Here i go crying like a baby again!!

[bandnmom]

So as you all now i have been having a terrible couple days. Didnt think it could get any worse. Well it did!! Everyone was so nice and supportive to me today. Well i had some oral surgery done about a year ago and it was starting to give me some problems so i called and made an appointment. Forgot it was for today. So in the middle of my melt down and cravings today they call to remind me of my appointment. WTF!!! so I go,  i have to have it all redone which is a terrible process and when he hands me the script for my antibiotic OMG there is a script for my Vicodins! I take it nicely, knowing i shouldn't. Of all days..right!! Well i call Chris (ty chris) and he talks to me. Yes i go to get RX filled but i did not take the script for the Vicodins. I wanted to so bad!!! I cried on the phone on my way home.Why can't i be normal? When does this end? Why does it seems i am always being tested? Why when I am in pain do i have to suffer? The answer...because i am an addict! I screwed up! Now I am paying the price!
Tomorrow i am 7 months clean!! How great! I don't want to screw this up. If i did every time i look at GTMI tracker it will be a smack in the face! I am trying to be strong. Its so hard. Any words of encouragement are greatly appreciated.
Thank you to everyone today for all the help! I owe you all big time. I know i will make it threw this! Day by day..right?
I think i am done being a baby now! Feels good to write it all down! Thanks again!! I think i have complained enough today to all of you to cover at least a year! LOL!!!

[dominosarah]

You would of had more than a cramp if you would of seen me going over!!!!!!  LMAO!!!

[bandnmom]

i am so waving back!! LMAO!!!!! thanks sara..you rock! but just so u know..i havea cramp in my neck from looking up all night waiting for you and your umbrella to arrive! LOL

[dominosarah]

I got the kazoo going!!!!!!  Congrats on 7 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  You go girl!!!!!  Im waving at you now!!!!!!  Your not waving back......................!!!!!!!      Congrats on 7 months.  That is quite the accomplishment.  I am proud of you!!!!!                sara

[sadinmichigan]

Congratulations !!!!!!!!! Whooo hooooooo.7 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!♥

[bandnmom]

thank you...thank you..thank you!! i more minute and its 7 months!! my post today will be way better thanks to all the help i got from my riends today!

[dominosarah]

I am proud of you for not filling that script.  Took alot of strength and courage.  Be proud of that.  Tomorrow will be a new day and this day will be gone.....thank god!!!!  Its almost time to get out the bells and whistles.......7 months!!!!!!  When it gets tough look up and you will see me flying over giving you a big smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!         sara

[sadinmichigan]

I am sorry that everthing is raining down on you right now..You didn't fill them .. that is what counts. You have gone through alot and remained strong. That is one of the things I immediately loved about you. You have a great outlook on alot of things. We are all going to have those tests. Keep posting,you have alot on your plate right now. i am here for you my friend..Love ya and big HUGS  Lisa

[bandnmom]

thanks GTMI!!! Tomorrow..7 months for us!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

I am so sorry this has been so rough. Do you realize what a strong decision you made today? You could have easily filled that script. But you chose to fight it. Way to go! I am proud of you.

[bandnmom]

thank you everyone!! i am so thankful for all my friends here. You have no idea how much you all meen to me!!

[joann1975]

sorry things have been so rough for you.... here if you need me... things will get better and yes, i know that doesn't really help right now....but they do!
joann

[bobby139]

sorry that you are having such a hard time this weekend it sounds like, i just got back and dont know all that has gone on this weekend it will take some time to ck on everything but wanted to jump on real fast and give ya alittle support...I know what your going though i almost got a script myself filled last week, some of those cravings are killers man they take ya down...I am so glad you didnt get them filled cuz ya know it would make it better for about a half hr or so then your going to have to take tons agian so a half hr of feeling alitle better isnt worth it...when it comes time for your procedure we will all get ya though it... hang in there girl....am here if ya need me...K...
much love
bobby

[lifesaride]

WAY TO GO! YOU BIG BABY

[EmilyPost]

You did the right thing!

It's ok to congratulate yourself and even feel proud of yourself for NOT taking your DOC when it was handed to you on a silver platter. Seems like you are beating yourself up alot here. I just want to let you know that it's going to be ok.

You did the right thing in an honorable and true way.

It doesn't matter what thoughts you had. ACTIONS you know? Right ACTION! And you did that! So I think you did great.

Having dental work done is exhausting period. So let your mind relax, rest, let yourself breathe and be even grateful that you didn'y fill that script.

Lots of encouragement and lots of love coming your way from me!
Emily

[gizzy32]

well you did the right thing. i still think it should just be ripped up, easier said than done. just keep thinking 7 months tomorrow and this will pass. sorry about the rough time your having right now. seems a lot of people are struggling this weekend :(