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[momscared79]

I finally admitted I have a problem. I am 34 years old and have been addicted to pills on and off for almost 10 years.  I wish I could tell u how many I take in a day but I have lost count. Its so scary to think that the one thing thst makes me feel good I won't have any more. Its all I think about. It has absored me and my life. I have list everything.  I am so afraid of the withdrawls I am scared if I don't get help I will go back. Please help

[freedomahead]

You may feel lost withoutbthem now, but you will feel so grateefulmonce your completely off them and realize how much better you actually feel, not using..its a incredible awakening. And life will get better.. you must want this..like really want it.

[nonights]

That's the spirit. Its a process that you can get through. Praying for you.

[momscared79]

Thank u everyone.  Reading your kind words have gotten me through the night. Im not going to lie right now I'd give my left arm and right kidney for a fix but I can no longer be a slave to this addiction. I can and I will do this

[odaat1]

Fear of withdrawals kept me from quitting for a long time.  The withdrawals won't kill you but the pills will.  You will see here on the forum, that we are all survivors of withdrawals, no one has died from quitting drugs (that I know of)
Please give it a try, you will have so many people here holding you up, and you can trust the folks here and believe them when they say you will be ok!

[Kelly98_]

Oh and I'm a mom of 4 so this isn't easy! I've been through a lot and I guess I was a functioning addict because my is going to be 17 yrs old on March 25th and I never lost them like others their first yr born! I still cared and felt guilt but tried to put them first! Keep pushing forward mom its gonna be okay! There is a light and I'm almost there already! Kel

[Kelly98_]

I'm 34 yrs old and a slave to opiates for 13 yrs and I'm now on day 13 and I have slept 2 whole nights now! Crazy thing is lack of energy on and off! But I didn't sleep well till after 10 day! Its still a strugglt but I play music now so my heads not spinning with crazy thoughts! I also turned to god! I asked for forgiveness and strength and more territory and to free me from harm or pain! Its helped tremendously! I'm still wd and sneezing but its a feeling and I'm glad to feel again! I jog in place for now and recently started push ups for my arms to tire them out at night! We are weak right now and its okay eat healthy and find a doc to help u! Don't quit cold turkey like I did! I was on oxycontin and heroin for 5 yrs anf then suboxone and heroin back and forth for 7yrs so I believe I am over the hump cus I've never before made it this long clean! I've even flown to Boston and the Cape to enter their 7 day detox and I've never succeeded so that's why I did this on my own! It seems to be more anxiety around others while wd for me but everyones different! Good luck and have hope and faith! I'm sure we've all been there and if we can do this I'm sure u will too when ready! You have to want it for u first before anything else! Good luck!

[nonights]

Please keep posting.

[takingmylifeback2014]

Hi and welcome!! Please tell us what you are taking? Don't be scared of withdrawals they are hard but there are tons of things you can do to make them tolerable. There's no better feeling then not be a save to these damn pills!!

[BanMethadone]

Hi mom: welcome. I know you are scared right now. I am also close to your age and have been addicted for 16 years now. 14 spent on methadone! Sleep is not my friend at all, and it's a very hard part of the process of WD. It is the one thing that sends most people back, but that's a very bad choice because it only ensures you have to endure more pain later.

It's going to be ok :) There are SO many amazing things that you will experience because of your recovery, should you decide to quit now. Without knowing much more, I don't know how to advise you exactly.

There are tons of devices you can use to help you cope through wd and also you can see a doctor. Most of all do not do it alone. You should not have to feel alone in this, because that's a very painful place to be.

I am going through wd right now too not sleeping much at all, and it wreaks havoc on the body, but it is temporary and a price well worth paying for your freedom and self esteem.

I hope you're ok. What are you experiencing at the moment?

[nonights]

Hey mom its going to be okay. First welcome to forum. This is right place for help. What are you taking?

[momscared79]

Sleep is not my friend tonight