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day 11 ct 110mgs methadone
I think someone is knocking at the door and it may be a ray of sunshine, happiness and energy definitely got me to clean the kitchen today! I'm feeling 70% better than yesterday minus the 4 hours of sleep I got probably due to my snoring fiancé but **** I've been to work on zero sleep before so today should be fine. Still getting chills although they have subsided substantially. Anyone suffering today keep on pushing.. Please. Find someone or something inside to fight for! Every day for me now is a miracle. I did not did not did NOT think I'd ever be feeling any better or even go 2 days without going to the clinic. **** that clinic man I wanna go in there on a Saturday when the lines are super long and stand on a chair and preach some inspiration to my fellow addicts! I have more faith than ever now. I'm beginning to believe again. Knowing tomorrow will be even better is more motivation. 10 days of hell but this one is going to be good so I will savor it, who knows what tomorrow may bring. Xo-kristen
Hey girl how goes it Iknow you work and so do I but if you can keep the faith you will get past this and someday it will be a distant memory just so you know...you have had the best withdrawal from this high of dose that I have ever seen it usually is cramps throwing up mind bending anxiety absoluly no sleep and the real kicker the energy crash now I know you have had sevel symptoms but your beating this thing remember there will be good days and bad days but the more time you put in the better you will feel remember it is all about baby steps keep pushing forward and keep posting we have several methadoiniens watching you good luck and God bless...................................Gnarly................................................
i really want to give you a thorough answer right now, and I will come back to it. I just want to tell you atm, that you are not alone. I am going through the same thing you are as the taper. I can tell you that I began feeling waves of intense w/d even at 40mg! I am down to 9 now and the light is at the end of the tunnel. I will say that banishing negative thoughts and keeping a positive attitude is a huge weapon. I realize this sounds crazy to think it can help when you are in so much pain, but you are feeling more pain that a normal person would feel as a result of circumventing your body's own natural pain reliving systems for that long. I have been on methadone for 14 years, so I am speaking from having been there.
There are some things that you need to do at whatever level you can. You have to have something to look forward to once you're off. Try to look at each decrease as one step closer to your goal, and not as less methadone. Change negatives to positives in your mind and repeat that to yourself over and over. Things that are repeated, are not only liked more, but they are also seen as true (validity effect in action). Essentially you have to retrain your entire way of thinking and it's damn hard.
You think of yourself as strong stuff. You use everything at your disposal to fight this beast, and realize that you ARE tougher than methadone. Weapons in your arsenal are going to include heating pads, hot baths, music, EXERCISE to whatever extent you can manage, and I can't stress that part enough, some creative outlet if you have anything you're passionate about, proper nutrition is so much more important than people realize, and you can try various supplements to help that along like protein powder, potassium for RLS, vitamins ofc, adrenal plus, and L-tyrosine have helped me a lot.
I wish I could say more but i must go... I will check back with you.
Oh one more thing... enlist EVERYONE in your life to help. This is positive support and it's so key. This is why N/A works if you work it. Rarely can people do it alone.
The physical and emotional pain you feel is something we all go through when in W/D to some degree. I get that injured people have it worse, and I think you just have to take non-opiate pain options like NSAIDS. You also have to strengthen yourself so that the pain is not as bad. Your body does repair in time, but it's a process.
We can definitely do this!
There are some things that you need to do at whatever level you can. You have to have something to look forward to once you're off. Try to look at each decrease as one step closer to your goal, and not as less methadone. Change negatives to positives in your mind and repeat that to yourself over and over. Things that are repeated, are not only liked more, but they are also seen as true (validity effect in action). Essentially you have to retrain your entire way of thinking and it's damn hard.
You think of yourself as strong stuff. You use everything at your disposal to fight this beast, and realize that you ARE tougher than methadone. Weapons in your arsenal are going to include heating pads, hot baths, music, EXERCISE to whatever extent you can manage, and I can't stress that part enough, some creative outlet if you have anything you're passionate about, proper nutrition is so much more important than people realize, and you can try various supplements to help that along like protein powder, potassium for RLS, vitamins ofc, adrenal plus, and L-tyrosine have helped me a lot.
