Could you share your wds stories?

[Laura20]

I am in midst of wd right now. Feel like i'm dying. Could anyone share their stories about wd so I know i'm not the only one & what I'm going through is normal?

[ochooked]

Hi Laura,
You are certainly not alone - -- I too am going through W/D's although I am tapering from a large addiction to Oxycontin.   All I know is that I hang onto the words of those on this site who went through this and tell me that it does get better.  What day are you on?   The physical part of the addiction may last a few days but the emotional/psychological part may take longer.  Hang in there girl - -- - we can do this - -- there are too many reasons not to fail - -- keep the faith --  pray ---- hold on.   My best wishes are with you.  Ochooked

[dominosarah]

wd's are no fun.  Lets see i was nauseated, diarrehea, the chills then hot, headache,shaky,jumpy skin, anxious,angry and with all of that it was the best thing that could of happened.  I kept in my head that i have to go thru this to get to the other side. I forced the vitamin water as i wasnt hungry.  Ate popsicles and pudding.  kept the food real bland.  This will all be worth it.  I know that is hard to believe right now but we have to rid our bodies of the toxins.  Take warm baths also.  They feel real good.  You are doing a great thing here.  Stay strong            sara

[Laura20]

Yep thats exactly how I feel & its not even 24hrs. Well have'nt had the runs yet but suppose thats coming.Can't even think of emotional/psychological part yet just have to get through this.

[dominosarah]

As a matter of fact 3 months ago today i was going thru my w/d's.  hang on and hold tight as it does really really get better.  I posted thruout my wd and that helped just hearing from others who had been thru this.  YOU CAN DO THIS            sara

[wannabefree330]

Girl you know how proud I am of you.  Keep it up okay?  

The worst part of w/d for me is the anxiety and lonliness I tend to feel.  From day 2-7 I feel so alone and hopeless.  The fatigue and aches aren't fun, but i'd take them anyday over the emptyness that w/d leaves me.  Then.....there is light at the end of the tunnel.  It passes and I see just what beauty life has to offer.  During use, and w/d it is soooo hard to see that, and I remember even thinking, 'I wish i just didn't wake up'.  It will pass, and you have us so PLEASE keep posting, and you know you can pm me anytime!  My thoughts and prayers are w/you right now.

[dominosarah]

If the mental part starts in then post as we will help you thru that too.  Oh i had immodium for the runs too!!!  You are never alone here.         sara

[avisg]

Ohhhhh boy , I came off of tramadol which is knowen for some pretty nasty withdrawals .  I also desided to start wd three days before we moved into our new house .I thought it would keep me busy and it would give me something to focus on other then the WD . I also worked threw it .There were many times I cursed myself for being crazy to try durning all of the other things but I just kept putting one foot in front of the other .Aches and pains were bad .I felt like I was walking around in a fog .I pushed myself and made myself exercise everyday .I had RLS,panic attacks ,my head and jaw were really bad (that what I was taking it for in the fist place ).For me the end of day two was the turning point. I was taking a muscle relaxer called zanaflex that really started helping with the pain I now swear by it .I could hardly eat or drink but when I did i I craved suger
by the time  Thursday came and we signed the house papers I was much better things just got better from that point on .Tramadol really messes with sleep finaly got sleep on the 4th night .I had a few days of panic attacks waking me but by 7 days I was soooooo much better .By two weeks I had never felt better There is a light at the end of the tunnel

[swtbreezie]

I been procrastinating about posting on this thread, I guess I really didn't want to remember.  BUT, it is a part of me.  I had so many emotions going on, after losing my hubby and daughter within a month of each other, and hurricane rita going through my town and I had just lost my daughter they gave the mandatory evacuation and couldnt bury her for almost 2 months, the grief almost killed me I didn't want to think, or dream or remember, so I begain taking more pills to do just that, to forget.  Then one day I woke up and my heart was palpitating, and I knew I would die too if I didnt get off the meds, and stop trying to block out my grief, I had to face it head on, that was the day I went cold turkey. I had no clue sometimes if it was day or night.  I couldn't sleep, I ached all over, and felt like I was dying, the RLS was the worst omg.  These Angels here helped so much in those dark days, I thought losing my family was h*ll and it was, but w/d was horrible too, I bet I could have filled a battleship with tears.  I still have lots to go through, and 7 months is nothing compared to the rest of your life, and living it happy, well and drug free.  I hope this helps, I can always look around and find someone with bigger problems than mine.  God bless you
HUGZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
swtbreezie

[addict3]

Worried posted something in the past few days that will help you alot. Something about were the W/D's as bad as you thought? Many people posted and most that I read said that they werent as bad as they expected them to be.
I know right now you feel terrible but, this will pass. hang in there as it is very much worth it!!! Post, post, post.
Good Luck!!........................You won't die!!

