Couple of hours away from the 72 hr mark.

[rockbottom1970]

I'm almost stepping into day 4 country.  I am really proud of myself because I did this alone for the first time, there was nobody with me except this forum.  I wanted to thank all of you for your words of encouragement and advice.  I really hope the ones that were struggling with me are staying strong and doing well and to the others with serious clean time I wish you all the best and thank you all sincerely.  As for how I'm feeling, its been pretty sluggish, sore, no energy but I did finally crave food for the first time today.  One question though, about the diareaha, it only hit me once so far when it has been a big problem for me before, any thoughts?  Anyways thanks to all and good luck to you.  Keep posting because I still will be.
K.J.

[Baker3336]

Maybe you'll feel great tomorrow and want to get out for a bit. I've been off the norcos for 11 days and I decided to go out tonight to watch a little NCAA basketball. I saw a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while. I did drink some beers but I'm not quitting that, but it was fun and took my mind off that other crap. Just try not to think to far into the future. Just decide tomorrow how ya feel. Maybe I'm wrong but I feel like I still have to live and not shelter myself, I feel better when I'm out doing ****..I had a good evening now I'm home with my kids and just chillin..it sounds like u have some pills laying around or real easy access to them. That's a recipe for disaster IMO. Let us know what u decided to do. Good luck and try to go see your kid play it could be good for the soul..

[rockbottom1970]

I'm collecting information about some kind of aftercare although not as aggressively pursuing it yet because i'm still early in my WD's.  I definately need after care, this is very important to me this time because I need to release some underlying issues that keep haunting me.  I will try the b12, If its different than the B6 because I do have B6.  Thanks for the advice, your time is appreciated.

[IBKleen]

Have you thought about getting into an outside support group? You are learning first hand how evil the mental side of this disease is. I hate to see you throw it away and want for you to stay on track. Doing on your own without the tools to help you stay clean is dangerous. There is an old saying: "I can't WE can".

Hang in there.

[ImDONENoMore]

Have you tried b-12 yet?  The sublingual tablets that melt under your tongue - they worked so well for me for energy maybe it would help you?  :)

[rockbottom1970]

I know what using will do to my sobriety thats why I dont want to use, maybe a 5 hour energy drink or something may help, I dont know.  You are right IBKleen, I was, and still am, happy that I'm into day four.  I cant risk what I worked so hard for, but honestly my minds playing games with me and I'm having a hard time shutting the brain out. Its pretty darn tough. Either I dont go or I go in the condition I am in. It looks like I'm gonna stay home, I was planning on being here for at least 7 days anyway.  Thanks for the kind words everyone.

[IBKleen]

I don't know what you could take. In all honesty, I think it would be dangerous to take anything. We relapse mentally before we pick up the drug and if you are lucky enough to catch or if someone catches it for you, you could snap out of it. Just a few hours ago you were bragging that you were coming up on day 4 and happy to be here. As soon as you were asked to do something that you have done in the past, you were looking for that "push" to get you through it. You put the pills down hun and you have to work on your thinking and your behavior now. No more taking a pill to feel better, or to go somewhere, or to get you through something. That has to come from in side you if you want to stay clean.

I hope you thought about this and have changed your mind about taking anything to get through a hockey game. You CAN make it!!!