to avoid family who is on the wrong side

[zoea]

Hit my day 4 clean. Feeling ok. Still craving a bit. But my best friends r still on it. I did not speak to them for 3.years and was good. Not that Im blaming them at all. Back in touch 6 months ago was on it until 4 days ago. Scary thinking of how much money and body was.put through.
Question is whenever we speak like just now. My craving r terrible. My mind goes blank and all i want is my coke. So.Im posting instead of ringing my guy. I don't wanna loose friends as I've known them for 30 years. Sorry for the ramble x

[zoea]

Xxx

[all_alone1]

keep posting girl...we are here for you every step of the way..

[zoea]

This forum is my recovery program lol. Can't get to any as no one knows what I've been doing. Hence why i keep posting lol. Everyone thinks I've been clean for months. My friends were the first ones i used with when i had a family problem 7 years ago.
Im going to do my best.

Thank u all.
Zoe

[all_alone1]

yes being around friends does trigger emotions and habbits that were shared.... good or bad....and like lulu i am proud that you wrote us insted...we are here for you..talk and vent it helps ALOT....and we dont mind hearing at all.

angie

[lulu747]

Zoe...
I'm proud of you for posting instead of ringing...
You keep making choices to guard your sobriety and you stay clean.  I know it's tough to have long time friends that are using.  You need to guard your sobriety at ALL costs right now.  I'm not saying you have to cut them out of your life...But for now-you need to take care of yourself...And if talking to them makes you want to use, it's probably best for you not to talk until you have some more clean time under your belt.  If they are true friends then they will understand, and perhaps be inspired by your strength and self-love.  Are you doing any recovery care?

Stay strong....And be proud of the brave choices that you are making.  Stay in the moment and keep working towards your recovery.
You are worth it...
Lu