[Coolio Hernendez]

You are really awesome.....Youre story really just messed me up just now......But it made me relize how ggod i have it.....And i act like its so bad...Swtbrezzie...!!!!!

[swtbreezie]

Thanks sweetie and hugzzzzzzzzzzz

[worried878]

I locked myself into my house/i live alone/and only left to go to the gym/i was determined i would do that each day if it killed me  LOL....made it and slept alot...no horror stories.....just did not know the aftermath then....do-able-- u will ive thru the physical wds...day by day and worry about 2moro...2moro...u have all of my support girl...DONT EVER SAY U CAN NOT!   ever...it is bad karma

[jerrip]

Just know I am also going thru this  right now too.     U R  NOT ALONE  God loves you, and so do I.      We'll make it girl!!        Jerri

[Laura20]

how many days for you? what is your DOC?

[joann1975]

Laura....You can do this...You want it and you need it!!! Keep a positive mind set!
♥♥♥JoAnn♥♥♥

[jerrip]

I have 2 new posts it tells all about me....sort of....I didn't say how much I weigh....but did tell my ageLOL!!!!!   Wed. I stopped dilaudid and soma.     what was it for you? Tell me about yourself....this discussion has been really good for me , and I am MUCH calmer since I have been posting tonight....I will talk with you.     Love  Jerri

[Sarah231]

Hi Laura

I went thru withdrawals about 4 months ago following a 10 year daily vicodin addiction. Noy one day in those years was I without the pills and on most days took about 10 per day.

The worst for me was the feeling that I was crawling out of my skin and the restless legs and arms at night. Sat up reading here every night for weeks. (I also learned that you will not die from lack of sleep...lol)

It helped me to picture each agony as the drugs being forced from my body.

It will get better. Imagine how nice life will be when  everything does not revolve around making sure you have your pills, have enough pills etc etc.

[10356]

I left a Journal of my wd. lesa

[christos24]