I wish I could say more but i must go... I will check back with you.
Oh one more thing... enlist EVERYONE in your life to help. This is positive support and it's so key. This is why N/A works if you work it. Rarely can people do it alone.
The physical and emotional pain you feel is something we all go through when in W/D to some degree. I get that injured people have it worse, and I think you just have to take non-opiate pain options like NSAIDS. You also have to strengthen yourself so that the pain is not as bad. Your body does repair in time, but it's a process.
We can definitely do this!
I've had this same back problem and I am sure yours is more intense. It does seem like the kidneys bc of the location of my pain, and also I have heard how opiates screw up the adrenal glands. I notice it feels worse if I can't sleep for days and worse when I stress. I got the adrenal plus supps and L-tyrosine and this has been the best week in 3 that I have had with my taper. I recommend going to the doctor if you have insurance, but always make an informed decision on any new medications and supplements so you don't go into it the same way you did into your opiate use...pretty much not realizing how horrific it can be.
I posted my own.Did not realize this was for someone elses question.Gnarly please read and give me some advise.Have followed you and trust you know what you talk about.Thanks
Hi, I have been reading these posts and would like to ask for some help.I have tapered from 100 mgs - 30.The last couple weeks have been hard.Tomorrow I go to 25 mgs.My plan is to keep going for at least 2 more months.I'm going to go get the cal/magn,protein drinks and other stuff I have read about here.When I first went to the clinic 2 years ago I was convinced by them it was to be a slice of heaven.I havent been on anything but methadone since I started going.My Family convinced me that my pain was all in my head.I decided that I didnt need pain meds anymore,so off I went,joined the program and started paying 98.00 a week.Now,my counselor at clinic tells me I am a perfect candidate for pain meds.lol.I repeat.lol...So I am supposed to forget about the last 2 years and go back.This is my problem ,I am in so much pain,sometimes I dont want to get up at all.I have been fighting for disability to have 3 surgeries.Im scared to go back to meds.I have made 2 appts that I canceled. Please give me some feedback.I dont know what to do.Oh yeah,Im 53 have worked my butt off til 4 years ago,when I got injured.
I'm OK gnarly.. still truckin. I'm still getting chills pretty bad sweats and my back just radiates pain throughout if I stand for too long which doesn't work well with my job. I start school tomorrow morning at 8 so I'm hoping I get an OK amount of sleep in. I guess today is my 2 week marker though (Monday that is). I felt some sunshine a couple days ago so I know it's there... I'm going to be proactive this week.. I spoke with my mother about what's been going on so now I have her support which feels better, I'm going to try again to get back in to see my counselor... I'll be school and work full time starting tomorrow. I could start in august but it's just a 5 month course and I think I should be able to push myself through this.. I am concerned a bit about my kidneys maybe ? I haven't been urinating a whole lot... and the back pain. I think I should get some blood work done to ease my mind bc I'm paranoid now and really just think something isn't right. Could be psyching myself out though. It's too far in to it to go back to methadone. I did go out and have a couple of drinks on Saturday night which probably wasn't the best idea but I was feeling like crap and just getting out and socializing helped. I need to watch myself with alcohol too though , I need to play it smart and keep being tough. Thanks for checking up on me today. You're a good guy and I appreciate all you do. It makes me feel good when I get a comment really from anyone but esp someone who has been there done that. I'm gonna try to doze off for a few.
HI just checking, are you ok please let us know your ok this drug has a bad habit of making people go back because of how bad you feel without it just know you can do this your alredy past the detox or at least close to it as for the energy crash I could hardly get of the couch to go to the bathroom so try to pace yourself keep posting.....Gnarly
HI K:
it's so nice to see you having a great day and that ray of sunshine! That's something we all live for... the good days. I feel the way you do about those damn clinics. Especially the ones that rake in the cash and have virtually no oversight. It's horrific.
