Can I do this without hospitalization?

[lynnalb15]

Im so sick. My body has never hurt this bad. Methadone is the devil!!! I'll never go back! Only day 4 and I'm going thru it!!! But my vision is oing bad I keep blacking out! What do I do? I have a baby to worry about. I'm scared I'm going to pass out!! But if I go to the hospital won't I get in trouble. I'm an addict and a mom. :/ I will die if she were to ever get taken. I will never go back but can this be fatal?

[newlifeahead]

hi u r NOT a bad mom a bad mom would continue the drugs and NOT admit she had a problem u rgetting help to get clean and that makes u the BEST mom... i too am a mommy of a 11 month old and am 33 days clean from perc's/vic's... it is a rough road i didnt take the methadone but hear it is pretty rough because of the long shelf life it stays in ur system longer causing longer w/d's. Just stay the coarse and stay strong USE this site to vent or get through every min u have too it WILL help. I know u dont feel like it but force urself to even get a little walk in as it really helps. Take some vitamins off the thomas recipe they do help a lot too. Soak in baths i was taking like 5 baths a day while w/ding. Make sure u DOOOO drink LOTS of water and gatorade if u get dehydrated it makes symptoms TEN times worse and the water helps flush the drugs out faster. I LOVED peeing so much i literally felt like i could feel the drugs leaving my body:) ur determined adn that is what it takes to do this. I am impressed u didnt take the sedatives most people want whatever they can get to feel better but in the end it will pay off for u taking other things really just mask the symptoms but u still have to go through it and u take the chances of getting hoocked on something else. Try and stay active idol time does NOT help i cleaned alot even tho if elt like i couldnt even stand. It takes a while i still have rough days but i am clean:) everyone on here is ALWAYS in my prayers everyday... i know what it is like and God knows too He will help u through it if u will lean on Him... i will be watching for ur post post as MUCH as u need to it will help and there r lots of people on here even people who r reading but have not yet mustered up the courage to start their journey so u can help people w out even knowing..

[Innerstrength67]

You can do this one hour at a time. Your an addict not a terrible person. We have al felt that way. Try and be gentle with yourself. Show yourself the love you show your baby.
Seriously, we know this is hard but it's doable, one day at a time..ok
Big hugzz!!!

[lynnalb15]

It's the generic form of that I think she said. And yes he has off this weekend so it will
Make it easier. Yes she asked how my daughter was seeing as how she has not seen me since I had her. But said nothing after that except can you get help until your feeling well. It was a surprise to me that I didn't get a huge lecture. I'm still scared she may report me. But for now that even more of a reason to stay clean. To prove to everyone I wana be a great mom.

[Ann2497]

So that is good news.  I guess the baby didn't come up at the ER and there are no issues?  Can your boyfriend/mom help over the next couple weeks?  As Sara said - are you eating and drinking?  What kind of blood pressure meds did you get?   Clonidine is a blood pressure med that is helpful with opiate WD.  It would be good if that is what you got.

[lynnalb15]

Went to the dr. My blood pressure was high so she gave me meds for that and wanted to prescribe me a sedative to sleep and help my muscles. And Would u believe it I said no. I'm done with this crap. I wana no drugs. I'm so so so done. Baby is still with my mom till boyfriend gets off work. So she's safe. And im making my way thru this torture.

[Ann2497]

Hi - you are a great mom - you were sacrificing yourself because you were afraid your daughter would be taken from you.  I hope you didn't have to talk about her at the E/R.  You got her to your mom's ASAP and that shows how much you cared for her.  Taking care of any child during WDs is very difficult, let alone a baby.  I had to take care of a 9 year old and I thought that was tough.  I can't imagine a baby and WD from a high amount of Meth is just impossible to imagine.  I just really hope your mom can help.  I will be thinking about you.  Please let us know how you are doing.  I will be thinking about you.  Blessings......