This is day 1, I have been these animals (Vicodin 7.5/500) for about 7 years and originally used for back pain. Once the pain was gone I ccon't like an idiot and became addicted. I have seen a lot of money, dr's visits etc go by trying to get what I needed to feel human. I would have to take in am just to move, and of course all through out the day to KEEP moving. I hate what they have done to me, how often I look to obtain them and the person I have become. I DON'T spend quality time with my family because I always just not in the mood. This is just not who I am, I hate who I have become and want OUT now. I am feeling a bit emotional right now and not sure why, no appetite and didn't sleep last night. I want my life back. I want to be happy doing things in every day life with those devils anymore. I just want to be ME. I know this will be the toughest thing I have ever done, but I am 42 and am ruining my life completely. I can't enter a program but I can do is maybe post here and pray to god I get better and fight for my life! I have a horrible taste in my mouth I can't quite explain, stomach is little nasty and hands a bit shaky. Looking for advise, wisdom and a friend here to help me. I can not let anyone know this, it is my beast. I will allow others in later possibly. Is day 2-3-4- any better than 1st 24hrs? I have been drinking a lot of water and peeing a ton, is that a good thing? Need a friend :(