hey laura, my name is chris, my drug of choice was Oxycontin or Heroin. Either one was fine with me, I just needed either one to get me by. I had an evil addiction along with my first real girlfriend/love. We were completely slaves to the drug for a little over 2 years before I got help. At first it was a weekend thing then it turns into a life or death situation without even realizing it. When we couldnt find OC or H, and couldnt handle waiting any longer, I would resort to doctor shopping trying to obtain anything that would ease the withdrawals. Usually I would pull a back injury or chest pain scam and look for percocets, vicodin, and muscle relaxants(primarily hoping for benzos). By almost the end of the second year I had used over 50 different urgent cares and clinics in the Milwaukee area, pretty much the entire southeast Wisconsin medical system and I was widely known. I couldnt even give my name in any hopsital or clinic without getting a dirty look and being turned away, even if it was legit.  I swear we spent out of the two years using we spent a whole year waiting around for the drugs. For the entire second year I couldnt hold a job because I couldnt show up becuase I was too sick or didnt have the motivation. I had no money but luckily(in my eyes at the time), I had a very well-off girlfriend who had lots of money in savings and was just as bad a junky as myself. It turned out to be a recipe for disaster. We spent over $14,000 in less than five months, it was pathetic, and the justifying you do everyday is so absurd, any sober person would be shocked at the amount of manipulating and bullshitting a junky can pull off. By November 07', It was so bad, we both were using/snorting a gram of etremely pure heroin, making daily trips to Green Bay, somehow without a car or a liscense. It was usually with my junky friend who knew the green bay hook-up, we were so ridiculous we would plan the trip up and back around when his roomate went to work. He was able to obtain his roomates code to his safe and get his keys and while he worked from 12 to 7 we would plan the 5 hour round trip in between then and somehow get a way with it more than 20 times. There were defintely some clsoe calls, way too close, but we always were able to get away with it. You would be amazed at what you can accomlish while searching for youre drugs. We were so bad that to even move ourselves from the bed we needed some lines of H or oxy. The summer of 07' we had tried to quit on our own using tramdol, clonidine, and xanax. We were able to stay clean for almost two months but then I legitimately hurt my back at a job I kept for four weeks and it started all over again this time hitting us triple times as hard. I thank god on November 1st my parents recieved a letter about an urgent care viist from back home that was left unpaid from earlier that summer. My parents wouldnt have thought much of it but the date from when it was when i supposedly back at school in Milwaukee and it gave the prescriptions and description of the visit. My parents were divorced so my mom contacted my dad and they all sat down and talked. The first call I was on my way to the last clinic I was not known at yet, picking up a refill a prescription for 30 percs and 20 valiums for a bogus back accident. Those were the last two days I would use for what fealt like forever.  I definitely made sure to numb myself entirely. The call was on Wednesday I broke down and told my prarents everything on Thursday. I agreed to go to a detox that weekend and enter treatment plan. I agreed ot try suboxone which at the item i had only heard about, but had heard was pretty strong stuff. I told my parents everything my girlfriend opted to use the suboxone with me sharing my scripts, probably not the best idea. That saturday morning I took my last two percs and valium and entered Meriter hospital in Madison and enter detox. I was given  immodium, clonidine every 6 hours, .5 mg of lorazepam every half and hour, antinausea medicine, and ambien for sleep. The suboxone doctor only saw patients on the weekdays so I had to wait it out. Those three days were the longest and hardest days of my life. It was pure hell. On monday night I was seen by a sub doctor and he started me on 4 mgs of suboxone daily and set up an after treatment plan in janesville about 25 mintues from home in Illinois. I eventually moved up to 32 mgs of suboxone through the course of the first two months I also addressed a major addiction to benzos and sleeping pills, primarily xanax and ambien. After an intial two week after-treatment program in Janesville I started seeing an addiction specialist in Beloit, Wi. I was on 3mgs of clonazepam during the day and 4 mgs of lorazepam at night, along with 32 mgs of suboxone daily. Well in March I fell skateboarding, and didnt find out until the beginning of May that I Fractured it and separated it severely. I thought it was just a bad sprain I had no idea hat the pain getting worse and worse was a bad fracture. Well my addiction doctor decided to put me on ms contin and cut down the suboxone at first to 1 8 mg tablet then eventuallly to none and 180 mgs of ms contin a day. Doing that I pretty much started up in my old ways using the orthoepedic doctor for pills, along with my addiction specialist and any other person i could find anything else from.  I was also was back to my old ways and getting worse and worse, eating prescriptions by the day that were supposed to last for at least 30 days. I decided through NA  meetings talking to my dad and my sponsor, to make a change. I started something closer to home and a little cheaper, I started going to a methadone clinic. I just started on  tuesday. It has now been almost a week, and I am now at 45 mgs and tomorrow going to 50 mgs. I feel alot more motivated and am not having the urge to constantly obtain pills through whoever I could. At first the suboxone treament this is how I fealt, but it eventually ended. I believe for milder addictions and some poeple suboxone can be an extremely helpful drug. It def. works for a lot of ppl, but for me It just didnt work or I could not allow it to work. Either way i needed soemthing to change, I now had a wonderful sober girlfriend, with a two year old son, and was working full time at a job I could actually somewhat enjoy going to everyday I didnt want to give it all up and end up back with oxys and H, I was pretty much there, but i think going to the clinic was the smartest and best desicion for me. I am going to take day by day and take this on full blown. Regardless of suboxone, methadone, tapering,whatever, youre going to need to wean off and its going to be tough regardless, but right now where I am at, methadone is the best option for me and depending on how you are and you have to be brutally honest with yourself, you need to decide what will work best for you and I cannot stress enough how much counseling, group meetigns, and NA  will actually help. The treatment choice is only part of the recovery, these meetings are essential and you need to want to be clean as well. I wish you the best of luck sorry for the long long story i could go on for hours talking about all the crazy stupid things ive gone through being a junky, im glad im getting my lfie in order. oh and if you were at all curious as to what had happened with my ex-girlfriend who was also a major junky, she moved back home and from what i am told she is clean but i cant honestly say i trust the source or her. and my friend i would go to green bay with started shooting up after january and is still stuck with the devilish disease, claiming that no treatment will work for him. i wish him the best and you as well, peace....

[mr.lucky66]

I went through withdrawls so many times from so many different drugs. Methadone was the worst because of the time it lasted. Heroin and IV dilaudid were the pits because of instant vomiting and the runs. The pills sucked too , oxy much worse than hydro but it all sucked. The good news, It's been years since those days but we can't afford to forget.

[limodan73]

Hi, just wanted to say its great you found the courage to do this. I think the fear of actually doing it is hard enough. As far as the WD's, something me and the person who went through it together found crappy was the slimy taste of bacon grease that persisted for days 2-4. Sucked. The rest was as already spoken on. Its hell. But, try and remember, you didn't get here in a day or so. So, its gonna take a while. But, Please, remember, its worth it. Good luck and god bless.  Oh, 3 months 12 days for me from a heavy Opiate add.  

[Laura20]

PM if you want. Let me know how your doing. We can compare notes. Good Luck.

[worried878]

How goes it?

[Laura20]

Mostly tired, achy, stomach hurts. Hanging in there.Trying to take it 1 day @ a time.