Cocaine relapse,its scary

[johnnykelly]

If all the drugs i do,i am a completely powerless when i do crack cocaine,or injectable cocaine.The trigger thei time was getting some unexspected money 500.00. the good part was i paid a 200.00 credit card bill,buy i couldnt go grocery shopping,or go for a workout at the gym,no,no, I had to go to this sleazy apartment tenaments,and bang 2or 3 hours later im going home all paranoid,in a dangerous area where bad-guys pickup on a person in a victim stance.I comtinued the next day,only this time at my own place. There are this guy and gal that live directly above and last night i did a BANG and all HELL broke LOOSE with these 2 A@@holes it went on for enough time for me to get the balls to go up-stairs,and if they where doing this on purpose,I Would of FQCKeds them both up. i know this might not of happened if if wasent on cocaine,but if A@@holes think they can FQQK with us when we are in that condition and get there Chuckles,THats how they get Stabbed,Shot etc.

[kris123]

You know what I went to DC and got crack for a friend and coke for myself - had a guy jump in my car and he made me give him what I bought - I was ripped of lots of times in DC - DC they stand on streets and I had to get out of my car - that is crazy - i went in the hood and got it - i had my phone taken - it was crazy - to this day i am thankful i have my life.  I have been desperate many times to find coke - i would wake wondering where the **** was i going to get it - you are not alone love

[newmanagment]

JK, i know your pain bor, seems like eva time i get high on dope someone is tryin to take advantage of me. either tryin to short me on a purchase, laugh at me cuz im using, and one time i had my door kicked in while out on a binge. please dont act like me bro, ya will wind up in DOC for sure. and the best way to not be taken advantage of , for me ne way, is to realize that people would NEVER pull that **** wit me when im not high! can ya do me a favor n send me a pm or post on here so i know ya is ok? i been gang bangin and into rox for 25 years bro, nothin you have done or could do would make me judge ya, and sometimes it helps to have an understandin ear to bend, ya feel me? much love......

[poetrygirl1960]

I'm so sorry about this.  We would walk through fire for our drug of choice wouldn't we?  The good new is you came back and your safe.  Welcome back John and I will be praying for your recovery.

[Penelope14]

John, I had some probems with this drug also, Im originally from the Bay Area { San Fran} { San Jose}, & the group of people I hung out with always had mass quanitys of this drug & as a young female I never paid a dime for it but paid for it emotionally, as I found myself going down the wrong path, & luckily I ended up having a severe panic attack from staying awake for 2 days on this stuff & headed to the ER, I thought I was having a heart attack, as bad as the attack was it scared me away from this drug & have never touched it again since, but I do remember the feeling I had when on it, it was like I could do anything & say anything, I thought I felt great, but It had a ugly backlash as all drugs do. Relapse is scary & very common among all of us so dont let this one time make you give up as I do believe that you are strong enough to break out of this funk your in.   Penelope    PS, In one of your post replys you mentioned that I was already detoxed, can you break that down a bit for me? As Im not sure I understood. PSS Im done with methadone next week, finally!

[gizzy32]

johnny, did you call that number i gave you, never heard back from you about the rehab. i just want you to know this can be done.

[what2donow]

I think its amazing how we put ourselfs into dangerious situations for these drugs.I feel ya and I know where your comming from I have been at the ghetto drug apartments to get pills.I have also been robbed there and had a gun pulled on me there.I swore to myself I would never go back and what do I do when I get desperate??Go right on over.I dont know where your at and what you want to do with your addiction, but be careful.Life is precious and pills/crack/coke isnt worth all of this ya know?
Goodluck