CONFUSION ABOUT SUBOXONE?!

[oxyaddict420]

  Here is what I can tell you based on why I am going to be on suboxone!

I have been using and abusing(mainly abusing) painkillers for 10 years or so now.  So many painkillers have apap(tylenol) and when an addict is abusing 30-40 pills per day, day after day that can be deadly!  That is only 1 reason.  I also spend tons of money on meds even when I was getting them through a DR script i was spengind over $200.00 per month, but without it is more like 500-600 each month..  Suboxone can be used in different ways for different people, for different reasons, and goals!  What you see alot of on here is people using it as a quick acting detox tool, but when they stay on it too long or take too much then they get withdrawl from it, and it seems to be just exchanging one drug to another right?

Well, in my case I have actual pain that is usually my #1 reason for relapsing, then I have others as well and then once I get them I abuse them.  With the suboxone you cannot get high, or a buzz from overtaking them. Also if you take other painkillers while on them the naloxone which is the other ingredient in suboxone, will block the painkillers affects.  so you wont get a high or a buzz if you taker a 80mg oxycontin when on suboxone.. Plus Many many people have stated that it takes away the cravings for the other painkillers, and lets them get back to day to day life activities that they were not able to partake in due to the abuse of painkillers and the sickness without them..  So if I was to be on this for the rest of my life that would be better than abusing these painkillers and risking my life, and then spending my rent money, bill money and every other cent we have to get high...  ALL AROUND THIS IS THE BEST THING FOR ME! AND MANY OTHERS!

When I can get a job and hold it down after getting on suboxone and bringing in money to help my 14yr relationsship then that will be a start.. Then I will also get my many other goals going strong as well, which I CANNOT DO ON PAINKILLERS!  So it can do many positive things for me and many others.. Then down the line when things are better and more productive (ALONG WITH MY AFTERCARE, AND ADDICTION COUNSELING) I can worry about tapering down off the sub very slowly, and that will be my ONE AND ONLY LAST DETOX FOR LIFE!  Then I will have the tools to be able to stay clean and have more tolls to help identify with the reasons, and triggers as to why I abuse..  

This is just what I am using it for, and for many others they just want something for a quick detox off opiates.. That is not what I am speaking of just to be real clear!!

HOPE THIS HELPS!!

[allaboutmary]

Your gonna do fine !  I just know it.  You have a whole plan set in place and did your homework. As always my best wishes to you.   Mary

[oxyaddict420]

Thanks so much.. You wre a big insperation int he beginning when I first came here and posted.. I opened up so fast and then wrote 4 VERY PERSONAL PERSONAL JOURNAL POSTS!  I hit a point where certian @ssholes who I will not name were doing nothing but bashing me for being honest and not lying and being fake about my addiction, and it was like a mini-war.. Rediculous.. So I deleted everything and left for a couple weeks.. I only came back after I recieved like 20+ PM's making me feel so wanted.. So I started back out with only PM's those people and basically lurking around here.  Finally it hit me like a ton of bricks..

This is not high school, or some frat club where people gang up togather to see who is best correct, or who has more friends to say there are right or wrong. This place (for me) is a place to get real, get honest about my addiction as ugly and brutal as it may be.. Certain people just could not stand hearing my truths, and my real life addiction unless I sugar coated it for everyone to accept it.. Well that is not what this is here for..  So since then I have been posting alot more, and trying to give back for all that I have recieved.  Im glad to see ya back around!

CONGRATS ON BEING CLEAN SO LONG!!!

[FLaddict]

Now I remember.. Sorry.. So many people come through here its hard to keep em all straight when you have been here as long as I have.

Best of Luck to you..
XOXO

PS I try to check my Pm's at least once a week so if you need something of just want to chat

[oxyaddict420]

Wow, I take it you didn't read my first 2 posts or you might have remembered me.lol

I know you haven't been around lately but I do remember us having alot of chats a while back though when I first found the site and was sick.. You also gave me some of the great info on the suboxone that has helped me decide on what I am going to do and why! So thanks foe the info and the PM's when I was first on here.. I can't believe you don't remember me..  I was taking 300-600mg of oxycodone per day and I have been abusing pills for many many years..  anyway, you gave me some great info and I appriciate it.. Thanks

[FLaddict]

Hi there.. I don't post much anymore but I have been a member here for over a year and clean for almost 8 months with much help from this site.  In my journal there is a Sub FAQ written by a patients experience,  in order to give another perspective on this subject. I also have chronic pain and used Sub. I took it for 10 days to detox. With Sub I truely believe "less is more" after my personal experience and those of others. I researched Sub endlessly before taking that route.
I hope this helps.

[oxyaddict420]

Keep in mind too that addiction is a very serious disease, and lets say you try to quit tapering or c/t or whatever right?  Well, then if for some reason you were to take a pill, or a few pills suring your attempt at getting clean, that DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE FAILED!  I just dont want you to feel you only have 1 shot at it or its a complete failure. Alot of very knowledgable people on this site that post everyday and help many people have also replapsed many times even. This does not mean they have failed. It just means that for that one battle the pills got the best of them, but in the end they will WIN THE WAR!  So I am not saying to set yourself up for dissapointment, and I am not saying it is OK to just popp pillls.. I am saying it can be VERY HARD!  and for people that are only doing this for the first time or first few times even they can have unreaklistic expectations of recovery too.  Just work at it, and make sure to stick around and keep reading and psoting as well.  You are a good person that just needs some support to help get, and STAY CLEAN!

YOU CAN DO IT

I CARE