 98 hrs of clean time. Where's my patience? I'm saying this for us and our dumb anxiety.
Does this make sense? Screw our anxiety!!!
Someone on here told me anxiety is just gonna make it worse and can I find a way to chill, as hard as that is. Try try try to distract yourself. It's soo hard. I'm gonna walk my dog right now and it feels like a big deal (How pathetic!)
Does this make sense? Screw our anxiety!!!
Someone on here told me anxiety is just gonna make it worse and can I find a way to chill, as hard as that is. Try try try to distract yourself. It's soo hard. I'm gonna walk my dog right now and it feels like a big deal (How pathetic!)
Good to know. So far this hasn't been as bad as I imagined. I usually set myself up for the worst, which is my MO. It helps me to prepare for the worst and hope for the best. So far everything is manageable. I took some immodium and a tiny piece of a xanax. Gonna medicate with sleep meds before bedtime.
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