I just wanted to offer you my continued support in your recovery. You've been through the wringer to be sure.
Haha, I don't really like Eminem, but his song "Not Afraid" is a powerful song about addiction and recovery and I was just thinking of you riding past that clinic and giving them the middle finger lol
You go girl! You have definitely got this!
it's so nice to see you having a great day and that ray of sunshine! That's something we all live for... the good days. I feel the way you do about those damn clinics. Especially the ones that rake in the cash and have virtually no oversight. It's horrific.
I just wanted to offer you my continued support in your recovery. You've been through the wringer to be sure.
Haha, I don't really like Eminem, but his song "Not Afraid" is a powerful song about addiction and recovery and I was just thinking of you riding past that clinic and giving them the middle finger lol
You go girl! You have definitely got this!
Hi well I hope you dont read this until morning but it sounds like you had one of those days....methadone is very cyclic just when you think you got it beat it comes back with a vengeance there is no to withdrawals the same on this stuff everybody is different for me it was the restless legs that where my worst symptom that and the lack of sleep and anxiety for others like you it has been unable to eat and lower back pain you just got to know it gets better just hang in there you dont have to have another bad day tomorrow just because today s ucked every day is different and each will come with victory's as well as pitfalls as far as detoxes go your really are doing great i know that is hard to believe but I help out a lot of methadonians and you have been a real trouper I am a firm believer prayer works so will your up pray to God it worked for me. any ways keep posting for support we all want to see you get well. good luck and God bless...................Gnarly.....................................
Not feeling too good gnarly... went home from work early my body hurt so bad. I had to keep sitting down my entire back hurts. I am at least eating a lot more today than I have been able to the past few days... trying not to lose hope. Thanks for checking on me. The nights are growing longer and longer and every minute feels like an hour.
I'm on the clinic and really want to get of but scared of the withdrawal I mean I was on before 11 months and went cold turkey of 90 mg only cause I went to jail but I didn't wothdrawl at all really a week into I didn't sleep well but that's it ! This time I'm on the outside and I'm scared of withdrawal ! I've gained so much weight on this stuff I want off. Bad
Hey girl go to see your feeling a bit better recovery is not a instant thing it take time it is ok to mesure progress in day even hours for sleep try not to get discouraged and now is the time to start exorsizing even if it is only a round the block walking you kinda have to force your self to do this the energy crash is worst from methadone then all the other pills I remember telling my drug counselor that I should be better for 6 mo clean he always gave me encouragement and told me it would be a process so always thank God for even a little improvement keep posting for support and just know you can do if I can and it is so so worth it...........Gnarly
I agree completely, I joined mmt thinking I would be on the road to recovery in a couple of weeks.. totally not the case. These clinics out there are ruining lives and are telling us the wrong information about methadone treatment.
So glad you'remfeeling better. I wish you could preach to those lining up for their methadone. It seems like most people aren'tmgiven full disclosure before starting it.
Hi wel it sounds like your threw the initial detox ...just keep pushing threw the protein shakes will help with energy so still drink 2 a day and just remember sleep is the last thing to come back 4hr is grat for where you are at your beating this thing one day at a time keep up the fight god luck and God bless..............Gnarly.............
Yay! So happy to hear you're doing well! I think a good, positive, hopeful attitude can do wonders when going thru this!
You're definitely an inspiration to me!!
I'm doing a taper right now and i hit lucky number 16 (mg) today! I'm decreasing 1mg every week.
If you can do it, so can I...
Congratulations on day 11!!!!
You're definitely an inspiration to me!!
I'm doing a taper right now and i hit lucky number 16 (mg) today! I'm decreasing 1mg every week.
If you can do it, so can I...
Congratulations on day 11!!!!
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