I'm not sure what you're looking for, hon.
You write "Is it safe to keep putting my body through this every month?"
I know exactly what you are talking about. I was running out every month and going thru early withdrawals, only to get my refill, and repeat the cycle again, over and over and over.
Is it safe? Hard to say. You're definitely putting a strain on your body; all your major organ systems are affected. Will it hurt you? It might, it could.
Have you gotten a second and third opinion about this hockey injury that is inoperable? Did a doctor TELL you that you were going to be a chronic pain patient for the rest of your life? No physical therapy, acupuncture, yoga, hypnosis, that might help?
It's tough on your body to be on opiates for long, long periods of time...decades, I mean.
You'll develop a tolerance, and your cognition will be affected...if, God forbid, you got in a car accident, and were taken to a hospital, the presence of opiates in your blood could get you in legal trouble.
As I said...I'm not quite clear on what you're asking. Do you want to get off the pills and try something, anything, to deal with the pain?
I have severe costochondritis and degenerative disc disease. I was told I'd be on pain pills for life..but after 8 years, they were destroying my life. I wont' rehash my story as you can read it all here.
Tell us what YOU want for you...you've got a lot of life ahead of you...and your choices will factor heavily into the quality of that life...
Hugs,
-Robin
Listen to Bears
She is 100% right. No other way to say it!!!!
you are on a roller coaster! Unless you want to stop this will continue and maybe get worse each time. It is hard on your body doing this to it each month! you will take more and more each month to get that high you feel.Your body creates more pain so you will take more. I was on them for almost 11 years after I stopped my pain levels went way down! Aleve is all I take for it now and it works.I had an accident last year and had to go back on them for almost a year and today I am 10 days CT! Life is really better off them!
You need to decide what you want to do! If you decide to stop we are here for you!