Important day

[Ejm7263]

So it's day 13 but today is the day I meet with my PCP, he's also a previous co-worker and he's my dear, dear friend. A great Christian man who's always looked up to me. I worked in a teaching hospital & I was over him when he was a baby doctor. I'm telling him everything, everything that he needs to know. Not enough to harm him. But enough for him to care for me properly from now on. Then I'm calling my pain management doctor & simply tell him I've made the decision to stop taking all my medications. Thank him for his care but I'll no longer be using a pain man agent doctor & to please fax my records to the referring doctor! My PCP. I had no other connections, I didn't need any he's a generous doctor, if you know what I mean. He also decided that when I stopped nursing & went on disability I should be comfortable. Once I break contact with him I can't see him again, he only takes consults.
So this is a big day.
You'll convinced me I could do this but I was skeptical until I reestablished myself back in a 12 step program. For me in this area it's AA. In 1996 it was NA for me but I know a healthy group when I find it & praise GOD I have. So this is a big step for me.
Honestly I didn't do this one day 1 because I had reservations. I DO NOT NOW.
I don't even know how to thank you all!!!!!

[clean_in_ks]

Congratulations on your decision(s) with both doctors.....it is one you won't ever regret~

Unless we tell our doctors, we are leaving a small crack in the door open that can very easily lead us backwards.  Your honesty speaks volumes about your commitment to get and stay clean.

YEAH for 13 days.....each day we don't use....we are healing, even when we don't "feel" like it.  Keep on keepin on :)

[Ejm7263]

I love that song. I'm starting to feel a little better. I can't wait till all this is out of my system & I can start to feel healthy again. I know how much poison I've put in myself for 7 years, it's going to take awhile. You know how impatient we can be.
You'll are helping to save me.
If I hadn't found you'll I'd never even tried this, much less imagine I could succeed.
Thank you!!!

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

You are so much stronger than you think you are...and courageous.  You CAN do this...just keep posting in here and keep to your plan.  You will do this...You are not that far behind me....I can't wait till a whole bunch of us get to celebrate a year next summer!

Keep on fighting ... you will survive...my theme song for this summer...I Wiill Survive...name the song lol

Kudo's to you!
xox

[Ejm7263]

First day I've been able to get up & dressed since this happened. Don't worry it's ok if I feel worse again tomorrow because I've had moments. Thanks for all your help. I always know your going to tell me the truth & say something positive. GOD bless you!!!

[Jinx_777]

congrats.  such a brave and honest thing to do.  important too.  congrats.  seems you got your wings.  :)

[weaver71]

Go to any length and you will not regret it. I like your plan and believe today will be a day you will never forget. I'm so happy your reservations are gone. Never stop growing, it just gets better and better.