Day 4

[Jen629]

finally got a few hours fo sleep, just woke up with the tv blaring! very long night. all i did was walk around, i hope when my body stops moving around i will be able to kick back a little, but i am sure i will be exhausted. how is everyone else today?

[peaceinknowing]

I'm truly glad to hear that you were able to get the medical assistance you needed from your PCP, because like I keep saying, I know what it's like not to have any support what so ever from medical personel.

[peaceinknowing]

Once again, here I was thinking I was alone in something -- and that is my newfound addiction to the show Nurse Jackie. The moment I started to follow that show, I've TiVo'ed it every week and laughed my way through a lot of my "bad feelings" when it came to my addiction to Percocet. I can only imagine what a lot of the doctors and nurses out there are doing when they're on the clock. Working as a Pharmacy Technician in the past, I've definately heard my fair share of horror stories when it comes to the doctors and nurses that work in the ER, especially. HAHAHA!

[skrillie]

hey there! how you been? yeah, it was so scary to tell the Dr. "im an addict" but he reassured me that he was there to help and not get me in trouble with the DEA. it made me feel better to actually tell someone i was an addict

[skrillie]

im feeling pretty good today. no more hot/cold flashes, more sleep than the first few days but still not a whole night, and my back aches a little. its nothing horrible though. i just keep thinking about tomorrow and how great i should feel then. keep your head up!!

[123456m]

Wow that really ***** best thing to do is what Nurse Jackie would do find those docs cars and put whole in their tire lol I would do at least 2 so a tow truck call would be needed but thats just me. I hate ppl thta make those kinds of judgment calls meanwhile they go on their smoke breaks and probabaly pay a visit to the hospital phramcy now and then.
Yes their are good doctors thank god. I found that 1st year residents are normally good guys been out of med school not that long and understand the party scene more than a 60 year old lizard throat old school doc but some of then might surprise. My favorite doctor semi-retired 70 years old but very much there and in great shape loves to have little parties and a great
psychiatrist who knows his drugs so well for his patients which is rare.
Peace

[peaceinknowing]

Thanks for sharing that with all of us, because I thought like I was the only one here on the forums that had so many pharmacies all at one time as well as doctors. Not because I was hiding anything from one or the other. It's hard to do that, especially with the technology that these places have today. I used to be a Pharmacy Technician a few years ago, and when someone came in with a script, we could see what other places they were going to as long as the date of births matched up along with some other little facts of information here and there. This is how a lot of forgeries and other narcotic seekers are caught, though. It was horrible seeing the police come into my work one time and arrest a 74 year old man who was venturing off to so many doctors to obtain different narcotic pain killers. It was SO SO sad.

[peaceinknowing]

Glad to hear that all is going well for you, my friend. I hope that they're able to help them out with medicine to get them through all of the WD mess, because my PCP was the exact opposite and left me high and dry. There are so many helpful doctors out there who are willing to help their patients through something like addiction. But then there are PCPs out there who want nothing to do with you any further as soon as the word addicted or dependant comes out of your mouth. I learned that the hard way! HAHA!

[Jen629]

i had used up all of my resources and had 4 or 5 pharmacys at the same time, cannot even count how many doctors i have gone thru, no matter what i had to taper or to help me with i would take it all at one time, so this is how it goes : ) congrats on day 5! how are you feeling today?

[skrillie]

i feel pretty good today to (day 5). i hope all go's well with your w/d. did you ever ask your dr. for something for the w/d? you should if you havent. i was scared to, but then i did and they were more than willing to help me get off the pain meds.

[peaceinknowing]

Never feel alone in this, there are so many people out here on the forums that are more than willing to help you through this when you need it the most. I'm sorry to hear that for the next few days you're going to be alone in all of this. Just know that I'm here for you if you need anything at anytime, seriously!

[sinkorswimintoronto]

You are welcome : }

[Jen629]

thank you : )

[sinkorswimintoronto]

Thats the only way you can do it. This is your time. Don't get lost or unfocused. It's never too late to say you are sorry. But getting clean is something you can never rush.

[Jen629]

thanks, but i know after the wd's are all over i will have to deal with all the emotional baggage, one step at a time right?

[sinkorswimintoronto]

What really got me over the hump was just reading this forum. Before you know it, the day is gone, and you beat another monkey back. You're gonna feel great tomorrow.

[Jen629]

thanks guys, just trying to keep my mind busy while i move, movies, music, etc. i have been thru this every two weeks for the past three years, but never wanted to stop till now. there has got to be another way to deal with physical pain than this, i know i can never go back to the meds because i crossed that line a long time ago. i am glad i found this site, i am alone for the next few days and i really need some company.

[sinkorswimintoronto]

Keep up the good work. Today is day 5 for me, and I assure you, today should be the last day you feel completely wiped. I am 100% better today than yesterday, granted in I was in a pretty deep box yesterday, but just tough this one out and your gonna be fine.

[peaceinknowing]

So glad to hear that you were finally able to get some sleep lastnight, if even for a mere five hours. I know exactly how that feels, and it sounds like your WD are at the levels that mine were when I first started. Today marks 19 days of me being clean off of Percocet, and I promise you that it can only get better from here. If nothing else helps you through any of this, posting here on the forums will, as it helped me through some of my darkest hours.